on the topic of crying,
i told my mom to kiss my ass and busted out in tears

the only thing she cares about is me going to school

but why do i have to go to school

it just reminds me of how alone i am.
i don't want to be alone

i see my friends walking with their bestfriends.

i hear talk of him and how they all like him,

i'll never be enough for him.
my friends have other people they care about
and everytime i tell someone i want to die they laugh and say 'me too'

my teachers make me feel stupid and the councilors remind me of how i wished i was dead years ago and how i never planned to be here in the first place.

that same feeling is starting to creep up behind me and taunt me with words that make my body quiver at the thought of deaths promises.

he promises i'll never feel, never think, never worry.

but as long as i go to school, everything's ok, right?