I walked through the room of crowded drunk teenagers who were clearly underage, and half of them would be arrested for how much alcohol they had consumed within an hour, but they weren't of my concern.

I found Travis talking to a bunch of his fangirls and a few male people that I didn't recognise. Mostly because I hated meeting new people, and learning names of insignificant morons.

Travis looked over, and grinned when he saw me. He stood up and walked over to me.

"Hey, didn't know you were coming."

"Yeah well, here I am in all of my stunning glory." I gestured to myself, my sarcastic comment receiving a chuckle from the green eyed target.

"Well you're definitely stunning."

"Thanks, I wish I wasn't here."

"Why? Parties not really your scene?"

"How'd you guess?"

"Pure luck?"

"Yeah, sure, we'll call it that." I looked around the room, wanting to be able to name a couple of things to tell Garroth so that when I did go to hide, he wouldn't know I went to be anti-social. I had to try and prove that for once I could socialise and be an extrovert.

"Are you looking for someone?" Travis laughed.

"Hmm? No, I'm gonna go see if I can find Aphmau. You stay here talk to your friends, or whatever you wanna call them." I smiled a little bitterly and walked away, not allowing him to answer. I walked around, typed a few notes in my phone, took a few pictures. After I was done filling my quota for the party, I skipped up the stairs and found an empty bedroom. I sat down in the armchair by the window, pulling a book from my bag. I kicked off my shoes and tucked my feet under me, ready to indulge in the fictional world of The Red Queen.

Thirty minutes passed, and the doorknob twisted. I darted my gaze to the door and saw Travis smiling and leaning on the open doorway.

"So when you said you were gonna go look for Aph, that really meant you wanted to be away from me?"

"That wasn't what it meant," I sighed, closing my book and putting my shoes back on. "I just...really don't like parties."

"I'm glad this was the first bedroom I checked, imagine if I walked in on a couple of people."

I laughed a little, standing and tucking some hair tightly behind my ear.

"Are you avoiding me?" He whispered, closing the door behind him as he walked closer to me.

"Of course not," I looked at him, but his gaze was too strong for me, and I looked away again.

"Katelyn...." He breathed, cupping my jaw lightly and tilting my head upward.

"Yeah...?" I looked into the bottle-green that was his eyes, and found my heart beating slightly faster.

Slowly, he leaned in, closing the space that was between us. I kissed back. He pulled away softly and brushed my cheek.

"You promise you aren't avoiding me?"

"Promise..."

"Good."

The space closed again, and I gently placed my hands on his chest. His arms were gingerly wrapped around my waist, and he guided me to the bed that was in the center of the room. We sat down on the soft comforter. Our lips still connected. We moved in sync as he laid down and I laid on top of him. I felt as he moved his lips to my neck and then I slowly caught onto reality when his hand touched the zipper of my dress.

"Travis," I whispered, pushing him away to stop him.

"Hmm?" He pulled away, looking into my eyes. His gaze was filled with fire, a flame that danced wildly.

"We can't do this, not here, not when anyone can walk in at any moment."

"Oh gosh, you're right, I'm sorry, I just...I don't know what came over me."

"It's fine." I hastily got off of the bed and collected my things before rushing out the door.

"Katelyn," I could hear him faintly call, but I was already down the stairs.

These emotions...

I pushed through the crowd of people, not sure what I was looking for.

They're getting harder to contain....

I found a table with red cups, and I grabbed one, not hesitating to down the whole thing.

You're getting too invested....

The one cup wasn't enough, so I chugged a second one of bitter liquid.

You're gonna get hurt....

The world became a little hazey as I gripped onto the table and tried to steady myself. With a little bit more strength, I drank two more cups of beer mixed with vodka. A disgusting thing that seemed to do the trick of busying my mind.

You're losing.

I had to get out of the party, I had had enough socialisation for one night, for one eternity. I made it outside, faintly aware of Aphmau who was trying to get me to stop and explain what had me so panicked. My legs gave out, and soon I was keeled over with my head in the bushes, vomiting while Aphmau held my hair back for me.

I had finished blowing chunks, and Aphmau stroked my arm soothingly.

"Are you alright?" Concern laced in her voice.

"I'm fine...just need to...lay down...." I slurred, then fell asleep with my head in Aphmau's lap.

"Is she okay?! What happened?!"

I opened my eyes to see I was in the backseat of the car. Travis was outside, talking to Aphmau. He seemed to be a weird mixture of emotions.

"I don't know, Travis! I saw her running outside, and then she was throwing up in the bushes. Now, I assume she drank too much, but she passed out after throwing up, so I can't really ask her anything. We will call you in the morning, let you know if she's alright, and until then, let me get her home."

I winced and curled into a ball, closing my eyes and clenching the unfamiliar jacket that had been placed over me as a blanket.

Gee, that must be a record for how fast someone has thrown up after consuming only four cups of alcohol.

Aphmau got in the front seat, and I felt the rumble of the car engine.

"I know you're awake. You don't have to talk, let's just get you home." She spoke softly, letting me know it was a safe zone to be with her at my vulnerable state.

We got to the house, and Aphmau made me hold onto her arm in case I was still too drunk to walk. I claimed I wasn't exactly drunk, just that my system couldn't handle alcohol, to which she told me that meant I was drunk.

She laid me down in bed, telling me to get some rest. I smiled at the love she had for me, and the compassion she showed. I closed my eyes and held the blanket of my bed tight around my shoulders.

Another person I'll have to hurt in the end.

A/N Writing this the night before it's due for you guys, I'm trying to catch up, I really am, but I've been kinda swamped with homework these past few days. But I have no real excuse because these past two days were snow days and I might even have one tomorrow, yes, I'm lucky to be in the winter climate of Canada. (props to a friend for the title, because I can't be creative at all. Thanks.) I love you all devils, byeeeee.
Song: Ghost Assassin by Maduk