A few days passed, and I still couldn't believe that I hadn't died and gone to heaven.

Frank cared for me, and that was an emotion I never expected anyone outside my family to ever feel for me.

I was no longer the pathetic emo loser that everyone despised, and even though I was still bullied and generally ignored by most of my classmates, it didn't matter to me now that Frank and I were together.

I had actually found someone to make me want to start living again, every second I spent with Frank felt like my decaying soul was slowly beginning to revive itself.

Instead of dreading school like I usually did, I looked forward to it, because I would get to see Frank's beautiful face again.

We made the most of every moment, stealing kisses in between classes, and holding hands whenever no one was around. I wish I could describe the way he made me feel, but I couldn't seem to find the words to give the sensation justice.

The closest I could get to explaining the emotions that exploded throughout my entire body every time I was around Frank was to say that I had a miniature sun inside of me, and whenever Frank would squeeze my hand or press his lips against mine, it would send thousands of rays of light spreading across my heart until every shadow was erased, and I forgot everything that was troubling me that day. Sometimes I worried I would spontaneously combust from happiness - thank god that wasn't possible.

All of these thoughts ran through my head as we walked home from school together; Mikey wasn't with us because he had another track practice today, so it was just the two of us.

I had been zoning out while enjoying the sensation of having Frank's small fingers laced with mine when I felt a small tap on my shoulder, which effectively snapped me out of my reverie.

"Gee?" Frank smiled up at me when I shook my head slightly, clearing my mind so I could give him my full attention.

"What is it babe?" I felt a familiar flutter in my heart when he grinned in response to my pet name. I would never get tired of being able to use those on him.

"Do you think we should tell your brother about us? It's hard to hide it from him since he is always around, and I don't think he would care. Actually - I am sure he will be happy."

I pondered his question silently...I mean - Frank was right, Mikey wouldn't judge me...but I was still terrified. I had never told anyone I was gay before, and what if Mikey couldn't accept it? What if he was disgusted by me, and he hated me for what I was? I couldn't take it if my own brother rejected me...it would break me.

But as Frank stared at me with hopeful eyes, my fears disintegrated, and I knew that I had to do this.

"If you will be with me when I tell him, then I will do it." Beaming broadly, Frank threw his arms around me in a full body hug, and I squeezed him back.

"Oh Gerard - I am so glad you agree. I will be by your side the whole time. It will go great, I promise."

"So when are we doing this?" I asked, some of my fears bubbling back up to the surface as I contemplated actually coming out to Mikey, but I attempted to stamp them back down before they overwhelmed me.

"How about later tonight when he gets home from track - that is, if you are ready?"

"Yeah - we might as well do it sooner rather than later, or I will probably chicken out."

"It will be fine Gee, trust me."

And I did, I trusted Frank more than I have ever trusted anyone. I was fully aware that I hadn't known him that long, but I needed him. He made me a better person just by existing, and I couldn't imagine my life without him anymore.

We headed over to Frank's house to pass the time playing video games until Mikey got home. His parents were at work again, so we had the place to ourselves.

Even though I never brought it up, I was petrified that they would find out about Frank and I; even though Frank had no problem with our age difference, I knew they wouldn't see it the way he did, but so far, they hadn't noticed anything, and I prayed it stayed that way. Meanwhile, Frank was kicking my ass at Halo since I was busy distracting myself with my inner thoughts.

"Take that mother fucker!" Frank screamed as he sniped my guy for the tenth time, quickly dropping down from his perch to t-bag my dead body.

"Stop desecrating the fallen!" I yelled as I launched myself at Frank, tickling him fiercely until he was forced to drop the control to fend of my relentless attack.

"No Gee - stop, I am so ticklish - please have mercy!"

"Never!"

"Um - am I interrupting something?" Mikey walked into the living room, trying to stifle a giggle behind his raised hand, but failing miserably.

"Nah - you just missed my awesome killing spree is all, and Gee here got jealous and decided to cheat," Frank replied, still breathless from laughing so hard.

"Well your killing spree is about to be ended. Move over Gee!" Mikey shoved his way onto the couch and grabbed a controller.

After another frustrating hour of Halo, in which Frank and Mikey teamed up on me and killed me basically every time I spawned, Frank finally decided to turn the game off. It was getting late, and my eyelids where beginning to droop against my will.

"So Mikey, before you guys take off, we have something we wanted to tell you."

Frank nudged me discreetly when I didn't immediately say anything. It seemed that there wasn't enough air in the room, and for a second - I was worried that I would actually pass out, but just then, I felt Frank slip his hand into mine; the crushing sense of being suffocated evaporated, and I finally found my voice.

"Frank and I are dating." I quickly glanced to the floor, unable to witness my brother's reaction. When Mikey didn't reply, I pressed on determinedly.

"Which means I am gay...well actually - I am not one hundred percent sure what I am, I might be bisexual or something, I mean - I find girls attractive too, but I have never actually had a girlfriend, so I don't know, but I know I like Frank, so um - I just wanted to tell you, and I understand if you hate me, I just -"

"Hate you? Gerard - you are an idiot, I could never hate you. Plus - I kind of knew there was something going on with you two, I am not blind," Mikey cut me off midsentence.

"So you aren't mad?" I asked tentatively.

"Why would I be? Love is love, no matter who it is with. Hell - I am ecstatic for you! I can't remember the last time I have seen you this happy, and if that is because of Frank, then I am for this one hundred percent."

Finally I lifted my eyes from the tan carpet I had been staring at for the past minute, and when I saw Mikey's smiling face gazing down at me, I threw myself at him and enveloped him in my arms.

"I love you bro," I mumbled into his shoulder.

"I love you too, but can you let me go, I can't breathe!"

Oh sorry." I grinned sheepishly as I released him.

"So...are you two like official boyfriends now, or are you just casually dating?" Mikey asked.

"Um..." I wasn't sure how to respond to that. This was my first real relationship, and I didn't know the protocol on these sort of things.

"Well Gee, do you want to be my boyfriend?" Frank got down on one knee in a mock proposal.

"Oh yes - a thousand times yes!" I jokingly cried as I pulled him to his feet so I could embrace him.

"Ugh - you guys are going to make me sick over here." Mikey covered his eyes, causing both Frank and I to erupt into a fit of giggles.

"So...um - Mikes, I am sure this is pretty obvious, but we can't let anyone else know about this for now; I mean - with the whole age difference thing and all, we need to keep it a secret, especially from our parents."

"My lips are sealed." Mikey made the motion of zipping his lips closed and throwing away the key.

I couldn't believe how well this whole thing had turned out. I seriously had the best brother in the entire world, and it felt as if a weight had been lifted off my chest now that he not only knew, but approved, of Frank and I's relationship.

I trusted him not to tell anyone, and now we didn't have the added stress of trying to hide it from him as well, but better than all of that was the fact that I was now Frank's boyfriend. My first official boyfriend, and I couldn't ask for anyone better.

After Mikey and I had said our goodbyes to Frank, we walked back to our house, but I couldn't feel my feet hitting the pavement. I had to look down constantly to assure myself that I wasn't floating.

If someone had told me a month ago that I would be this happy, I would never have believed them. I didn't even recognize myself lately, I was smiling all the time, and being more social. I had barely drank at all these past few weeks, and I had even cut down on smoking a little. I still had my bad days, but they were few and far between with Frank in my life.

So I kind of reached a writer's block in this story at the moment, so here is some pointless fluff to make it up to you guys :)

I know how I want this story to end, but idk what I am doing with it right now, so just bear with me.

I don't really know what else to say in this authors note, so here is a random tidbit from my personal life. I WENT ON A DATE! AN ACTUAL DATE!! I haven't been on a date in...at least three years, and I think I actually like this guy. We are going out again this Thursday!!

Okay idk why I put that, but hey - I am excited and I have no real life friends to tell ;)

Love you guys

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