My Hazel,

My Hazel. I miss you so much today. It's been officially a month since you left. I miss your crude and snide remarks. I miss your smile, your eyes, your laugh. Though I'd trade myself for you to be back in this world but I wouldn't like that. You know why? Because then you'd want to escape this world and that's what you always wanted, right?

Me and Christian crossed paths today. We fought and exchanged punches. He hit me way too hard but I wasn't a softie myself. He pissed me off. He said he blamed himself for your... You know... Why you left. He blamed himself. He said if he hadn't developed feelings for you then it wouldn't have happened. That pissed me off. So I punched him. I told him that if you were here you wouldn't want us to fight. That pissed him off, I guess. So then he punched me.

Now I have a busted lip and thank god he spared my eye this time.

He replied to my birthday text from last week. He says "thank you pussy"

He's still my bestfriend.

-Jayden Lister.