Since I have nothing better to do, here's some weird and ridiculous things I fear or do. Every time I see a bug in my house and it's not an ant, a spider or a house fly, I can't help but imagine it's gonna lay its eggs in my ears an the larvas will eat up their way through my brain. When it's a spider, I either film it while singing a silly song from my childhood and send it to my friend if it's far enough from me, or just run away screaming a low pitch aaah. I still get my mom to kill them for me, I'm 18 and live on my own 5 days a week... Also, my sink countertop is screwed to the wall, so there's a space of one foot between the end of it and the floor. I can't put my feet under it. I can't help myself but think, if it's dark outside, even if the lights are on, that something's gonna grab my toes, so I brush my teeth so damn far from the sink so I can see that all of my feet are not under the countertop. I lift my feet up from the floor when I drive pass a train rail, a bump or a crack in the road, because I think the boom is gonna be less violent. When I drive on a yellow light, I hit the roof of the car two times with my fist. Someone once told me it's for having good s*x. For some reason I never stopped doing it. Since we are wearing masks, and I always walk with my AirPods on, I lip sync the songs under my mask. I am able to crack every joint in my body. Fingers, wrists, shoulders, elbows, hips, knees, ankles, toes, name it I can crack it. But if I crack only one side, left wrist for exemple, then the right doesn't feel okay. It's heavier and harder to move and won't stop feeling weird until I have cracked it. I don't hold my pencil normally, so when I write/draw, the side of my hand smudge my lines/letters and it gets all covered in pencil or ink. I feel the lefties even tho I'm right-handed. I always have to count the stairs, but only when I get down them, or else I fall, but not when I go up them. I can't remember dates for f*ck's sake but I can remember French rap lyrics I used to listen to 4 years ago and haven't heard since. When I see I licence plate on a car, I can't help myself but read it with the phonetic alphabet. I can take a nap in front of the open window on a sunny day without problem, but at night I can't sleep because of the TV's little light. I often need a moment to get what I heard to my brain, so when people talk to me I sometimes ask what? then respond without them having the time to repeat. They look weird at me. I associate people I know whit songs I think represent them, so sometimes when I hear that particular song I think about them. Anyways, weird and proud of it.

Today's comfort lyrics:
This ain't build a b*tch, you don't get to pick and choose. Different ass and bigger b00bs, if my eyes are brown or blue. This ain't built a b*tch, I'm filled with flaws and attitude. So if you need perfect I'm not good for you.