Dear hazel,

I feel like I'm going insane thinking about it. I don't want you to get hurt, but I need to tell you. I proposed her, and now I think I have fallen in love with her.

I have to live, don't I? And I have to move forward in order to live. I talked to mum about this and she said I have to forget the past and move on. How could I forget my past? You? Every second I spent with you was the climax of my life... I was always on cloud nine. I loved you, heck, I still do. But back then it was so real. But now it all feels like a bad dream. Like a nightmare; a nightmare that I wish could still come true.

I used to be so happy, so carefree. Now I feel like as I'm always walking on eggshells. I don't wanna do anything that'll hurt you but I don't wanna do anything that might hurt Juliana.

Give me a sign, Hazel. I need your support. Hope to see you again in my dreams.

Yours,
Jayden.