I get lost in my book and the time flies by and before I know it, it's already almost midnight. "Shit," I mutter under my breath and take my bag, running towards the street. I see no cab in my near and I don't have time to wait for one.

I start running. I probably knocked over a few people as I ran into them but I don't care. Jessica will worry about me. I run as fast as my short legs would carry me and soon my lungs hurt and breathing gets difficult.

I slow down a bit and try to catch my breath while running. I finally reach the house and yank the door open, falling into the house and landing face first on the floor, panting like a dog in the middle of the summer after a run.

"Fenella?" Jessica asks worriedly and I roll onto my back, groaning in pain. I place my hand on my chest and try to lessen the pain I go through right now. "Oh my god what happened?" she says and falls to her knees next to me.

"I... park...book...time...ran..." I say and can't say more because of how hard I am breathing and how much my throat burns. "Wait I'll get you a glass of water," she says and soon comes back with a small bottle of water.

I gulp the water down like I I haven't drunken in years. She looks at me worriedly and I stay on the floor, legs and arms sprawled away from me. "Are you alright?" she asks and puts a hand on my cheek. I just nod my head and wipe the sweat off my forehead.

"God I was so worried about you. Do you know what time it is?" she says, getting a bit angrier now that I have calmed down a bit. "I know..." I say with a still dried troath. "I am sorry," I say and slowly move into a sitting position.

"I was at the park because I was bored and I read my new book. I got so lost that I didn't notice the time flying by and so I ran all the way back out here," I say and she looks at me with big eyes. "Oh my god Nella that is such a long way! Why didn't you take a cab or call me?" she asks and I take a deep breath before saying, "I tried to take a cab but there weren't any so I ran because I didn't think about calling you,"

"That's because you never think," she says angrily and walks away, leaving me sitting on the floor. Wait I just ran like an hour and all I get is to hear that I never think? I follow her and say, "Why are you angry at me?"

"Because you ould have called me to tell you where you went. I didn't know where you were and I worried. I worried you ran away again..." she says and I hug her close. "I would never ever run away like I did a few months ago. I love you and that's all that matters. I am sorry, okay?" I say and kiss her lips softly. "Yeah. I love you, too," she says and burries her face in my neck.

....

"So do you come to set with me today?" she asks after breakfast the next day and I stare at my book. "No," I say and try to overplay my uneasiness. "But why? You were friends with all of them and I am sure you'd fit back in right away," she says.

No, I am not the same person anymore. "I already wanted to go to the library today," I say. Lie. I never planed on leaving the house. You start lying to her again. You need to stop. Tell her the truth... Tell her you need time, you are afraid and that you changed....

"You are always reading... Maybe tomorrow," she says disappointed.

"Jessie," I say and she smiles at me. I open my mouth to speak but I close it again. I just smile at her. "Maybe tomorrow," I say and she smiles, continuing to read the newspaper. Why didn't you just tell her the truth?

I take my book and walk into the next room. The big room with the piano. I start playing a random song again and begin to sing to it. I get lost and forget I am not alone. My heart starts taking over and my finger start the song Piece by Piece from Kelly Clarkson.

"But piece by piece, he collected me.
Up off the ground where you abandoned things
And piece by piece, he filled the holes.
That you burned in me at six years old"

I sing and put all the emotions in I have inside of me. Tears are streaming down my face and my voice cracks slightly. I let all of the emotions I am hiding at the moment out. It's a kind of emotional breakdown and I needed it so bad. To let out all of the things I haven't told anybody since I left Ireland and my best friend, my only friend besides Jessica.

Suddenly I feel a hand on my shoulder and jump, falling off the chair and hitting my head on the piano. "I am sorry. I didn't mean to scare you," Jessica says and I hold my head in pain. "You know... You have a beautiful voice and you put so many emotions in your songs... You should really think about calling a company and maybe bring something out," she says and and I just awkwardly nod.

She disturbed me in such a private and vulnerable moment that I feel embarrased even though she doesn't know what she just disturbed. "Anyways, I just wanted to tell you that I am off to work. I'll be back at six," she says and I nod before she kisses me and I hear the door fall shut behind her.