Hi guys.

So: the story is over. There are a couple things I'd like to say.

First, I'd like to explain my thought patterns.

I wrote this in about three days because the idea just took me over. It all started because my grandpa was watching 9/11 conspiracy theories on YouTube (I would advise you not to do this) and I saw a clip of one of the towers collapsing.

I had seen videos of it before, but it really hit me hard that time. It wasn't like an all-at-once impact, but a subtle one. I looked away from the television and went to the kitchen, where I proceeded to read, but my mind was fixated on that three second image of everything falling. It's so sudden and complete and seeing such destruction happen so quickly is baffling to me.

Later that week, I started to have dreams-- a rare occurrence that only really happens when I'm disturbed-- about the tower and what it must've been like in New York that day. To see something so terrible, to witness, to understand what happened first hand. These thoughts started to kind of consume me-- all I could think about was the attacks and the people and the loss of life and loss of safety and loss of control. So much loss, and all in the span of a few hours.

And then I thought of Ezra and Aleska.

I started doing research on what it would've been like in the towers, kept watching the same video of one falling, trying to get everything sorted out-- to keep the fire burning, I guess. To keep the story in my mind.

I'll let you in on something: I was going to have both Aleska and Ezra be in the building when it was struck by the plane. Only as I was writing [the day of the attack] did I change my mind.

Writing this felt therapeutic for me. I didn't know anyone in the trade centers, and my family didn't lose anyone personally that day, but we all lost something.All I can feel is sorrow when I think of everything that happened, and this was my way of purging that emotion.

Secondly, I'd like to tell you why the ending is so vague.

When I was writing this story, I wanted it to be about Aleska and Ezra-- about their friendship and their closeness-- but I also wanted to fully incorporate a love interest for my main character [insert Harry Styles]. In my mind, even from the beginning, the ending was going to be vague. Even when I thought Ezra was going to be in the tower, it was going to be vague.

This is because, as a writer, you like doing things that make your reader think and feel and absorb what they've read. Everyone has a slightly different interpretation and no one is wrong. Plus it ends the story smoothly and cleanly, not dragging it out until you (hopefully) aren't interested anymore. 

There will not be a sequel.

However, if you'd like to read something else of mine, I am currently working on Waking Moments. I'd love to see you all over there.

Thirdly, I'd like to thank you all for completing this journey with me. I adore every single comment I get and it is honestly so nice to get such a reaction from all of you. Thank you histrionics for your continual support and love, it means the world to me. 

Much love, 

jadexx