I started typing this around 2:17 AM.

I started crying around 1:35 AM.

Why?

I just remembered I wasn't in our class photo, I missed the school field trip, I didn't even attend our acquaintance party, nor our sports festival.

During our Christmas party I didn't have the chance to finish it.

During the morning was exams, during the afternoon was our Christmas party and since the day before that I had fever, asthma, and a serious cold.

I couldn't breathe, I couldn't walk, and I felt lightheaded but my mom made me go to school

But I didn't get to finish the day because I was too weak

During our prom? Something happened that made me leave early...

I felt alone. I'm used to it but... watching your friends walk past you isn't that easy, it's still a bit painful even if I'm used to it.

I tried talking to them but they brush me off

Then comes my thoughts

You're annoying

They don't like you

You're useless

Pathetic

You're too clingy

Too nosy

Attention seeking

You aren't worth their time

They'll never notice you

You're pulling them down with you

Shh. Don't tell anyone, or else they'll leave you like all of them

You never existed.

I don't know why but I'm still letting out a few tears

Time finished typing: 2:30 AM