"Well tonight I want you"

That's the last thing I remember saying, when I awake I'm pressed up against Bellamy...a naked Bellamy. I go to get up but his arms wrap around me and pull me back down.

"Clingy much" I joke

"I'm sorry I want to stay pressed up against a hot naked girl for a little bit longer, go back to sleep" he says before pulling me in closer.

I'm too tired to argue so I just decide to go back to sleep.

...

When I wake up for the second time that morning Bellamy was gone I threw on my clothes and walked into the drop ship. I could hear jasper moaning on the second level so I climbed the ladder to see how he was doing. I got to the top to see Monty and Octavia looking extremely worried.

"How is he?" I ask Monty

"Not good, Clarke, Finn and wells left to get him something that might help his wound." Monty sighed

Before I could ask any more questions I hear shouting and lots of people running into the drop ship. A yellow gas starts to pour through the slits in the windows.

"Get the windows shut, I'll go check out what's happening" I say to the two

I quickly climb down the ladder to see that the door is shut and everyone is huddled inside.

"What's happening?" I ask fox who is coughing

"The air got thick, everyone's skin started burning" she says between coughs

"Ella is Bellamy down there?" Octavia shouts from above

I quickly scan around the room to see that many people including Bellamy, Wells, Clarke and Finn are nowhere to be found.

"No, but I'm sure he found a safe place to wait it out" I reassure her

It had been about 20 minutes of everyone packed into a small space with jasper moaning and screaming above us when Murphy had finally had enough

"Alright that's it I'm ending this" he says starting up the ladder

"Bellamy gave him till tomorrow" I hear someone tell him

"Well Bellamys not here" he replies

"MURPHYS GOING TO KILL JASPER" I hear Monty scream from above

The door slams shut but it locks from our side so all he could do is put his weight on it, I can hear Octavia scrambling to find something to keep the door shut so I decide to lend them a hand by trying to calm down murphy.

"Murphy just relax we'll be out of here soon"

"I can't take any more of this kids screaming" he says still banging on the door almost getting it open.

I climb up the other side of the ladder so I'm facing him.

"How about I distract you" I say with a wink

This was not one of my proudest moments but I was doing anything to try and give them enough time to seal the door.

"And what exactly do you have in mind?" he said while hopping off the ladder and gesturing for me to follow.

I hop down and lean into him, running my finger down his chest. He starts to place light kisses on my neck.

"ew Ella could you not fuck murphy right in front of us" fox yells

I look around and realize everyone was staring at us, many of murphy's friends were wiggling there eyebrows at us and the girls were just scoffing.

"I'll make you a deal; I'll leave jasper alone if when this fog clears you join me in my tent." He says pulling me in close to his chest.

"Deal" I purr in his ear before walking away to sit with a few of my old friends.

Eventually the fog clears and we all go outside.

A few minutes later I hear a scream of what sounds like a little girl coming from the forest. I take off running to where the scream came from and I see I girl who looks to only be about 13, I think her name is charlotte standing over the body of Atom. He must have gotten caught in what everyone is calling the 'acid fog' because he is covered in blisters.

"Go back to camp charlotte" I hear Bellamy say from behind me, I let out a sigh of relief knowing bellamy didn't also get caught in the fog.

We both crouched down next to Atom who was struggling to breathe he could barely speak but he found enough voice to whisper.

"Kill me, please kill me"

Bellamy had a dagger but his hand was trembling so I reached over and grabbed it from him. I slowly stroked Atoms hair and started to hum of tune of a song I had heard once on the ark before I plunged the knife into the side of his neck.

"Thank you" Bellamy whispered before he ordered a few of the other guys who had been with him to carry atoms body back to camp.

When I returned back to camp I went and sat behind the drop ship while I tried to calm myself down. Everyone thought that I was a killer but in reality I just did what I had to do to stay alive I didn't want to kill those 3 guards but I had to.

"Ready to follow through with your deal?" Murphy says approaching me

"I'm not in the mood right now just leave me alone murphy" I saw trying to brush him off

He pushes me against the drop ship while his hands roam over my chest.

"Murphy stop" I say while trying to squirm away from him

He rips off my shirt and un clasps the back of my bra. I press myself against his chest trying to keep it from sliding off. One scream escapes my mouth before he clamps his free hand over top of it.

"No one can see us and now no one will hear you, just relax and enjoy it" he whispers in my ear

His other hand travels down to my waist and he starts unbuttoning my jeans before he can get them off I hear a voice but my vision is blurry from the tears.

"What the hell are you doing?" the voice shouts

"Just getting what I was promised Bellamy" Murphy replies

"Go find something else to do, she's off limits" the voice, who I now know is Bellamy says to him

"Since when?" Murphy asks

"Since now, get lost" Bellamy says before he shoves murphy towards camp.

"Are you alright?"

"I'm..I'm fine" I say between sobs

My arm is covering my chest and keeping my bra from falling down.

Bellamy goes behind me and clips in back together.

"Your shirt is kind of ruined, take mine" he says while taking off his shirt and passing it to me.

"Then what are you going to wear?"

"Don't worry about me; I'm sure everyone enjoys the view anyways" he says jokingly

I half laugh, half sob as I throw on his shirt, it's way too big but it's better than nothing.

"Come on, let's go back to the group" he says while wrapping his arm around my shoulder and leading me towards everyone else. Murphy just glares at us.

I notice that jasper has stopped his screaming so Clarke must have found something to help him.

"I'm going to go check on Octavia, will you be okay here?" he asks me

I just give him a small nod and he smiles and turns to find Octavia who is probably still with jasper.

~

Everyone is once again sat around the campfire but this time I choose not to drink afraid of the decisions I might make.

Bellamy takes a seat beside me and out his hand on my knee causing me to flinch.

"It's just me, it's okay" he says in a soothing voice "Murphy's just a dick don't let him bother you"

"I...It's just that, do you know why I killed those guards?" I ask him

"No everyone just said that you were crazy that's what they told me when I was on the guard so I just believed them, but now that I've met you I realize that your pretty sane" he says with a chuckle "but feel free to explain what happened that day"

"well it was a few days after my parents were floated for stealing and a few guards came to collect there things to take them to the re distribution centre but they also wanted something else while they were there, they made me take my clothes off and then two of them held me down while the other one.." I choked on a sob while Bellamy rubbed my back in slow circles "he raped me and then every time I saw those guards after that day I just couldn't handle it, it was haunting me I just had to make it stop. I just never feel safe now"

Bellamy didn't say anything he just pulled me into a hug and continued to rub circles on my back.

"You're safe now I won't let anything happen to you, okay" he says in my ear "do you want to sleep in my tent tonight?"

I just nod my head; he takes my hand and leads me to his ten which is much larger then everyone else's.

We crawl into his bed and get under a thin blanket that was found in the drop ship. He wraps his arms around my body and in this moment for the first time in years I felt safe.

Short chapter but the next one will have more murphy drama, comment and vote

~S