My father....

he-

He's engaged to another woman.

I always get hurt, abused, SHOT BY A FUC- FREAKING GUN!

He keeps coming home with these women.

This one seems no better.

She's blonde and short... like 5'ft short. She has another five feet of awfulness.

D-Father lied to me.

He's ruining my life.

I confronted him

he said "you should be happy for me, I want this woman in my house, and you need to change your attitude young lady, plus, the kids need a real mom".

"THEN CHOOSE SOMEONE WHO'S A REAL PERSON, AND I DON'T NEED A MOM"!

"This isn't for you".

I yelled. I lost it. It's just so fucking hard.

"WELL IT STILL AFFECTS ME, DOESN'T IT? THIS IS JUST GREAT FOR YOU, ISN'T IT! YOU'RE GONNA GET ANOTHER WOMAN TO COME AND ABUSE ME AND SHOOT ME WHEN SHE'S JUST A GOLD DIGGER LIKE THE REST. YOU'RE GONNA RUIN MY LIFE. WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO NOW, KILL ME? IT MIGHT BE HER WHO'LL PULL THE TRIGGER, BUT IT'S YOU WHO LETS THESE PEOPLE IN AND EVEN WHEN I TELL YOU YOU'RE WRONG AND YOU SHOULD STOP DOING THIS! YOU'RE GONNA GET ME KILLED AND YOU'LL JUST LAUGH AT MY FUNERAL... YOU'LL THROW A PARTY INSTEAD! YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE KEEPING ME SAFE AND YOU'RE DOING THE EXACT OPPOSITE ON PURPOSE! YOU FORGET ABOUT THE PEOPLE IN YOUR FAMILY AND GO UNDERCOVER DATING AND THEN EVERYONE IN THIS FAMILY HAS TO ALL OF THE SUDDEN ACCEPT THAT YOU'RE A COMPLETE BICTH AND YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT THEM AND YOU'LL NEVER CHANGE! MAYBE I SHOULD JUST SPEED UP THE DEATH PROCESS AND DO EVERYTHING MYSELF. BUT I WARN YOU, BE CAREFUL OR AVA WILL FOLLOW NEXT BECAUSE THIS HAS BEEN EQUALLY AS HARD ON HER TOO"!

What should I do?