Frank's POV

For a brief moment, I thought that my head injury had caused me to hallucinate. I had been so desperate to hear Gerard's voice, that when it actually reached my ears, I couldn't believe it was real.

It wasn't until his lashes fluttered open and his gorgeous hazel eyes stared up at me that I realized my prayers have been answered. Shaking off my shock, I tried to force words past the giant lump that had formed in my throat.

"Oh my god...you're really awake," I whispered before breaking down for the third time today, except this time they were tears of joy I was shedding.

I was too overcome with emotion to speak, so I simply gathered my boyfriend in my arms and sobbed brokenly against his chest. I never wanted to let him go again...

"Am I in the hospital?" he wondered.

"Mhmm," I mumbled since it was still difficult to form coherent sentences.

Just then - Dr. Wentz came rushing into the room with an excited grin on his face. I pulled away from Gerard in embarrassment, trying to get my unruly emotions under control.

"Sorry to interrupt, I saw that Gerard's vital signs had returned to normal, and I wanted to see if he was awake." I simply nodded and wheeled away from the bed so the doctor could get to work.

"How are you feeling Gerard?" he asked in a friendly tone.

"Okay I think...just groggy."

"That's to be expected. Now let me just get you unhooked from these machines so I can get out of your way."

Gerard let out a muffled squeal when he noticed the IV needle in his arm before squeezing his eyes shut and refusing to open them until Dr. Wentz removed it.

"Not a fan of needles huh?" Gerard shook his head vehemently in response, and I couldn't get over how adorable he looked in that moment.

Dr. Wentz checked a few more of the machines while making notations on the clipboard in his hand, and I wish I knew what he was writing down.

"Okay - that's it for now. I will come back a little later to run some tests, but you should be released soon. I will tell your mother that you are awake, but it might take me a bit to find her." He winked before vacating the room, leaving us alone once again. I returned to my spot by Gerard's side, and threaded my fingers through his.

"Frank - why are you here?" Gerard asked once the door closed behind Dr. Wentz.

"What do you mean?" I sniffled softly.

When I raised my head to look at him, his forehead was creased in confusion, and I wanted to wipe all the lines of worry away from his flawless face.

"I mean...I thought you...didn't love me anymore," he stammered awkwardly.

Gerard's words were like a smack to the face, and it took me a second to compose myself. I had been so wrapped up in the joy of having him back, I had almost forgotten about the reason he had tried to kill himself in the first place.

"Oh baby...I have so much explaining to do." Gerard's body stiffened up, and I knew he was preparing for the worst.

"What you saw...it wasn't what it looked like. I was talking to Jamia because her parents are getting divorced, and she needed some advice. I was just trying to be a good friend, when out of nowhere she kissed me. I kind of freaked out on her, and I haven't talked to her since. I told her that I loved you and only you. Then I ran back to your house to explain why I was so late, and I found you..." I broke off as my throat swelled up with suppressed tears. I dreamed of that moment almost every night, and it hurt to even think of it.

"Oh..." Gerard's cheeks turned slightly red.

"I was so terrified I had lost you forever...I need you...I love you. The fact that I made you feel so terrible that you wanted to end your life is killing me. I don't deserve you, but please - just give me a chance to make it up to you."

I waited in anticipation for his answer, but when he stayed silent, I began to panic. I couldn't seem to get enough air into my lungs, and the room seemed to be shrinking in on me. If he didn't speak soon, I was pretty sure I was going to have a full on anxiety attack.

"Gee?" I choked out.

I was shocked when he pulled himself away from my touch and curled up into a ball with his back facing me. Bitter cries fell from his lips, and it broke my heart into a million pieces to see him this way.

"I am the one who doesn't deserve you...I am so fucked up. I will only bring you down...." he wailed.

"Don't say that baby - please. Without you, I have nothing." I had so many other things I needed to say, but I couldn't seem to get my brain to function properly.

This was not how I had imagined our reunion would be, and seeing the person I loved in so much pain was too overwhelming for me right now in my fragile state. My own mind had been in such a fucked up place lately that I didn't know if I could take any more sorrow.

Gerard and I had both been through traumatic events in the past three weeks, and we weren't the same boys who had fallen in love with each other all those months ago. What if we were too damaged to maintain a healthy relationship now?

As much as I loved Gerard to pieces, I didn't want him to have to deal with all my problems, and he obviously felt the same way.

In the beginning - it had seemed so easy....we made each other happy, and that had been more than enough, but now I needed Gerard to be there for me just as much as he needed my support, and I was worried that we would break under the combined weight of our problems.

I just wanted everything to go back to the way it used to be before my world started falling apart. What I wouldn't give to reverse time and relive the moments where Gerard and I had been truly happy, because now I realized how much I had taken them for granted.

Never in my wildest imagining had I thought we would end up here...both hospitalized for different reasons with our relationship hanging by a thread. Was it too much to ask to have the life most normal fourteen year olds did? Why did all of these terrible events keep plaguing me?

I needed Gerard though...that much I was certain of. I was beginning to realize that dreaming of a perfect relationship had been a fool's hope.

I went into this knowing about Gerard's problems, I just never expected to have so many of my own heaped onto the pile, but if we didn't take care of each other, then who would?

No matter how bad it got, it couldn't be worse than suffering alone. I had to make Gerard see that we could make it through this, because I didn't want to contemplate any other option.

I refused to give up on him...he was worth fighting for, no matter how much he didn't think he was.

"Just leave me..." Gerard wept softly.

"Never," I whispered.

Moving carefully so I didn't hurt either myself or Gerard, I crawled into bed with him and clutched his shuddering form. He tried to flinch away from me, but I refused to let him.

Stroking his greasy hair, I began to hum a wordless tune in an attempt to calm him down. I had to show him that I would never leave him, even when he was at his worst. He was my everything, and I would always pick him up when he fell.

I don't know how much time had passed before his whimpers finally ebbed and his breathing slowed to a normal pace. My own thoughts had quieted, and I was certain I had made the right decision.

Gerard was worth the amount of work I was going to have to put into this relationship and more. I had never met anyone that made me feel this way, and even though I was young, I was convinced that he was my soul mate.

Gerard shifted closer to me, and I tightened my grip around his thin body. My ribs hurt from the position I was lying on them, but I was too afraid to move in case it ruined the moment.

"Why do you care so much about me? I am nothing...just a worthless mess of a person." Gerard turned so he could look me in the eye, and the overwhelming sorrow on his face threatened to bring me to tears.

"I wish I could find the right words to tell you how perfect you are, but they don't exist. If only you could see yourself through my eyes so you would understand. Gerard - you don't know what you do to me...when I see you, I feel fuzzy all over, when you smile - it's infectious, your laugh is my favorite sound in the world - besides your singing; you make life worth living, and I don't want to imagine a world without you in it." A look of awe came over Gerard's face, and I truly hoped I was getting through to him.

"Frank...I don't know what to say."

"You don't have to say anything right now. The fact that you are awake and breathing is all I need," I assured him.

"I just...I snapped. When I saw you with her - it broke me, and now I don't know if I can fix myself again," he sniffled.

"You won't have to do it alone. Even if it takes forever, I will be there every step of the way."

"I don't want to hurt you anymore. I just feel like such a burden..." I silenced him by pressing my lips against his in a forceful kiss. He froze up for a moment before returning the action, and I plundered his mouth until we were both breathless.

"I love you...every single part of you...and I will never give that up, no matter how difficult it gets. So stop trying to scare me away, because it won't work." I rested my forehead against his gently, and relished in the feeling of his skin pressing on mine.

"Fuck Frank - I love you too...so much. I'm so sorry..." Then we were kissing again, and it was the best feeling in the world.

God - I had missed this so much, the way his lips perfectly melded with mine, and the sparks that flew from our connected mouths. I poured all of my feeling for him into it, and he did the same.

I knew that everything wasn't magically going to be perfect, but this was a start, and I was going to see this through to the end. I had a feeling things were going to go up from this point, seriously - it couldn't get much worse right?

"What the hell is going on in here!?"

A harsh voice broke through our moment of passion, and we hastily pulled apart. All of my newfound happiness drained out of my body as I turned around to see my mother standing in the doorway with a murderous expression on her face.

Apparently I just love to torture you guys because I am ending it with another cliffhanger. Sorry this chapter is so short, but I have literally no time to write at the moment, so this was the best I could do.

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