Michimiya isn't around, thank god.

It's interesting that she seems so nice, but I feel so wrong when looking at her kissing Daichi. Why? It's not that I like her, I know that for sure. And I know myself pretty-

Wait, am I gay?

But I've liked girls before, and I even kissed one, and I liked it. But I imagine kissing Daichi, and it seems so much better somehow...

Why?

If I'm not gay, and I'm not straight, what am I? Wait, I'm late for practice! Oh, god, Daichi would kill me if I was late twice in a row. I have to put this aside. I'm sure there's a way to be both gay and straight at the same time! I'll have to look it up after practice. I run to the gym, and I'm not too late, so that's a bonus.

After school, I type into the search engine on my laptop:

Can you be straight and gay at the same time

Almost immediately, multiple articles pop up on...Bisexuality? Have I heard that term before? A faint inkling of a memory comes to my mind of Nishinoya explaining something to Tanaka in the club room one day. I think I heard it there. I wouldn't be surprised, as he knows a lot of random things. I copy and paste the word into my browser in a new tab.

Instantly, thousands of articles pop up, and a definition that I could boil down to liking both girls and boys. And, according to some articles, enbies, whatever that means. Yet another copy-paste browser search, and I have my answer. That's interesting. I've heard of transgender, but I never thought that someone would be outside of the realm of the two main identities, which are male and female. I also learned about genderqueer in that article, and later on found out a little more about everything through this great terminology website.

Another thing I learned about Bi- it isn't actually gay and straight combined. It's just Bisexuality. Apparently, saying that a Bisexual person is part gay and part straight can be really rude, so really I'm glad I looked it up and didn't accidentally offend anyone with my ignorance.

So I guess I'm Bi then? I mean, I've liked girls, and I've liked at least one guy, so I guess I'm Bisexual.

Wow. That's...that's kinda scary. I've always supported the community, I just never thought I'd be a part of it. I never thought about it at all, actually, I just assumed I was straight and cis. Which, I still think I'm cis. But honestly, this whole sexuality thing is enough discovery for one night.

So I think I'll go to sleep and continue this tomorrow.