*Ross - Point of View*

Alex and Chris moved away from the kiss, and I could see Trott was a bright red. I bit back a chuckle as he hid his face in his hands, Alex licking his lips in satisfaction.

"Well, I have kissed you two, now you kiss each other. Other wise it might be a weird thing." Alex explained, pushing us together.

"It already is weird." I retorted, giving Alex a raise of the eyebrows.

"We are drunk. Now go on." I sighed and looked at Chris with tired eyes. He just shrugged, moving closer. I closed my eyes ahead of time, moving inward for what seemed forever until I meet Chris' lips. It was shorter than me and Alex's kiss; but just as sweet.

"Well then, what do you say about your dare then Chris?" Alex snickered, wiggling his eyebrows. Chris sighed and rubbed his face, thinking. As Chris thought I flipped the coin. Heads. I sighed in defeat and removed my jeans, leaving me in just my boxers. I passed the coin to Chris, pulling him out of his thoughts and he looked over me.

"Fuck..." He whispered, taking the coin.

"I think you mean fuck!" Alex grinned, looking me over. I gave him a rude look, but I was trying to hide my blush as best as possible. Chris flipped the coin. Heads.

"Okay Alex what did you do to this coin! It has landed heads four times in a row!" I shouted, pushing Alex over to his back.

"Nothing!" He laughed, sitting back up again.

"Well-" I turned over to a now topless Chris. "-you should take off your top. It is only fair." Trott ordered more than dared; and Alex did as he was told. After that the night blurred together, my mind fogged with the effect of alcohol.

***The next week***

It had been a week since we had had the drunken night in my treehouse. Our parents never found out, they just figured we had a really bad sleep the night of. One thing that was unresolved however, was my feelings. Until last week I had believed I was straight. Now... Now I wasn't so sure. After my first kiss with Alex and my first kiss with Chris; my feelings towards them have changed. The problem however was if they felt the same. Alex was always a flirt and tease, so it could just be that his drunken personality is a bit more touchy. Chris and I only kissed to make it 'even' as Alex put it; so it could be that Chris was 100% straight. I don't know. And I feel I never will. I sighed and headed to my locker to collect my belongings before heading out to where Alex, Chris and I meet to walk home.

*Alex - Point of View*

It was a week after the party, and I still haven't gotten any response to the kiss. To be honest to myself, I was gay; 100% homosexual. And to be even more honest, as much as I disliked it: I had a crush on my two best friends. It wasn't that I hated loving them, I hated that my heart was forever in a state of pain. If I didn't express my feelings I would have to watch them fall in love with others without knowing what could have been. Or if I tell them how they make my heart jump when I am near them; and they don't feel the same. That could ruin the friendship. And I didn't want either of those possibilities to reign true. I sighed and shut my locker, walking over to the meeting area to walk home.

*Chris - Point of View*

"What am I feeling?" I angrily whispered, tossing my textbook into my locker. Some girls behind me laughed as they walked by and I sighed, resting my forehead on the cool metal of my locker. What is happening to me. One day I have a crush on the cute girl in my class; then a weekend later I develop a confusing set of feelings for the only two people who care about me. I secretly hoped this was a phase, that this was a horrible nightmare. My hands began to sweat as I stood still, my fingers shaped in a fist. Maybe it will go away. Maybe the increase in my heart beat whenever I was around the two was a side affect to some illness I was developing. I hope.

"Hey Chris, we were waiting forever for you." I turn around and see Alex and Ross, puzzled looks painted upon their face. Oh no.

"Sorry. I got distracted by my thoughts..." I muttered.

"Let me guess; the girl in your maths class you fancy." Ross guessed, rolling his eyes.

"Not exactly..." I mumbled under my breath, slamming my locker shut causing me to jump.

"God, are you okay Chris? You don't seem yourself."

"I am fine!" I shouted, receiving looks from the remaining students in the school hall. "Let's just go please." I responded in a normal voice, pushing past the two to the door. I need air.

We walked home in almost complete silence, the only sound Alex's occasional humming of one of the multiple songs always stuck in his head. It was calming, and it helped me think more often than not. But now my mind simply fogged over; images of Alex, Ross and I kissing in the pale moonlight shining through the open window of the treehouse. Ross' lips were moist with saliva from the constant licking of his lips, and Alex was topless, the sweat reflecting the delicate beams of light.

"Chris? Earth to Chris?" Alex waved his hand in front of my face, snapping me back into reality. We were home, on the front lawn of our modest house. "You sure you are okay?" I nodded a response, but I wasn't too sure. I had a feeling me liking my two best friends wasn't just a phase.

*Ross - Point of View*

I said goodbye to Alex and Chris; but Chris seemed to be lost in a thought. I waved and walked into my home, shutting the door behind me. I rested my head on the painted wood, taking a deep breath.

"Why?" I mumbled, feeling tears well up in my eyes.

"Sweetheart... Are you okay?" I turned around and quickly wiped my eyes. I nodded, but I knew my face was still warped into a frown. Mum tisked and walked up toward me, pulling me into a hug. "Whatever it is, I am with you. Okay?" I sniffled and hugged back. I was a good foot taller than her now that I was 17, but that still didn't stop her from treating me like her baby. I felt her loosen on the hug a little, but I didn't let go.

"Mum, I don't know what to do. I am so confused." I wined, feeling tears burn at my eyes once again.

"What is it hunny."

"I- I..." She hugged tighter; telling me without words that whatever it was she would be beside me. Always. "I think I am Bisexual." My heart beat at 200 beats per second, my breaths short and ragged with worry.

"Is that it?" My mum asked, not seeming surprised.

"I think I like Alex and Chris. Like I like like them." My mum pulled away from the hug and for a moment I was frightened. Does she hate me? Am I going to be slapped for feeling such sinful things? I slowly opened my eyes to see my mum... Smiling. I raised a confused eyebrow at her. "Do you hate me?"

"Of course not. Why would you think that?" She responded, grabbing onto my hand and dragging me into the kitchen. "Maybe don't tell your father yet though, you know how he is." She spoke, opening the oven and pulling out some chocolate chip cookies. I nodded in response when she grinned back at me, removing her oven mitts. She brought over a cookie, putting it in my hands. "We will have to make a coming out cake later. Okay?" I nodded, pulling her into a hug.

"I love you mum." I whispered.

"I love you too." She responded, holding me close. I moved away from the hug and took a step back, butting into my cookie. "Now go do your homework, I will save some cookies for you lovers tomorrow." I rolled my eyes and smiled.

"Thanks mum." I giggled and walked up the stairs to my room. My phone went off in my back pocket.

[Alex] Hey? Want to play Minecraft? Me and Chris are already on

[Ross] Sure! Be on in a minute

*Chris - Point of View*

"My mum made cookies for us tomorrow." Ross said, slicing through the rotting flesh of a zombie villager. He was adding a 'wall' around our marble tower, though it was looking more like a pair of wings floating in the air, curving delicately around the white structure.

"I love your mums cooking." Alex remarked, before he cursed a few choice words as a loud bang could be heard over the hum of machineries I was working on. I sighed and moved into the charging pad; checking it had been set up correctly as I let my thoughts run off. I had been doing this for a while now; letting the world around me disappear as I replaced it with daydreams. I knew everyone was beginning to worry for me, but I don't know if I could explain why. "So year 11 is almost over. What you all want to do this summer?"

"I think I might go to films camp for a week. I want to be a director when I get older." Ross tells, and I snap back into realization.

"That would be fun." I agree. "I don't know what I want to do yet."

"Well you can probably do anything with your grades Chris." Alex resorts; a sense of mocking in his tone.

"I guess..." I mumble back, falling into my own little world again.

"Well I want to join the British Military." Alex proudly stated, a poshness flowing over his voice.

"You have a good enough aim." Ross told. It was true, they all went airsofting one time and Alex managed to hit everyone in the chest each shoot he used. He had impeccable aim.

"You guys should come to film camp with me. We could be partners and then I wouldn't be so lonely. It's only for a week so it won't take up too much of your time." Ross murmured, hesitation lining his voice as if we were going to yell at him for such a preposterous idea.

"Sounds fun. I'm in. Alex?" I questioned, turning my attention to the green block man who dug through the chest for a magical item he needed.

"Count me in!" He said excitedly, removing his focus from the chests and back to the other blocky men.

"Film Camp, here we come!"

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