Falling in love. Something every human being on the planet searches for. Some find it, maybe more then once. Then, there are the few who force it believing that this is as good as it going to get. Then there is a small group that actually find love, but are afraid to chase it. I myself am a part of the last group. It's not like I don't want to go after it, believe me I do. However, what's holding me back us something I value more then my heart, friendship. I know it can't replace love, but friendship is everlasting. Plus love ends right?

I mean look at all the people getting a divorce today. So I decided to not take a chance, because his friendship was more important then my happiness. I can live with a broken heart, but I don't know if I could survive if I lost him.

He knows me inside and out. Losing him would be like losing a part of me. We have known each other since before we could talk. We are neighbors so we see each other everyday. It's like some movie were the girl cries about a guy she never will get, but that's not me. Well maybe it used to be but not anymore. I would take this challenge head on, it's just a crush.......that I have had for a long time. That doesn't matter starting today I would fall out of love with Luke Carter.

" YOU HEAR THAT WORLD STARTING TODAY!!! I RYEN SANDERS WILL.......?????!"

It was in the middle of my rant that I bummed into a wall. A very warm wall. The force of the hit sent me sprawling towards the ground. I landed straight on my butt. Lucky I was the kind of girl who rarely wore dresses or skirts, so I didn't have to worry about anyone catching a glimpse of my underwear. I rubbed my head trying to ease the sudden dizziness that had come over me. I looked up to examine the wall I had walked into.

Speak of the devil, it was Luke. He looked down at me his brown shaggy hair slightly getting in his hazel eyes as they meet my blue ones. I realized he had heard me screaming to the world, the promise I was making to myself. My face turned bright red. Suddenly I wished my blond hair wasn't in a messy bun. So I could hide my face beneath the length and take shelter.

I glanced up hoping he wasn't going to ask, what I had been screaming about. Instead he held out his hand for me to grasp. I couldn't help, but notice his built arms, as he helped me up.

For some reason he looked different. Maybe it was the fact that we were seniors now, and he had finally started to look towards his future. Or maybe it was because now he was dating Katherine Walter.

She was beautiful with her thick red hair, slim but muscular build, tall , all the curves a guy could want, and she was a cheerleader. Comparing her to me was like comparing a swan to a dying duck. I was short, with dull blond hair (that never did what I wanted), I had a small pear shaped body, wore glasses, and I was well let's face it a nerd. I love to read, pretty much anything. I get straight A's in school without a problem.

So I could see why Luke was dating Katherine. She was a cheerleader, he a football player(linebacker). So it made sense why they were together. Let's face it the cheerleader always gets the guy. The nerd well....... I'm pretty sure we all know. Nothing that's what. You go to prom with a group of friends, but that's fine with me. There was only one guy I would want to go to prom with, and he was taken.

I smiled at him," Hi, Luke."

He smiled back, and then he got a look of curiosity on his face, " So why we're you yelling about earlier?"

OH CRAP. I need an excuse. Think Ryen. THINK!!!! I GOT it, "Well you see. Yesterday I read The Fault In Our Stars, so I was just saying that I will always remember Angus and Hazel, and the love they had." I wasn't completely lying. I had read the book last night.

Luke gave me a weird look," You were yelling, about a book?"

"Yeah. I fan girl all the time. You should be used to it by now." It was my turn to give him a weird look. He was with me when I watched the twilight movies just to see Taylor Lautner shirtless. After I had seen a chemical, for New Moon I had dragged him to see the movies with me. He had complained the whole time, but I was to busy staring at Taylor's toned chest to care.

He shook his head at me," What am I going to do with you Ry?"

My heart practically melted every time he called me that, but I knew he didn't like me. It was just a nickname he gave me when we were kids. So I just smiled ," Oh come on. You love me just the way I am."

"No. Your just to weird, for me to handle. I think it's time for us to terminate our friendship." He said with a smirk on his face.

"Oh really?! Well just to let you know I take pride in my weirdness. If everyone was the same life would be boring." Luke and I had this conversation a lot. So I wasn't surprised when he had called me weird.

He broke into a laugh. He had a deep laugh. The kind of laugh that makes you laugh a long. I then thought of the promise I had made earlier. How was I supposed to fall out of love, with a guy as great as him. I was in for a long ride. Falling out of love is not easy, but I had to. Before he found out how I felt.

"So Ryen, there's this party. That Blake is having. Would you like to come?" Did he blush? No I'm just imagining it.

"I don't know......." I hesitated. I not really a party girl, but I would get to hang out with him.

"Come on Ry. Pleeeeaaaaasssseee!!"He gave me a puppy dog face.

I tried to ignore it, but he looked so cute." Finnneee, but I'm bringing Lilly."

His whole face lit up," You'll really go? Yes, you won't regret it. Your going to have so much fun!!"

I rolled my eyes, " Sure, about as much fun as finding the square root of pie."

Luke looked confused," What does pie have to do with math?"

I couldn't help, but laugh." Never mind. I'll come to the party. I have to go. Before I ran into you I was on my way to the library." Still laughing I went back to my mission to go to the library. I waved a last goodbye to Luke. I was kinda excited to go to this party. Lilly would have to help me with my outfit.

~~~~~~~~~~~Time Skip~~~~~~~~

When I arrived at the library I gave my old books to Mrs.Peter. She smiled at me.

"Ready for new books already? You just got them yesterday." I say the twinkle in her eyes. She was impressed, and she love that someone from my generation liked to read, something besides Facebook comments.

I smiled back at her," Yeah. I can't wait to get a new book." She just smiled wider in reply, and went back to checking in books.

I started walking down the rows of book shelfs. Hoping something would catch my eye. It was then I saw a book. The Silent boy by Lois Lowry. I smiled it sounded like a good book. It was then I realized I had a problem. It was on the top shelf. I sighed of course the book I want is up there. I put my feet on the bottom shelf, my hand rested on the top shelf for support, while the other reached out for the book. I was so close yet so far from getting the book. Taking a deep breath, I stood up on my tippy toes reaching again.

Just when I was about to give up a hand came around me and grabbed the book for me. I turned around. There stood Blake Adams. AKA the bad boy at our school. He was wearing his usual black leather jacket, dark jeans, and converse. The only thing different was that he was smiling, at me. I couldn't help but blush. Blake was a good looking guy, with his black hair, brown eyes, tan skin, and a built body.

"Here's your book," he said in a quiet voice.

" Thanks. I am vertically challenged." Did I really just say that. My face grew even redder.

He laughed. Suddenly he stopped,"Hey weren't you here yesterday to get books?"

I blushed how did he know that? Seeing my question in my eyes, he answered it,"I ummm ..... come there everyday." He looked at the ground embarrassed.

"Really?" I surprised the bad boy liked to read.

"Yeah....", he wouldn't look at me.

"I think that's cool." I replied.

"Really you think so?"He asked with new enthusiasm.

" Well considering that most of the guys in our school barely know how to read. Yeah I think you're pretty cool." He smiled at my answer.

"Hey I'm having a party tonight want to come?" He asked.

I smiled," I was already thinking about going. So you'll see me there."

"Can't wait." Blake said before walking off.

Suddenly I couldn't wait for the party. Who knew bad boys read books? Did I maybe just make a new friend?

Hey guys tell me what you think. The next chapter is going to be about the party!!!! I can't wait.