ryan walked into school tiredly. despite what he said about going to sleep and being tired only half of that was true. that was the part about sleeping.

as he walked to his locker, he knew brendon was going to be waiting for him to get answers on this "someone else". this also led him to walking slower, though his mom and dad forced him to get out the house early since he was ready already.

"go talk to your friends more," they said.

he din't need to, no.

but, ryan knew brendon was always there before him and on time. the exact opposite could be said for ryan. he was just lazy as hell, so he always procrastinated getting ready, and therefore, was late most of the time.

his suspicions were confirmed when he was met with a large forehead and a cute as hell face.

"ryan," brendon started. "let's go somewhere more private to speak." ryan nodded. he wasn't going to tell brendon that the "someone else" was him. he was just walking to their special spot.

they made it to the school garden. their private garden.

"brendon, i'm not talking,' ryan said with a huff.

"ryan! just tell me who it is!" brendon didn't see why it was so hard to tell him. he didn't know.

"no!"

"do you not trust me? am i not a good enough friend? did i do something wrong? what did i do wrong?" brendon frantically asked all questions he needed answered right now. he searched ryan's face for any sign at all. a tear escaped from his eye.

"no, brendon! you haven't done anything wrong! just stop!"

"ryan, please," brendon choked out. ryan's heart clenched with every sob.

"brendon, stop! just stop! i cannot tell you!" ryan screamed. he hated to see his best friend like this because of him.

brendon looked up. "just tell me ryan!"

"i can't, you'll hate me..."

"ryan! just tell me! do i mean nothing to you!" he yelled.

ryan looked around at the deserted garden. he started to walk out. brendon's hand held onto, his wrist, but ryan yanked his lanky wrist away and kept walking. he walked out on brendon's sobs, brendon's sadness, brendon's health, and most importantly, brendon.

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bruh what just happened.

shOOk

i had to stop listening to khalid.

:(

i was getting too addicted...

started: 6/12/17

published: 6/12/17