"Wake up sunshine...." I heard his voice and opened my eyes to find him there adjusting the drapes so that the sunlight could enter into the room he was wearing a white shirt with his normal jeans I ran towards him near the window and hugged him from the back....
"What happened love.... " He asked...
"I saw a very b...b...bad d....d....dream Sid I saw you t...t...telling me that you d...don't l...love me all of this was an a...act..... I was so scared..... P...please don't leave me " I said now hugging him tightly from the front....
"Baby that was just a dream it's never possible for me to not love you....." With that he kissed me on my forehead
"I love you my love...."
"I love you too...." And after that everything went blank the sunlight vanished instead there was darkness everywhere I searched for him but he wasn't there
"Sid... Sid... Sid...." And with that I woke up with screaming his name I was in the room the sunlight was entering into the room but he was not there still my eyes were searching for him heart was longing for him how can he put me out of his life when I can't even put him out of my dreams..... Why Sid why did you do this to me......
Just then the room door clicked for a second I thought may be it's Sidharth.... But it was Rads she came inside the room holding a jewellery box..... Entered and saw me...
"Oh.... Oh.... Sorry sorry sorry I didn't knew you and Sid are here I thought you guys would be in his room..... Sorry for disturbing you guys.... I will come later" she said and was about to go but then turned back....
"Waise where is Sid and why do you look sad...?" She asked I couldn't control anymore I got up and ran towards her and hugged her and cried my heart out...
"Everything is o...o..over Rads.... E....e.....e...everything is gone.... It was a...a...all a lie...."  I said...
"What ???what are you saying Avu I can't understand..." She said....
I couldn't reply to her she went and closed the door she had opened.... And then came back to me...
"Come sit here first..... Now tell me why are you crying where is Sid.... Is everything fine...??" She asked making me sit in the bed..... And was continuously rubbing my back....
"Nothing is fine R...R... Rads.... Everything got o...over" I said...
"What got over please tell me the full story Avu....?? My mind is full with negative thoughts right now.... Sid is fine right??" She asked.... I nodded
"Tell me what happened...."
"He.... He.... He..... doesn't l...love me he said that it was all an a...a...act and doesn't w..want to c...continue it anymore as it may a...a...affect my and B....B...Bhabhi's relation and then her marriage with B...B..Bhai...."
"WHAT???" what the hell is wrong with Sid.... Don't cry Avu I am sure it's some kind of prank he is playing.... Let me talk to that idiot...." Rads said and got up to go-to his room and I held her hand and stopped her...
"No Rads he is n...n...not joking I a...a...asked him and even saw the h....h....hollowness in h...h...his eyes...... Everything is over Rads.... Everything is gone.... " I said tears still pouring out of my eyes....
"But why.... I am so sorry Avu I was not there with you I thought you guys are in his room shit.... Leave all that.... Don't cry Avu.... Everything is gonna be fine...." She said but in my heart I knew nothing is ever gonna be fine for me....
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Sam had left after I had requested him to leave me alone for sometime the whole night I wasn't able to sleep her crying face and the guilt inside me was not letting me sleep I sat near the window looking out.... I broke her heart the thing I was supposed to protect all my life I broke it.... just then I felt a soft palm on my cheeks I turned and it was her wearing a saree as always.... But today she didn't have the usual smile she always had instead her face was expressionless her cheeks had tear stains I know I was imagining her like always since the time I realised I love her I have always woke up with her imaginations and it had always been the reason for my smile in the morning but today It was a remainder of how insensitively I have broken her heart
"Why did you do this to me Sid.... Why.... I loved you with all my heart..... Why Sid...." She asked me and then vanished from there..... Like she had vanished yesterday saying that she hates me and why shouldn't she all she got for loving me was betrayal.... Just then my phone binged it was from Sam ..
"Hey bro.... I am at your door if you are awake open it...." He had texted.... I washed my face and went and opened the door
"Hi..... Doing fine" he asked after a long pause... I just nodded....
"Did you....." I said....
"Yes I checked on Avu.... Right now Rads is in the room......" He said understanding my question...
"Thank you...I don't know how would have I handled all this without you Sam...." I said....
"Stop it Sid I should be the one thanking you you are sacrificing a lot for Di...." He said...
"You don't need to Sam... Even you would have done the same thing happily...." I said
"Do you wanna have breakfast inside the room..." He asked...
"No Sam... I have to face her.... Just give me few minutes I will get ready...."
"Okay...." He said and paused again...I knew something was inside his head
"Do you wanna ask something Sam .." I asked him...
"Han... Woh.... Samaira...."
"Don't worry I will tell everyone today itself....I have already told Samaira... She knows it's an act..... " I replied...
"I know that Sid.... But I thought we should wait for a few days.... You know Avu may..."
"I know Sam... But it would be better for her too there is no point in hurting her slowly and anyway I don't trust that Rey....we cant risk Tanya going back to Paris and morever it's better that this fiasco ends as soon as possible..." I said...
"Ya you are right.... Sid there is one more thing..." He said...
"Ya.."
"I really feel that we should tell Avneet everything.... Then you wouldn't need to act like this with her "
"No Sam we can't do it Rey is not that foolish....... Don't worry she will know it with everyone else... "
"Okay whatever you say.... You get ready I will be waiting outside...." I nodded to this...
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"Avneet do you wanna join me for breakfast...." I asked Avneet we had come back to our room and gotten ready.... She hadn't spoken a word since then neither had I asked anything before this I looked at her there was no expression on her face her eyes had got tired of crying.... Only pain was visible in them.....
"No you go...." She said... Looking at the window she was sitting near to...
"Do you want me to order something for you..." I asked....
"No I will do it myself..." She replied...
"Avu I know you are going through a lot right now maybe having a breakfast right now or being a part of this wedding isn't a great deal for you right now but it is for your family.... for your Bhai..... I know Sid did a terrible thing to you but you can't punish yourself for that neither should you punish Jai Bhai for it..... Whatever happened we will sort it out and I am sure everything is gonna be fine but you are never going be a part of your brother's wedding if you miss this..... I know it would be difficult but do it for your brother do it for yourself.... Please babe...." I said she looked at me...
"H...How am I going to f...f...face him Rads.... When it's so d....d...difficult for me to n..not think about h....him even when he is not I....Infront of me how am I g...gonna do it Infr...front of him...." She said wiping off her tears..... And shuttering she has been doing it since morning.... Poor Avneet I can't see her like that.... I can't even understand why Sid is doing all this..... I need to talk to him....
"Avneet.... I know.... But still please can you join me..... " I requested her I was in no mood to leave her alone especially when she needs me the most.... She looked at me and nodded..... Then went to the washroom  to wash her face and we both came to the the dining area the whole family was there even Avneet's and Samaira's parents had joined the table.... We entered Sam and Sid were standing at the entrance itself.... I saw Avneet and Sid having an eyelock but it was broken by her as soon as she could....
"Rads I am in the table..." And with that she went from there I wanted to go behind her but someone needed a hearty scolding from me so I went near Sid and Sam....
"What the hell is wrong with you Sid....???how dare you hurt her..... Have you gone nuts or something..." I blasted on him as soon as I reached near him....
"Rads calm down let's not create a scene here everyone is here we will talk about it later...." Sam said to me...
"Fine but I am not leaving you Sid .." and with that I went and sat near Avneet..." Even the boys joined us a little later but they didn't sit near us as usual instead sat near Vibha aunty after a while even Samaira joined the table and sat near her parents and looked happier than usual may be she got to know what Sid did.... I don't care right now about her all I care about is Avu...
Everyone finished there breakfast and were about to go.... When Sid got up from his chair and said....
"Guys..... I have something to say to you all can we all meet in my room in 10 minutes..."
"What do you wanna say beta..." Vibha aunty asked...
"It's something important mom....." Sid said....
Everyone looked confused except Sam and Sid what is going on in their heads first both of them behaved weird then Sid does the stupidest thing he could ever do and now this what do they wanna talk....
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As Sid had said everyone to come to his room everyone moved there I told Rads that I am going back to our suite and was just about to go from there when Bhabhi came near us...
"Hi girls..." She chirped I smiled at her
"Good morning Bhabhi..." Rads replied...
"So do you guys know what Sid was talking about..." She asked looking at me....
"No Bhabhi we don't have any idea about this...." Rads replied...
"Oh...... That's weird...."she said looking confused....
"Why..." Rads asked...
"I mean even bee didn't know about it so I thought may be the love of his life would know but it looks like Sid planned a suprise for us..." She said smiling at me..... It stung me to hear that I am the love of his life wow Sidharth Nigam good job with your acting even your own sister wasn't able to crack it.....
"Come what are you waiting for " she said...
"No Bhabhi you and Rads go.... I don't think I will be needed there...." I said...
"Are you kidding me....... In my knowledge you are the only person in this whole wide world that Sid needs the most..... Believe me I think he can leave without his cupcakes and workout but not without you...." She said looking at me.... I could feel the tears returning.... No Avneet not Infront of Bhabhi I can't be weak Infront of anybody she deserves to know but not from me....
"Hey Avneet... Are you guys fighting again.... Come on Yaar I am sure it would be stupid again.... Come let's go..." She said.... I thought for a while I have to see him for everyday here and after this wedding in college also... I have to be strong for Bhai specially..... His special day doesn't need to be spoiled because his sister fell in love with a jerk....I nodded looking at her.... Then we started going towards his room....
"Bhabhi btw where is Jai Bhai he was not there in the breakfast table also..." I asked...
"Oh.... Actually he was tired and wanted to sleep a little bit more so he wasn't there he must have ordered it to his room don't worry...." She replied and I nodded.... Soon we reached his room and entered.... There was everyone in the room even my parents and Samaira and her parents even Rey too.... what does he need to talk about??..... I just hope it's nothing related to us I don't think dad would react well..... No he wouldn't do it may be it would be something related to the wedding.... Ya it would be that only....
"So Sid what did you wanna say..." Vivek uncle asked....
"Mamu I have something very important to tell you guys.... "
"Sid we know tell it now.... You are just making everyone curious..." Bhabhi said... Sid looked towards her and gave her a smile and then started again...
"So almost everyone here knows that I never believed in the concept of love because of things that happened with my mother..... all my life I thought that there is no girl in this world who can make me fall in love with her in a way I had rejected love even if it was possible for me but I guess god planned something else for me I fell in love with a girl I could never imagine I will fall for.... Due to my denial I hurt her the most I hurt the girl who loved me the most.... But as I said god planned something different for me...." He said looking towards me.... why does it feel like these words are for me but are they for me.... Maybe he realised..... He continued....
"So I am nobody to deny his plans.... So I accepted that she is the love of my life and my family is the most important thing I have in my life so are my friends... so everyone here deserves to know her and know about my love...." He said
"Oh my god oh my god.... I can't believe it finally you guys decided to tell everyone I am so happy for you Sid...." Bhabhi got up from her couch and hugged Sid...
"Wait you knew about this..." Sarita aunty asked....
"Yes obviously I did.... Even Jai did... I am so happy..." She said jumping....
"Di Di Di... Listen first let me tell everyone..." Sid said...
"Oh yes yes..... So foolish of me I shouldn't spoil it...." She said..... she ran and came to sit near me....
"That's why you were not coming here shy and all haan.... I am so proud of myself to bring you here..." She whispered into my ear...
"Bhabhi I don't think...." I tried telling her...
"Oh shut up now don't tell that he is not talking about you...." She said.... And to be honest even I felt that it was me.... My brain knew it wasn't but the heart wasn't ready to accept.... Is it or it isn't....
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Di went and sat with Avneet she thought I was talking about Avu..... To be honest she wasn't completely wrong it was very hard for me to not look into her eyes while I spoke all those lines it was all for her because for me the meaning of love will always be Avneet.....
"Sid come on tell her name I am dieing to go and hug her...." Mom said looking at Avneet..... Even her parents looked happy
"Yes mom  I will...." I said...
I closed my eyes and thought about the day I had realised that I loved her.... In the car on my birthday..... I had imagined her in a wedding attire..... I again heard the words she had said that day....
"You know what to do Sid...." I opened my eyes.... And continued...
"So the girl who I am in love with is none other than...... SAMAIRA...."
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"So the girl who I am in love with is none other than...... SAMAIRA...."
I felt like my heart got crushed again.... Why did he want me here.... to listen all this.... wasn't last night enough..... How can I be so stupid to be still expecting it to be me..... The whole time Bhabhi had held my hands but had left as soon as he told Samaira's name.... Rads had moved to my side holding me I nodded at her I had to control myself but it was starting to look impossible......
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The moment I had said Samaira's name everyone looked shocked.... She got up and stood beside me her parents came and congratulated us they were the only one who looked genuinely happy all others were shocked even mom didn't react
"I know I have been quite late in telling you guys about this and in this process have also hurt someone's feeling and their love to me.... I am sorry for that and I hope you guys will accept this..." I said.... And then Rey came and hugged me and whispered into my ears...
"Good job.... Happy heartbreak brother...." He said with a sly smile and then went from the the room... Mamu and Mami got up and came to us although the expression they had in their face was not happy but still they smiled.... Mami hugged Samaira and then..... Slowly everyone congratulated to me except mom and Di.... Finally mom got up and said...
"Can I have a talk with you Sidharth...." She said.... I nodded at her but then Di stood...
"Bee.... Can I have a talk with him first privately I have very important questions to ask him can you guys please leave us a bit I promise he will go to you as soon as possible..." Di said the elders looked at each other and then mom nodded and then they went from there.... Even Rads and Avu were about go out too but Di spoke again...
"Rads Avu you guys don't need to leave " and then they both stopped Samaira had still not gone...
"I don't know what part you didn't understand Samaira I said I wanna talk to my brother alone...." Di said looking at her... She smiled and replied
"Di.... You are gonna have a talk with Sid about us so I need be here as I am his girlfriend.... Besides if Avu and Rads are here....." She didn't complete her sentence and Di stopped her...
"I am an adult Samaira.... I know who I want in the room you don't need to tell me and guess what I have to talk to my brother  so please leave the room..." She said showing her the door.... She looked at me I nodded at her and then she went out of the room.... Di looked at me.... And said...
"Will anyone tell me what happened....??" She said....
"Di I know you are angry right now.... But try and understand..." Sam said...
"Try and understand..... Have you guys gone nuts or something..... For the first time in my life I saw my brother falling madly in love with a girl and the last thing I knew was they were dating but god knows what happened between you guys..... now Sid is  saying that he is in love with Samaira freaking Samaira.... The girl he didn't even like to have a talk with.... And then my other brother says that I should try and understand...... What do I understand from this Sid....Goddamnit Answer me..."
Just when Di had finished we heard a knock on the door.....
"Who is it ???" Di asked rudely...
"It's me Jai....." He replied Di went and opened the door.. he rushed inside
"What the the hell is happening Rey just told me...." He said as soon as he entered into the room....
"Even I am trying to find out what happened...." Di replied to him...
"Will anyone please tell me what is going on...." She asked again...
"Di I am in love with Samaira.... " I said...
"Then what the HELL WERE YOU DOING WITH MY SISTER A FEW DAYS AGO...."  Jai screamed at me
"It..... It..... It...... Was all an act to impress her she was like just any other girl I ever had and it was also due to the fact that I didn't want to accept my feelings for Samaira.... But I realised my mistake and hence told Avneet everything yesterday itself..... And to Samaira also.... I am sorr" I had not completed when Jai had thrown himself on me....
"HOW DARE YOU DO IT TO MY SISTER...... I WILL KILL YOU SIDHARTH NIGAM" he slapped me and then said holding my collar....
"BHAI!!!!..... BHAI leave him.... Please leave him...." Avu said coming in between us even Sam had joined to separate us...
"Leave him right now Jai....." Sam said finally being able to separate us....
"Bhai please please calm down...... Please...." Avneet said to her brother....
"Can't you hear what he is saying...." Jai asked her..
"Please Bhai please...... For me for Bhabhi.... Please...." She requested how can she be so nice to be when I am the sole reason for her heartbreak I don't know I am lucky to have her or unlucky to have to loose her.....
"Sid stop lying okay..... I know you..... you are my brother...... You love her I have seen this..... Please tell me you are lying..." Di asked...
"No Di am not I really don't love Avneet.... I love Samaira...." I repeated again....
"No you don't I am sure there is something you are not saying I know you I have seen the love you have for Avneet in your eyes why are you doing this..????."
"Di nothing of that is true...... I really love Samaira..... I have always been but never accepted that because I wanted to love my life first I knew she wasn't going anywhere but when I started my drama with Avneet she got really hurt this time because like you all she thought it to be true but i..i..it wasn't i was never in love  "
"That's it..... I FUCKING DON'T CARE WHO YOU LOVE BUT WHY THE HELL YOU DID THAT TO MY SISTER...." Jai screamed again and was coming near me to slap me again but this time Sam held his hand...
"Enough is enough Jai.... One more time you are near my brother I will forget that my sister is gonna marry you...." Sam said to him...
"SAM..... don't.... Leave his hand right now...." I told him and he did it....
"Where was this big brother inside you when he was playing with my sister's feelings haan" Jai screamed at Sam now....
"He is saying sorry for it and what the hell you are punishing him for he realised that he was doing wrong tried correcting it would it have been nice for you if he would have continued this charade when in actual he is in love with another girl...." Sam said to them...
"Are you seriously backing him up in this " Jai asked.... Him
"Wait..." I heard Rads voice....
"You..... You..... Knew about this........ " Rads asked with a choking voice.... everyone was now looking at Sam I could see tears brimming in Rads eyes no this shouldn't happen to my brother..... he doesn't need to go through what I am going through....
"No Rads.... He didn't...." I tried telling her but Sam interrupted....
"Yes I knew...." Sam said looking directly into Rads eyes....
"Stop lying Sam you don't need to....." I tried clearing
"I have to..... Tell them the the truth..... Sid..." He said
"This is not true..... I am sure there is something that Samaira is doing to make you guys do this..... I know that bitch...."
"No Di it's nothing like that.... I really love her and I am really sorry for what I did with Avneet but I can't act anymore i realised that I can't be treating Avneet who is going to be such a important part in your life like some conquest neither can I ignore my feelings for Samaira anymore...."
I lied...
"Shut up..... fine you are saying the truth right  " Di came near me took my hands and kept it on her head and said....
"Swear on me Sid and tell that you are not doing this because someone is forcing you to do this...."
"Di this is foolish.... " Sam said.... Trying to save me....
"It isn't for me..... Go ahead Sid swear on me.... " Di said looking into my eyes.... I kept silent I can't swear on her and lie... what do I do now....
"Why are you quite Sid..... Tell no..... I know you can't because you ar......" She was about to complete her sentence when I interrupted....
"I swear on you Di....... Samaira is not blackmailing me to do all this...." I said...
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"I swear on you Di....... Samaira is not blackmailing me to do all this...."..... As soon as Sid said those words Bhabhi was stunned she didn't speak for a few moments..... A teardrop fell down passing through her cheeks..... She started walking back....
"I cant believe this..... I was so wrong in Judging you guys...." Jai Bhai said....
"How.... How.... Could you do this Sam...??" I asked Sam looking into his eyes....
"Rads understand...... Sid is my brother....."
"Wow...... That is the explanation you have for not telling the girl who considered you as one of her best friend... That her feelings are being made fun of just because the person doing it was your BROTHER!!!!!" I screamed at him....
"Rads listen to me it's not Sid's fault...." Sam tried to explain....
"He is right Rads....." Bhabhi spoke.....
With tears in her eyes.....  this was gonna affect her the most she never imagined Sid to be like this neither did I.... But obviously it's more difficult for her....
"What do you mean Shanaya..." Bhai asked...
"Yes.... Jai.... Sam is right...... It's.....n....not Sid's.... Fault....... It's mine...." She said wiping her tears....
"Di please...." Sid said...
"Don't call me that Sid..... And yes it is my fault..... "
"No Di it isn't..." Sam said trying to come near Bhabhi but she stepped back....
"You..... Guys remember the day...... When both of you got awards..... In your 10th grade...... For your achievements in academics and sports and what the star brothers of mussoorie....." Bhabhi said.... Tears still rolling down her eyes....
Both the boys had guilt in there eyes now.... But they nodded.... Bhabhi then turned towards us.... And started again..... This time fake smiling....
"You know guys.... When the principal asked them to speak few words about the hardwork they had to do..... Can you guess what did these guys say..... Why don't you tell them Sid..... Or may be Sam can tell it.... " She said looking at both of them.... Now both the boys had tears in there eyes ....
"I am sorry Di....." Sid said crying...
"No Sid.... I didn't ask you to say sorry..... Tell them what you guys said..... Okay you don't wanna say I will say it..... " Then she again turned towards us.... And started...
"So you guys would think that they thanked there parents or there teachers right but no they didn't..... They went on the stage and gave there speech and at last did something that till date remains the most special thing anyone could ever do to me..... I will tell you the exact words both of my brothers said.....
We owe all this to our family and specially one person the most..... OUR DI..... thank you di for being there for us whenever we needed you..... Thank you di for driving us towards our passion..... T...T....Thank you Di for m....making us who w....w...we are....." With that Bhabhi dropped down on her knees and broke down...... We all rushed towards her except Sam and Sid  tears hadn't stopped pouring out from there eyes..... There eyes spoke of the guilt they were going through...
"Bhabhi please..... Don't do this to yourself.... It's not your fault" Avneet said Bhabhi looked at her she moved towards sid
"No Avu..... It is my fault... the fact that my brother thought that it was okay to use a girl by playing with her feelings....is my fault....." Then she moved towards Sam and said..." The fact that my other brother thought that it was fine supporting his brother on his deeds....just because he is his brother..... is my fault...." Then she turned towards us again...
"It is my fault.... Didn't you hear what they said in the stage I am responsible for what they are I am...... So it is not Sid who should say sorry to you.... It is me..... I am sorry Avneet.... I am sorry for not being able to teach them how to treat girls..... I am sorry for being the worst sister in this world" Bhabhi said folding her hands infront of Avneet...... By now even there were tears in Avneet's eyes also....
"Please don't say like that bhabhi...." She said....
"Please Di.... Don't say that.... We are sorry...." Sam said....
"No Sam I am correct you know just a few days ago Bee thanked me for being with Sid when he needed a mother the most and  she wasn't able to be with him..... If I think of it now..... She thought I am responsible for what he has become as a person..... But no I am responsible to turn him into this jerk...... WHO DID WRONG WITH THE ONLY GIRL WHO TRULY LOVED HIM....." she screamed and broke down again....
"Shanaya control yourself Avu is right you are not responsible for this no one is except Sidharth please don't blame  yourself..... " Jai Bhai said.... Three of the siblings were crying now.... Bhabhi the most.....
"Bhai let's take her to her room.... She needs to calm down and rest...." Avu said to Jai Bhai and Jai Bhai took her we both were about to leave when Sid spoke again....
"Rads.... Please listen to me once...." I stopped Sid...
"Whatever I had to listen I have already listened Sidharth I don't need to hear anything....." I moved towards Sam the guy who was supposed to be my prince charming my hero and the guy who was partly responsible for my best friends heart to be broken....
"I know it's Sid's mistake that he did this to Avu but what did you do?? kept quite and let him do it...... She considered you one of her friends..... She was responsible for you and me to come together..... How could you do this to her..... Or let me guess whatever we had in between us was a drama too..... Ya ya this looks logical now..... If you didn't feel that it was wrong of your brother to play with a girl's feelings I wouldn't be surprised if you do the same thing with me I am not even as rich as you guys are...." I said...
"No Rads it's not like that..... Hear me once...." Sid tried to explain to me....
"No Sidharth first of all there is no explanation needed and second of all you no more can call me Rads.... It is for my friends you and your brother are no more my friends.... So it's Radhika for you.... " I said looking into Sam's eyes...he looked shocked....
"A...A...Are you s....saying...." He tried speaking....
"Yes Mr Sameer Nigam WE ARE DONE.....

So chapter 41 done believe me I am not cruel but all this is important......
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