Unpopular opinion: Kim can fuck right off.

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😥✨ Part 2 ✨ Jk, but also not really. I just want to see Macau fall in love and be filled with teenage adoration for Chay, have his heart and mind captivated by the lil angle. At the same time witness Chay get his heart broken by Kim and step in to hold him close and show him what they could be. They then proceed to save each other from all the future emotional damage and torture that would come their way, mafia and all. Chay chooses a happier path and doesn't follow in his father's dark footsteps. And Chay receives all the affection he had lacked, because I have a feeling Macau isn't the silent lover kind. He goes big and they take such good care of each other. All I'm asking is for a chance for what they could be 😥.

No hate to the authors of the novels, they did a phenomenal job and I would recommend everyone who's interested to give the novel a shot. it's worth every infuriating and anxious second that you spend cursing out the universe to just let all the characters be happy for once.

Now onto my MacauCahy complex.

Hear me out, I'm absolutely delusional but refuse to allow my baby Chay to be associated with Kim and his handy work against his brother (both Kinn and Porsche). I've read the novel and know exactly the kind of person Kim could turn out to be. 'could', that's right, the person he could be. Everyone wishes for his redemption arc through Chay, manifesting that he cares and wants to protect Chay. Not gonna lie, initially I was a sailor on that ship, but then I finished the novel and realised Kim could have ended it all. I'm not gonna get into specifics, cause those would be huge spoilers that lots of fans didn't consent to. That and I don't know how true the series will be to the novel. But, I personally believe Kim to be nothing but bad news for Chay, if you've read the novel you know what I'm referring to.

Now coming to why I ship Macau with Chay. Honestly, it's just my hopeless abandon to save Macau from the future path he's creating for himself. I say hopeless cause I also know it would never happen, but I'd like to think of what could have.

Everyone knows that Macau and Chay attend the same high school, we've seen it in the series (uniform) as well as heard it from Macau (referring to how he knows about porsche's love for bikes and dreams). There is a possibility that Macau keeps tabs on Chay, if asking for them being friends is too much. Macau and Kim have that in common, approaching Chay with the same intention. His family.

Though the intentions were similar, the action plan is where it sets them apart. They both are spies and informants for their families, with their own personal agendas. And sure, you can argue that Kim eventually develops feelings, but he directly approached Chay with manipulation in mind. He initially takes advantage of the infatuation that Chay is wrapped up in. Then later on he takes advantage of Chay's affections. (and no, I don't think this just cause he hesitates to voice his feelings for Chay). If Kim had indeed had feeling for Chay he'd find some other way to 'protect' his family and get his information. Kim doesn't seem like the guy to lack resources.

I don't want this to be about how toxic the KimChay relationship is, so I'll stop bashing Kim and get on to Macau.

Macau, the poor kid. Raised in the Mafia under the sole of his father's rage, not only that but having to live up to the legacy of both his father and brother. sure, you could say that Kim's in the mafia too. but, he really isn't. He had left to pursue his own life, with his father's blessing. unlike Kim, Macau will never have that chance. Korn might be a fucking bastard, but at least he doesn't abuse and manipulate his own kids. Kan has always been second, as we've seen, and his thirst for vengeance is what will eventually ruin both his children's lives.

Macau has lacked most of the parental affection his whole life, never once being considered or brought into perspective. It's always the Main family, and even when it isn't, it's Vegas. he's been sidelined his whole life. Vegas being the only person who cared enough to protect his baby brother as much as he could. but how much could he shelter his brother from. In the novel Vegas tries his very best to shield his brother from the dangers of the mafia world, but eventually must conceit to raise him to fight the darkness himself. The nature of Macau's arrogance and entitled air is due to the fact that he just wants to be heard and seen, for once in his life. It's no excuse, but it's how he thinks he can be feared and powerful.

It's all a façade to appear important in a world where no-one cares about him.

I personally believed he can be saved from the hell he's been in his whole life. He just needs one person's affection. Just one, anyone, someone to tell him he's loved and cared for. and that he is important.

Who better than our lil sunshine shortcake?

Not saying that Porchay could magically take away all the pain and ingrained agenda that was forced down Macau's throat, but I truly think he could change Macau for the better.

Chay gives unconditionally, his efforts, his heart, his feelings. everything. he does everything wholeheartedly. that's just him. Beautiful, Wonderful Chay. He forgives and is always willing to give everyone a chance. or chances, plural.

Here's my two cents on how that could go down - (there will be some rearranging of events, bare with me)

Having Chay and Macau cross paths through their school days couldn't just be some odd coincidence. Porsche works hard to give his brother everything he's never gotten the privilege to have since their parents' passing, which may include a high-end education (I say this because I don't think Kan's ego would allow him to send his son to some second or third rate school), meaning the gap between both the boys are even wider. One comes from Power and loneliness (Macau), and the other from innocence and struggle (Chay). they're bound to naturally repel each other, just like the social brigade that oppresses societies.

Macau, probably wouldn't have a lot of true friends. Mainly due to the fear his father's reputation has instilled into everyone around him. I'm no expert but i'm sure there were rumors about him and his family flying through the halls of the school. it's high school kids, kids talk a lot. Anyway he's got a reputation that proceeds him, and that either scares everyone away or entices them to use him. He may like the attention at first, but he's not daft, he's bound to realize that once again, no one actually cares for him. it'll hurt. he'd harden himself further, create his own armor. Arrogance, he figures. if no one wants to see the real him, they'll see the him that he's willed himself to become.

As he goes through his school life, faking interest in everything, he's one day tasked by his brother to find out about some kid named Porchay Kittisawasd. He's never heard of the name in his life, but it's the first task he's ever been given by anyone in his family. It's his time to shine, he thinks.

Determined, he sets his sights on Chay. Going around asking about him and trying to find out what he can. Intimidation works wonders when you have a father who can have someone shot with a snap of his finger. He finds out which class Chay is in, makes it his life's mission to unravel the boys entire life, because he can't let his family down - no, he can't let Vegas down. He's going to do this without any mistakes.

He'll probably dare himself to talk to Chay personally. It'll be the first step to his ungraceful downfall. Dramatic, I know. But which Theerapanyakul offspring isn't dramatic?

It's Chay's smile that first gets him, has him off balance, tipping on dazed. It's so unadulterated. captivating. that's ugly, he thinks. why does he smile so much? what's wrong with him? He still continues to fake befriend Chay.

Then it's the realization that Chay only talks about two things, his brother Porsche and some idol named Wik. Macau rolls his eyes, his cousin isn't even that great. he sucks, actually. He tells his brother everything about Porsche.

Wrapped up in being the best informant has it's cons, though. He has meticulously trained his eyes to follow every move that Chay makes. Where he goes, Who he's with, When he goes to the music room, When he gets the bus to go home. Everything, Macau sees it all. What he doesn't see though, are the times his eyes seek out Chay even when he's not there. All it takes is the mention of his name, and you've got Macau's full attention. He doesn't tell his brother that.

One day he realizes that he's followed Chay and his friends to some place familiar. It's Vega's university. He follows the boys to the Department of Music and sound, it clicks. Maybe this is where Chay wants to study, he makes a mental note. He stands to the side behind the pillar, eyes fixed on the smiling boy in the third row. he can't help but snort when he sees Chay roll back and forth on the balls of his heel. He's excited, he thinks.

They get briefed about the department by some seniors and Macau swears he nearly dies of boredom. nearly. Chay's expression is his only form of entertainment, until he notices Chay's body go tense.

He straightens up instantly, tensing himself, looking around to see what could have been the cause. Then he sees him, fucking Kim and his stupid leather jacket.

He wills himself to deflate, only Chay the ultimate fanboy would comically freeze in the presence of his favorite idol. He can't help but smile as he sees Chay's enthusiasm over answering the questions about Wik.

Then for a brief second his eyes land on his cousin. He tenses unconsciously. something irked him about the way his cousin looked fixated on Chay as he answered the last question. He leaves, telling Vegas that he visited his University today to see if there was a course he wanted to join.

The next day is a Saturday, Macau puffs out in annoyance. He's bored from playing video games the whole morning. the staff tense and rush to his side, inquiring if there's something he's unsatisfied with. he looks visibly irritated, no one knows why, not even Vegas could coax an answer out of him. It's not his fault though, he himself doesn't know why he's irritated.

He needs entertainment, and the first thing that pops into his mind is Chay's smiling face. That'll do, he thinks and tells his brother he's going to the skate park. Vegas looks at him strange, but says nothing. Later when Vegas goes to the park, he snorts when there's no Macau in sight. He gets on his bike and rides to Porsche's house. He sees Macau standing near the small milk stall, eyes trying to peer into the garden of Porsche's house. He smirks as he sneaks up behind his brother and scares the ever-living crap outta him.

They head home, neither brother saying a word.

Weeks go by, and all of Macau's information now only consists of all of Chay's favorite food, music, Nintendo games and tv series. He doesn't tell Vegas any of that.

Vegas later assures him that he's done with his task and they have all the information they need. He praises his brother for a job well done, and Macau puffs his chest with pride. He's done well.

The next day when he sees Chay, he walks up to talk to him as usual. makes new mental notes on how Chay is feeling and what he's doing today. Then Chay says something along the lines of 'Wik teaching him' or some rubbish, Macau couldn't remember - watching Chay's lips move weirdly made him deaf.

It takes him a full three minutes to grasp what Chay said. Rushing to clarify what he was sure he heard wrong. His cousin is a narcissist and couldn't care about anyone else. He would never volunteer to help anyone in his free time.

Macau is now pissed the whole week through, avoiding Chay as much as he can. He's asked his brother to look into why Kim would bother to talk to Chay and give him his time. Vegas blinks before he smirks, telling Macau he's really good at being an informant. Macau is confused, what did he tell him? Vegas tells him Kim is smart and that he'll find out soon. Macau is annoyed. his question is unanswered. Why is everyone suddenly interest in Chay?

The next day there's a meeting in the main house, he's beyond annoyed now. why wouldn't anyone tell him anything? unbeknownst to him, a guard approaches him as he's letting his frustrations out on the koi pond his eldest cousin loves. to add to all his irritation, he's called the son of a maid. He lashes out, only for his world to be flipped upside down into the pond.

He sees red, and yells that his father will have the guards head for pushing him. It's only later when he hears stupid Kinn yell out Porsche's name, that he puts two and two together. but It's too late, his father is booming out accusation and he's starting to feel dizzy. Porsche falls to the ground limp and he suddenly feels extremely guilty.

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Okay this has gotten too long, I'm gonna have to break this up into two parts. Stay tuned for part 2 if you're interested.