Jessica sits down on the couch and the Chinese food guy rings the doorbell. I walk to the door, pay him and sit down next to her. I give her her food and we both start eating while I fight with my tv.

"So what do you wanna watch?" I ask and look at her.

"What about something romantic?" She asks and smiles seductively at me. I almost choke on my food. I can't watch a romantic film next to my crush without getting aroused as fuck.

But never the less I choose a romantic film and we both look at the tv while we are eating our food. I am already aroused and feel my wet panties pressed against my mound.

How am I supposed to survive the next few hours next to this goddess. I mean she is an amazing actress and person and I am... nothing of what she is.

"So do you have a crush on someone or are you a happy single woman?" She asks when the film starts to get boring. Why does she even talk about my love life.

"I do have a crush on someone but I won't tell you who it is." I say and laugh. "And what about you?"

"I may have a crush on someone too... but just like you I won't tell you who this person is." She says and laughs too.

She lays her head on my shoulder and looks me deep into the eyes. Our heads move closer together until our lips almost meet. Before they can, she pulls away and says "I am sorry. That can't happen. I really really like you,  but just as friends..."

I look dissapointed to the ground and she says "Look can we just be friends?"

I know situations like this. 'Just being friends' doesn't work. It never does. I would just torture myself. I slowly shake my head no while tears make their way down my cheeks.

"No... things like this never work. Just go..." I force myself to say and Jessica does as she was told to. She stands up, walks to the door and leaves.

As soon as I hear the door close, I begin to cry. Why? Why did I have to fall for her? I knew this would happen. I should have searched for a realistic realationship and not for a dream I had for a long time.

...

I cleaned my whole apartment to get rid of her scent, which is everywhere. It seems like she spent an eternity here, even though it was only one day. 

I can't get my mind off of her so I decide to get drunk and sleep with someone I don't know. I can't stop thinking about that damn woman.

I dress myself sexy and put on some dark red lipstick. I look pleased at myself in the mirror. I look like a slut. Just like I wanted to look like. I drive to the next bar and order my first drink. A nice guy sits down next to me.

He begins to talk with me. His muscular chest impresses me even though I am not into boys, but he'll be my fuck to get over Jessica. He orders me a few more drinks before I am really drunk and can't really stand on my own.

Right in this moment the cast of ahs enters the bar and my eyes almost burst out when I see Jessica in a long and black dress. Shit they said something about going out for drinks... She sees me too and I decide to give her a good show. I pull the guy, which name is Alan by the way, onto the dance floor and put my hands around his neck. He puts his hands onto my behind and I smile. We dance and I look over at Jessica.

She looks at me and I can see the jealousy in her eyes. She had her chance. I kiss him passionately and whisper into his ear "Take me home big boy."

He slaps my ass and carries me in bridal style to his car. The moment we walked out of the bar I looked at Jessica and saw the hurt in her eyes.

Now I only need to get rid off Alan. He might be nice but I am still gay. "Hey Alan. I am sorry for you Bro but I am gay... so just let me down and I'll pay you the drinks you bought me."

"I saw that coming. You don't need to pay for the drinks..." he says and walks away after he placed me on the ground.

I walk torwards my car and drive off. I am sure I will get questions tomorrow at work. I fall into my bed and fall asleep as soon as my body hits the bed.

...

I have my break at work and just wanna be left alone, but I have no luck. Evan comes from behind,throws me over his shoulder and runs with me to the table where everybody is sitting.

"So Nella. Who was this guy yesterday?" Asks Sarah and Jessica looks at me hurt.

"I met him at the bar." I say and laugh, ignoring Jessica's hurt exprsession.

"So did you sleep with him?" Asks Evan and Jessica's head shoots up and she looks at me even more hurt.

"That is none of your buisness with whom I sleep." I say and laugh. I stand up and walk away, but I hear how someone follows me.

I walk into my little private room, I have on set to enjoy the rest of my break but someone opens the door  and slams it shut.

I turn around and look at Jessica. "What do you want?" I ask annoyed.

"Why did you sleep with him?!" She yells at me.

"This is none of your buisness!" I yell back. "I just don't get why you slept with him even though... even though you love me!" She says and I look at her surprised. How did she know...

"Come on. The way you look at me told me everything. You love me and I... I love you too, but I am afraid... afraid of everything. I never was with a girl before. What is going to happen if the press finds out about us? I just couldn't stand to lose somebody I love... again." She says and I just can't hold it back anymore.

I walk over to her and pull her in for a long and passionate kiss. She kisses me back and my hand moves into her hair and my tongue licks over her lips, begging for entrance.

She opens her lips and our tongues are in a heated battle. I push her back against the door and press my body into hers.

My free hand moves under her shirt and up to her bra. I would do it here and now, but I know she doesn't want it so I break the kiss and smile at her.

"I promise you we will manage to keep this a secret and that I will never ever leave you. And now... we will meet at my appartment this evening and continue this..." I say and walk away.

I know that she will be there so I don't even wait for a respose and just walk away. She just admitted her love torwards me and I don't think that she won't come now. She loves me as much as I love her and I am glad that we finally can be together like I always imagined. 

Now my fantasy comes after years of waiting true. I will be with her tonight and so many more times. I can't wait to finally see her beautiful body and hear her scream my name at the top of her lungs when I make her cum.  

I can't wait to see her face during sex and especially when she reaches her climax. I can't wait to feel her hands all over my body and inside of me. I can't wait to finally feel her hot and naked body against mine. The only thing that is making me sad is, that we can't tell anybody about us. Not even close friends. I am sure she doesn't want to tell them yet. She made herself  clear about that. she is afraid...

I make my way back to Ryan and he tells me to do different things like cleaning or bringing him things he needs on set. I am fine with it because I have something  to look forward to. I can't wait untill I hear the words 'You can leave now'and will soon be one with the love of my ife, the woman I have a crush on for so many years now. 

I still can't believe she told me that she loves me too. It's all still unreal to me.  I hear Ryan yell something and walk torwards him. I am near the end of my shift and hope nothing prevents me from going home to Jessica.

"I am afraid, but you have to stay longer Nella. We are running late and need to film another two or three hours and I need you on set." He says and I sigh.

"It's okay. I am just going to text... uhm my friend that I will be late. We wanted to meet in like 20 minutes." I say and Ryan nods.

I pull out my phone and text Jessica: I am sorry, but Ryan needs me on set. Don't wait for me, it could take a few hours. See you hopefully the day after tomorrow on set.

I turn my phone off and begin to work again. And another example for things don't always go as planned. I was so excited and looking forward to the evening with Jess and now we need to make it in a few days.

I can't wait so long. I need to see her. I waited long enough, didn't I? I mean I fanticised about this the past six years and now my job gets in the way. I would have rather expected her job getting in the way.

I run around set for Ryan for another three hours, before he tells me to finally go home. I sit down in my car and drive to my appartment. I open the front door and hear my tv. Who is in here?

I walk quietly into the living room and see Jessica asleep in front of my tv. Aww how cute. I told her not to wait for me, but she did.

I walk closer to her and kneel down in front of her, looking at her cute face. She slowly wakes up when I brush my hand trough her soft and golden locks.

"What? You're home... I missed you." She says in a still sleepy voice and I smile at her.

"I missed you too. Now come on. I will help you to get into bed. You can't even keep your eyes open for more than ten seconds." I say and laugh.

"No... I am awake. We wanted to spend a nice evening. I won't ruin it." She says and tried to keep her eyes open.

I slowly nod my head no and say "You didn't ruin anything. Now come on. I will help you."

She just sighs and I laugh. The next time I look at her, she is asleep again. I smile to myself and pick her up.

I walk with her to my bedroom and gently place her on my bed. I tuck her in and change into my pijama. I lay down behind her and kiss her forehead, before I hug her close and fall asleep.