MOM FUCKING TREATS ME LIKE A FUCKING 5 YEAR OLD

SHE SAYS SHES TRYING TO HELP ME SLEEP.BETTER

"bring your phone down and stay up for another half a hour"

WHAT GOOD WILL THAT DO!?

"you dont take enough breaks off your phone in the day"

MY LIFE ISNT ALWAYS ON MY PHONE/LAPTOP GOD DAMNIT. MAYBE WHAT SHE SEES BUT ITS REALLY NOT

"your phone overstimulates your brain at night, thats why you cant turn off your thoughts at night"

NO, NO ITS REALLY NOT WHY. ITS BECAUSE I HAVE DEPRESSION. MY THOUGHTS NEVER STOP JUDGING ME AND YOUR JUST MAKING IT FUCKING WORSE

"you should actually eat breakfast"

YEAH, IF I HAVE A FUCKING APPITITE OR TIME

"you dont know how to unplug" her famous fucking QUOTE.

YES I DO. I WOULD PULL IT OUT NORMALLY BUT THIS IS THE ONLY PLACE WHERE I FEEL ALIVE

"why are you crying"

"i dont know"

"you do know, you just wont tell me"

"i dont know"

"im not yelling at you"

"..."

ACCEPT THE FACT I DONT FUCKING KNOW. MAYBE ASSUME THAT IM PISSED OFF, CAUSE YA KNOW, TEARS CAN MEAN ANGER TOO, NOT JUST SADNESS

THEN SHE TELLS ME ALL HER STORIES AND HOW ME AND MY BROTHER ARE THE BEST THINGS IN THE WORLD. I DONT CURRENTLY GIVE A LIVING FUCK BECAUSE WHY WOULD IT AFFECT ME.

LIKE, OK I FEEL BAD FOR YOU BUT I DONT LIVE YOUR LIFE. THAT WAS ALL THE PAST, PUSH IT TO THE SIDE AND FOCUS ON THE PRESENT AND FUTURE LIKE 75% OF MY TEACHERS TELL ME

THIS DAY HAS GONE TO SHIT IN THE LAST 3 HOURS.

CAUSE I FUCKING GOT A PANIC ATTACK IN FUCKING MATH. THANKFULLY NO ONE SAW ME, ESPECIALLY THE TEACHERS BUT MY FRIEND DIDNT EVEN NOTICE ME RUNNING OUT OF THE ROOM OR ASK ME WHAT HAPPENED.

IM REALLY FUCKING IRRITATED CAUSE OF MY SELF AND OTHERS AROUND ME RIGHT NOW

i just need to get out of this fucking house

scream, break shit

break that stupid fucking bottle by throwing a tantrum

but i fucking can't