Tired
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I'm tired of feeling worthless.
I'm tired of feeling hopeless.
I'm tired of loving.
I'm tired of fighting.
I'm tired of living.
I'm tired of constant depression.
I'm tired of negative thinking.
I'm tired of being nothing.
I'm tired of everything.
But above all,
I'M TIRED OF BEING TIRED.
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Have you ever felt sad? Like you're in a certain group of friends but seems like you're not there. An outcast to be exact. Have you ever felt insecure? Like you're always hoping that someday these tables will turn and you'll be the one they'll adore. Have you ever felt having a companion yet feeling alone? Having someone whom you thought your lover, yet you're still feeling single and unloved.

Yes. I felt it all. No, let me rephrase it. I still feel it all. I don't know why. They say you can't really find happiness on other people but is it really true? Because how can you be happy if you're alone and miserable. But still, I am considering the fact that I am never alone. I am just with the wrong kind of people. I was never alone because I have myself, my family and God. Maybe someday, I'll learn how to love myself and how to be satisfied with my own life. Oh! How I really want to be happy! I am so fucking tired of feeling worthless, hopeless, ugly, insecure, and alone. Someday, at the right time with the right person, I'll be happy and I'll be wearing a smile that no one can break.

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You can't find happiness on others, only yourself can tell and can provide it.