Hey

Umm sorry for me sending this in the morning but I just hope that it will make u happy for the rest of the day and that u will remember what I say coz I *rly mean everything* that I’m about to tell u.

Where do I start?

After that msg u sent to me I felt rly bad but at the same time happy for u. Ik that u r *afraid of dying and so am I*. But if I’m with u when I die and I hav been with u for most of my life then I would enjoy my death coz I would of had the best end I could hav. And that’s by having it *with u*. And when we were walking past that graveyard I thought that I don’t want to die. I want to *live with u* for the *rest of my life*. And I mean it, u hav make me so happy that I can’t describe it in words.

Another thing is that (this might sound weird) when I go to sleep the last thing I think about is *u* and when I wake up the first thing I think about is *u*. U r always in my head and *I love it*. Coz Ik that I don’t hav a gf that will cheat on me or take advantage of me. Because u r fair and believe in a equal relationship. And I *love* that. I *love* that u understand me. I *love* that u listen to me. The list goes on. The point is that *I love u* and everything about u. And when I say this I mean it. And if u don’t think u r *good looking* and u don’t think u r a good gf then u r wrong.

U r the best gf I hav had and hopefully the last. Coz I rly think u r my soulmate. We r just perfect, we never argue and when I’m happy u r happy visa versa. and I want to stay with u forever and be *close to u forever*. And god when I think about loosing u I start to tear up as I am now. *I just love u so much* and, and... I just don’t know how to describe how much I love u. All that I can rly say is that I would do *anything for u* and for our relationship to last. I could go on about u and how amazing u r and u know I could.

Another this is about u getting embarrassed and all that. If u feel embarrassed about saying something and u feel stupid. Don’t. Coz *I ain’t gonna go against u* or be like" y is she so dumb" coz I feel exactly the same. And like I said yesterday. If u feel embarrassed then then* *just go with it*. Because u will probably enjoy what happens and if u still feel embarrassed then just *close your eyes* and *hope for the best*. Coz u will need to get used to this stuff and Ik u will eventually and the only thing I can do is try to help u with it.

One of my last things to say is about when u feel down and I guess this goes for me too. Whenever u feel down and your brain is blocking out your ideas just remember that *u control your brain* and your brain controls your body and actions. U r always capable of stopping yourself from doing something stupid and if u can’t then I will always here for u and be here to *protect* and *heal u*. And going back on me saying to *close your eyes* and *hope for the best* that doesn’t only go for your embarrassment but it goes for everything. And maybe like me u should start taking up *mediation*. Coz it clears your mind and fills u up with power and just helps in general.

The final thing is that I hav made some words bold and those words I want u to pay attention to and understand that u r not alone anymore and that u hav me for *help* and *protection*.

I love u so much Ava 😘❤😘❤😘❤😘❤😘xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox