i ran toward dallon, but he ran even faster. he started to fade away and i screamed with everything in me. nobody cared. they weren't looking at all. the last of dallon faded away and i sobbed.

he was gone.

and there was nothing i could do.

just as my world began to darken without the stars in the night sky, my world became brighter than ever.

brendon.

brendon was my sun and i just needed to realize that.

and i'd finally managed to.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i shot up in bed, sweaty, and tangled in a mess of covers. i frantically tried to untangle myself but it seemed useless.

i felt so,

stuck.

nothing was working, and everytime i tried, it would be a failed attempt. the covers were sticking to my body from sweat, and i just wanted to get out.

i took a second to calm down, and hurriedly removed the covers, but carefully.

as i was getting out of bed, i was thinking,

dallon wasn't who i was thinking of tonight because it was brendon. brendon boyd urie.

my best friend.

i walked to the bathroom slowly. drained.

i splashed cold water on my face, thinking,

i'm not over you fully, but i'll try because you weren't the one for me.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i was legit listening to coaster by khalid. it gave me some ideas for this chapter.

might do a double update wooooo.

feeling generous because i haven't updated since (wait lemme check. i know it was last month) frick, actually it was april. 29th to be exact.

oops.

started: 6/12/17

published: 6/12/17