I was having my cup of coffee sitting near my room's window and was trying to enjoy the Dehradun winds but enjoyment or happiness is something I don't feel anymore..... Then suddenly my eyes fall on a couple standing in the road near a bike hand in hand.... My heart takes me back to the time when we were returning from the temple after Rads and Sam's proposal fiasco and me and Sid were standing in the exact position and I had kissed him... never in my life I am going forget these memories Sid then how could you.....?? It has already been 15 days from Sid's accident the worst day of my life when it got decided that I can no more be the part of my Sid's life.....
My Sid do you even have the right to say it Avneet when he doesn't even remember your name..... Never in my wildest dreams I thought that I will be so affected when someone would be leaving me yes Sid would be leaving tomorrow for Mussoorrie I don't know what gave me the strength to watch him standing behind the door hiding from him it's the most difficult task I have done but it's my last chance to see him I wanted to create as many memories I could of seeing him laughing and sharing his camaraderie with Sam.... Because I am never gonna have that luck ever again.... I never missed to go to the hospital but I don't enter his room just watch him from the door and so does Rads.... And even today we were going to go there Rads was getting ready.....
"Avu are you done with your coffee???"Rads asked...
"Yes... Let's go...."I replied her with a smile....
We drove towards the hospital and entered it I saw Vibha aunty sitting on the chair outside Sidharth's room we have become close in just a span of 15 days she is stronger than what I thought even Sam's parents came the very next day after we learnt that Sid lost his memory but had to go back yesterday to set everything up for Sid like his college and stuff they had lied to Sid that he was driving from Mussoorie to Dehradun and got into an accident and went to coma for 6 months so uncle had to make arrangements in Mussoorie too so that Sid doesn't get to know the truth.... The truth which included our memories together our kisses, hugs ,jealousy confusions and more importantly our togetherness.... I brushed of all this thoughts from my mind and walked towards aunty...
"Good morning aunty...." I wished her with a smile she wiped a drop of her tear and looked at me
"Good morning beta..." She replied....
"What is it aunty why are you crying...??"
"Nothing beta...."
"Please aunty tell me you know I get stressed..."
"Nothing Sidharth got a severe headache in the night and couldn't sleep the whole night...."
"Is he fine now?? did the doctor check him....??"
"Yes he is fine now they have given him sedatives he is asleep.... It's just that I can't handle seeing him in such a condition "
"Aunty don't cry you should be happy that nothing happened to him after such an accident you made him really strong nothings is gonna happen to your son....don't worry did you have your medicines...??" I asked her trying to divert her mind
"No..."
"Aunty what is this if you only are going to fall sick who is going to handle that stupid son of yours..." To this she smiled...
"How can someone be so brave in such a tender age beta I am proud of you... I know you had feelings for him but he forgot everything still you come here regularly to look after me and Sam so that we don't loose our hopes.... How are you doing this Avneet??"
"You are wrong aunty its not 'i had feelings for that stupid'  the correct sentence is 'i still have feelings for him" and that is never gonna change even if he doesn't remember me ever in his life.... And I know if something like this would have happened to me Sid would always have been there beside my family so how could I leave when you both needed me the most..."
"I don't know what to say beta I can't decide Sid is lucky to have a girl like you in his life or unlucky to have forgotten you "
"He is the luckiest son in the world because he got you the bravest mom and brave moms don't cry like this" I wiped her tears and took out the medicines from her hand bag and gave it to her then I thought of asking her
"Aunty can I ask you for a favour??"
"You don't need to ask it child just say it to me"
"Aunty you said that the doctors gave Sid sedative and he is asleep now"
"Yes Avneet"
"So can I please go and see him once I will not wake him up I will just see him and comeback" she caressed by face and said
"Sure beta....."
"Thank you aunty..."
"Avneet Radhika didn't come today??"
"No aunty she came but I think she must be with Sam..." Suddenly her face dropped...
"See what all happened just for an accident so many hearts are breaking first Sidharth and you and now Radhika and Sameer .....
I know my Sameer he is never going to leave Sidharth in this condition... He is going to go away from Radhika for him..."
"And I know my Rads she is never going to stop him too.... But I also know both of them they love each other a lot aunty they will overcome this small obstacle of distance don't worry..." I consoled her...
"I don't know what my boys did to deserve girls like you both" I laughed to this....
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I saw Sam standing in the cafeteria near the coffee machine I went near him
"Want some sandwiches....?? I made you your favourites" he smiled seeing me...
"Rads you don't need to bring me breakfast everyday there is a cafeteria right here...."
"I can see that but I know you are never going to eat if I don't force that's why....now come have it"
We sat in a table and I served him the sandwiches he started eating it...
"You are done with packing the stuff... Or should I help you..."as soon as I asked this question all emotions drained about of his face....I regretted instantly
"Yes I am done.... Rads you understand right I can't leave Sid in this situation he is going to be there in Mussoorie between new people again they are going to ask him questions he wouldn't have answer to I need to be beside him to handle things...."
"Stop it Sam you don't need to explain yourself did you think I am so mean that I will not understand that Sid needs you the most right now... I would have killed you if you had decided to stay back in Dehradun for me.... I understand baby"
"You will be okay right...I mean alone"
"Yes baby I will be besides I have Avu I need to support her too I know she is acting strong now but she is broken from inside and she will be more hurt once you guys leave I can't leave her alone too..."
"I know they made our love possible I don't know about there future but I will try my level best so that they get there chance "
"Me too.... And I am sure we are going to nail it together"
"Sure baby...."
"Okay you finish this I will go and look upon aunty"
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With that she went from there I don't know what future holds for us Rads but I know one thing I want you in it for sure as my better half....
I don't know what crime we all did to deserve this separation but I know one thing that is love never ever looses and it will not loose this time also neither for us nor for Sid and Avneet....
Sometimes I feel that I should tell Avu about Sid being in love with her but I know I can't be so selfish I hope they get together in future but I can't make her life more difficult by saying that the person who she can't live without is in love with her she needs to move on too......
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I entered into the room  he was lying there peacefully i couldn't control my tears they started flowing I went near him and sat in the nearby chair and held his hand
"I never thought I am going to miss that stupid smirk of yours so much.... May be because I thought that you will never stop giving that to me I can't believe you look this sexy even in this hospital clothes Sid....
Ya ya you can have that goofy smile of yours now and say "it my born talent Avni"
and make fun of me too because this is our last chance Sid to irritate each other to get angry on each other to love each other.... Because from tomorrow I am not gonna be near you Sid...." With that I started crying unable to speak anything else but I had to say him so that I don't have any regrets...
"Mr Sidharth Nigam you can be the heart beat of many girls but you became my life you can have lakhs of girls drooling over your abs but I drool over your smile and the fact that there is still a naive heart inside this tough exterior.... You came like a storm in my life to set everything up in the right way and now leaving my life like a silent seawave I can't live without you Sid.... I can't bear the fact that you wouldn't be there to call me Nakchadi from tomorrow you wouldn't be there to get jealous when I say yes to stupid guys for dates.... I can't bear it.... And I know now why can't I bear this all.... Because I HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH YOU..... Yes Sid I LOVE YOU I don't know about you and I am never gonna know it too but I needed to confess before you enter into a life where there is no Avneet or no Nakchadi....
"What the heck are you doing over here??" I heard Samaira's voice behind me I wiped my tears and left Sid's hand and turned towards her...
"Nothing just came to see him"
"Are you out of your mind or you can't understand English the doctor said right you and that Rads can't come Infront of Sid..."
"Ya I know he is in sedatives that's why I came here..."
"Ohh so trying your last chance haan forget it girls like you don't deserve him...."
"Who doesn't deserve what Samaira" he spoke I heard him after so many days this voice which tingled my toes now brought tears to my eyes.... My back was facing towards him so he hadn't seen me yet...Samaira ran and stood Infront of me...
"Nothing Sid we were just talking about someone else" she tried to hide me.....
"Sorry who are you??" he asked me I turned towards him and met his eyes
"S...s....sorry I entered the w...w...wrong room"
"Oh it's fine I like such beautiful mistakes..." He can never change yadash chali gayi but flirting nahin gayi
"Sorry??"
"Nothing...waise who are you visiting"
"Someone really close to my heart..."
"Ohhh my badluck..... "
"Why??" I asked confused
"Someone so beautiful like you is already taken" I smiled to this
"Sid you should let her go she must be getting late..."
"Ya she is right I should be leaving.." just when I was about to leave Sam entered the room
"Avu you here..." He stopped as soon as he saw Sid is already awake
"You know her bro..."
"Yes he does..... My friend has been here for a half a month now he is just beside your room so we have met before" I lied to handle the situation...
"Yes she is right..."
"Ohh good nice meeting you a....."
"Sorry what is your name??"
"It's Avni....." I told that much I didn't want him to stress much and I left from there
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Avni went from the room even Samaira went behind her and Sid was sitting there smiling I went near him and was just going to offer him his juice when he said...
"She is hot...."
"Who Samaira??" I asked confused
"Noo bro the other girl what's her name yes Avni.... Cute and short I think I have heard it somewhere"
You worship this name Sid I thought to myself
"Kya Baat hai pehli Ladki pe hi fida hogaya" I said....
"No Yaar i just said that she is special.....and besides Sid doesn't..."
"Ya ya I know "Sid doesn't fall in love " wala shit don't say this line so much kya pata a girl comes and kisses you on your cheeks and you fall in love with her.. "
"What... Are...."
He held his head shit I shouldn't have said this
"Sid are you fine.... should I..."
"No no Sam I am fine it's this headache oh god this has been killing me for days now...."
"Should I inform the doctor"
"No no I am fine now"...
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I came out of his room and was looking for Rads as we had to go home too when a message popped out in my phone I opened it to find it was from Rads
"I am near the parking lot "
I said my good bye to Vibha aunty and walked towards the parking lot there I saw Rads looking at a couple and had tears in her eyes I saw the couple too the boy was carrying the girl in his arms as her leg was fractured they looked so much in love I went towards her and tapped on her shoulders she immediately wiped her tears and pasted a smile on her face and said
"Finally what a late latif you are Avneet I have been waiting for so long...".
"Rads you don't need to hide your feeling for me if you are my best friend I am yours too you don't need to act strong just to make sure that I don't break down I know you okay.... it must be killing you to see Sam leaving..... you know right you can share your pain with me too..."
"I know Avu... But it's not that bad believe me I mean I just got emotional because I saw the couple but it's fine for both of us and besides long distance is not such a bad idea the surprises and obviously the sex is now going to be more fun" I laughed to this...
"Chiiii Yaar in this situation also you are thinking about that..... Waise you were so right about one thing you said me.."
"What??" She asked
"These Nigam brothers were really too hot to handle see Kaise hum dono ko laila banake chod Diya hai..."
She laughed to this and we drove back to our house.... The entire evening I couldn't stop thinking about him what am I going to do after he is gone tomorrow I don't know what you have in stores for me god but I am definitely sure that my future can't be beautiful without him in it...
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I was sitting at a bench outside the hospital and looking at the night sky when Bee came near me and sat next to me and asked
"So you are doing fine"
"Yaa Bee I am alright and besides it's your son that you should ask this question to"
"I know but my other son just sacrificed his relationship for his family so I need to be with him too I am so proud of you Sameer you are just like your mother... family comes first always..."
"Offo don't make it sound like a big deal Bee I didn't sacrifice anything just that Rads and me are going to live a little apart nothing else and I have a feeling that we will make it work"
"Same here.... even I feel so your love is too big for this small problem"
"But All I feel bad about is for Sid and Avneet.... I don't know what is in stores for them.... It's such an irony the girl who became his life is not going to be in it from Tomorrow"
"Yes I know.... But we can do nothing about it if God has to make them together he will make sure of it..." Just when she finished her statement I saw a nurse running towards us she was one of the nurse who looked after Sid she came running to us
"Sir... You need to come your brother is not taking his medicine and not recognizing anybody I called Dr Sakshi but she is in operation right now we need to inject him a sedative but he is just out of control we would need you both please come..."
"Ya sure sure...." I and Bee ran towards Sid's room and saw him clutching his hair and shouting I rushed towards him...
"Sid what happened Sid "
"Stay away from me.... Aaaaaah my head"
"Let them inject the medicine bacha you will feel nice..."
"Who are you all why am I here.... Aaaaaah!!!!!! my head"
"What are you saying Sid I am your mom"
"Aaaaaah my head is gonna burst..." Just then Dr Dev rushed into the room with two wardboys....
"Shankar hold the patient we need to inject him right now "
The ward boy went and held both of Sid's hand and Dr Dev Injected him the sedative Sid closed his eyes immediately and the wardboys kept him in the bed slowly....
"Doctor what's with him he was alright the whole day what happened now" Bee asked
"Sorry Mrs Nigam I can't say anything now but yes Sidharth's condition is little serious I had send him for another MRI and I just got the reports I need to discuss this with Sakshi.... I can't say anything before that. ."
"He is going to be fine...right doctor" I asked
"I can't say anything Sameer let's just hope for the best" with that he went from there...
My phone started buzzing I noticed the caller to be Rads and picked up her call...
"Hi baby... I just call..."
"Rads I will call you later there is a emergency here"
"What emergency is Sid fine...????" She had not finished her statement when I heard some
noises
Then heard Avu's voice.
"Hi Sam it's Avneet here...what happened?"
I told everything about Sid
"I am coming there" she said and cut the call I tried calling her back then she didn't pick it up....and exactly about half an hour later she and Rads reached in the hospital
"Did the doctor come??" Avu asked me panting
"Yes she just went into Dr Dev's cabin"
After about another 10 mins the nurse came to a call us all in
"Doctor what is with Sid?? He is fine right??"I asked Dr Sakshi
"Mr Nigam do you remember of a surgery which I told you has only 40% chance "
"Yes... You told it's risky for Sid...?"
"Yes exactly we need to carryout the operation on him within 5 hrs"
"But you said..."
"Yes I know I said that it's dangerous for him but now we don't have any other option...."
"What do you mean by no option??"
"A clot have been formed in Sidharth's brain... We need to take it out and surgery is the only way but as we know due to Sid's conditions there are added disadvantages..." Dr Sakshi spoke...
"What disadvantages??" Avneet asked
"We exactly don't know what is gonna happen may be Sidharth gets his memory back or forgets everything or returns back to how he is right now.... After the clot is. Removed...."
"But we can't avoid the surgery anyhow it needs to take place within 5 hrs... Otherwise the situation is going to degrade. 
"Do anything doctor but just bring him back again.... "
"We will try our best "with that we all came out of the doctor's cabin and Bee broke down just there and started crying....
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I saw aunty break down again she started crying
"Why all this things happen to my son only.... First due to his father he never was happy with anything.... Then when he started being happy again god wiped away all the memory he had of that happy time and now this...what has he done wrong to anybody that all this is happening to him"
"Aunty you can't be so weak now you need to be his support again and yes you are right he have done nothing to anyone god is never gonna punish him we need to be strong for Sid....."
"Yes Avneet you are right I am not going to loose hope"
"That's right and who knows may be he gets back all his memory and is normal again.... Infact for me that is the only possibility..."
"Yes Bee we have to think that only this is gonna happen..."
"Don't worry this time I won't let him forget me so easily..."
She smiled Sam took her to the rest room and we all went towards Sid's room he was to be taken to the the OT .... Please god give my Sid back to me please even seeing him like this is killing me please bring him back....
The operation took place and the doctor came out of the OT.... Sam and I ran towards him..
"How is he..."
"The operation went well and he is responding too but we need him to wake up to know more about his memory we need to take you all inside to see what part he remembers and what not... Let's just hope for the best" saying that she went from there how am I going to face him tomorrow when he wakes up what if he doesn't recognise me how am I going live without him.........

So here goes chapter 19
What do you think is gonna happen???
Will Sid remember everything or the other way around??
Asta la vista
Anaita...