(Disclaimer: from this point on there will be talk of the following;
Anxiety, anorexia, insomnia, slight depression and possibly others depending on where this story goes,
there will be a warning at the beginning of the chapters explaining what is about to happen..
this chapter contains: slight talk of anorexia, denying food, and Todoroki trying to figure out he has this disorder without anyone finding out)

Anorexia:
The dreaded word has been popping up amor more lately

To shoto it's nothing
He can ignore it
Just keep on pushing through like always

..right?

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"Let me go" todoroki whispers to himself through gritted teeth

"Letmegoletmegoletmego-" he grips at his hair and slowly slides down onto the floor

Midoriya had gone to grab them breakfast and he couldn't help but think

That's always what it comes down to

His thoughts

So many what ifs

All preventing him from doing the simplest of tasks

He doesn't need to eat more than once a day

He's fine

The hunger that buried itself into his stomach had become his friend by now

Even through all of the doubts and thoughts, the second the green haired male walks through the door he puts on a smile and accepts the plate of food

"Th-thank you izu" he smiles weakly, only seeming tired to the oblivious boy In front of him

"It's not problem shoto" he smiled and gently hugged todoroki

"I'm gonna go get ready for today, I'll be right back shochan!"

Todoroki nods and stares down at his plate as midoriya left the now cold and suffocating room

'This is fine, right? It does look really good- but-'

He groaned and quickly scarfed down as much as he could... only to instantly regret it because no less than five minutes later the feeling of food in his stomach was making him nauseous

'What the hell is wrong with me- why can't I keep anything down- it's not like I want to but.. why-?'

He ran into his small private bathroom and quickly threw open the toilet lid and threw up the little that his stomach contained

He sat there, tears running down his face silently sobbing as he dry heaved over the toilet bowl

The stomach acid burned and he was weak from lack of nutrients

"Nobody can know.." he whispered

"Not even Izuku"