Warning: this chapter is going to be ridiculously long. I don't know if you'll like the length or not. I just thought I'd upload a long chapter since I didn't upload in 3 days. And idk. Let me know :)
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Tessa's POV

I turned and tossed in bed for what seemed like hours which was actually only one hour. Finally, I stared at the dark ceiling waiting for my alarm clock at 6:30. For the first time, I can say I'm actually proud of myself. I stood in my ground against Harry and didn't even regret it. I won't let him control me or my life anymore. I feel numb towards him now. Like he wasn't my boyfriend, like I didn't love him, like he doesn't even exist. I'm too hurt to forgive him this time. He didn't even make any effort so that I can think of forgiving him. He's not worthy of my thoughts or even my time. I know I'm probably holding on for tonight and I will burst when I see him. I can't go on, living in the memory of our love like that. I need to get past this, to stop loving him, to forget about him, about us...

It's time to let it go, go out and start again.

I look at the side of my bed. It feels a little bit bigger. Empty. He appears suddenly, sitting on the bottom side of the bed shirtless. When I try to open my mouth to talk, he leans over and silences me by putting his finger vertically in front of my mouth.

"Baby don't worry, lean on me. It's going to be okay".

His words come as soothing and calming as possible as he leans beside me and I lay on his bare chest, hearing the loud pounding of his heart. I feel my warm tears streaming down my cheek as soon as my face connects with his skin. To say that I miss him as hell is an understatement. When I lift my arm to hug his waist, the physical weight next to me disappears.

I open my eyes and taste the saltiness of my tears. I look at the side again to make sure he is not here anymore. He wasn't here from the beginning. I lay in my tears again tucking my face in my pillow and biting my lip to prevent the tears that do not seem to obey.

The dream took me back to where we started, to when we were okay, to when we were madly in love and it felt so real.

I open my eyes again but they barely do and that's when I realize I am sobbing.

I miss him so much, I miss him sleeping next to me, I miss our small talks, our fights, our hangouts, I miss us.

Why is this happening to me? Why can't I keep myself together? I was just doing fine. I was okay with him not being around. I was trying so damn hard to just let go and live my life. But it all fell apart when I saw him. I knew it was all coming to this point.

I always have high hopes in him and it kills me everytime. It kills me vein after vein.

A knock is heard on my door and I wipe the floods of tears off my face and neck. Liam appears behind the door and as soon as he sees my face, the bright smile he has turned into a deep frown.

"What's happened? Is everything okay? " As he said those words, I remembered Harry words in my dream "Baby, it's going to be okay".

I burst into tears again and Liam comes closer and pulls me up and hugs me tightly. A tender hug I was longing for but from another person.

He caresses the back of my hair as he knows I'm having my inner breakdown. Again.

I get hold of his waist and hug him back as strong as I can.
"I'm tired Liam. I don't know if I can hold on much longer." I sob, my voice deep in his shoulder.

"Hey, I know how it feels. Just take it easy. " he pulls away and and wipes my tears and gazes deeply in my eyes before talking. I feel the tender, the warm, the sympathy in his chocolate brown eyes. His words comfort me and my eyes water again.

"Tessa hey. Let's go out. Let's skip classes today. I know a place that will make you feel better."

"What about my internship?" I wipe my tears for seemingly the hundredth time today.

"My stepfather will call Mr Vance. Don't worry about that. You can use a day off. Come on. Please say yes" he begs and his brown eyes sparkle even more.

"I..I don't know..I-"

"Oh come on. I promise you won't regret it. Come on, get dressed. And prepare yourself for the day of your dreams" He wink at me and I want to ask him where are we going but I decide against it knowing that he wouldn't spill it.

"okay" I mutter loud enough for him to hear it and his face instantly lightens up.

I drag my feet to the bathroom, have a quick shower and put my comfy oversized white sweater and black jeans on. I then blow dry my hair as usual and let it down. I put some makeup on to look a bit lively since my eyes are puffy and I have dark circles under them caused by the lack of sleep and the massive tears I have used.

Liam's POV(surprise)

When Tessa came down, her eyes look swollen, dark circles shadowing her fading blue eyes. She does look a little bit put up together but it is still clear from the pale color of her face.

"You look cute" I try to cheer her up.

"Thank you" that's all she manages to say without looking into my eyes.

That's exactly the state that I don't want to see her in. She just spent the last two weeks getting over him. And now all she gets is being disappointed again. I can't stand seeing her like this. She doesn't deserve this. Harry is not worthy of her.

"Have a cookie. They make you happy" my mother suggested looking at Tessa who jumped from her seat.

"Sorry didn't notice you were here, thanks"

My mother gives me a questionable look and I return a knowing look and she nods understandingly.

After I watch Tessa stare at her cookie for fifteen minutes without taking a bite, I wave at her.

"Shall we go? "

"Um.. Yea. Let me just get my bag-"

"You don't need it. You need your hands free" I wink at her

She lets out a small laugh which did not reach her eyes...

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The drive to our destination was almost all silent. Tessa kept gazing outside having a faraway look. And she didn't even hear me when I called her name. I did call her but in a low tone, I know she's not ready for any type of talk right now so I didn't want to insist.

Tessa's POV

I didn't notice that we have arrived until Liam pulls on the side of the read. Looking around, all I see is green. Liam gets off, comes to the passenger side and opens the door for me.

"Thank you". I gasp as I look at the view ahead of me. Liam leads the way and we stop at the top of a hill. I can swear I'm dreaming.
"Waw this is so beautiful". The place is covered with long green grass dancing on the melody of the cool wind. There are long trees, their shadow is so tempting. And the river. It's looks so pure and lively.

I can't help but cringe at first remembering my memory with Harry at the river but I push it back in the back of my head before it takes over my thoughts.

"Let's go" Liam wakes me up from my reverie and he pulls me by my hand. Surprisingly he starts running and if I didn't do the same, I would have stumbled and rolled on the grass. The cool breeze tickles my bare neck and my hair flies behind me. I felt like a child. I felt like a bird. Free. Happy. I felt silly but happy.

"Tessa. You can do whatever you want and say whatever you want here. No one will hear you." He tells me as we sit on the grass in front of the river.

"How do you know this place?"

"I used to come here whenever I'm stressed and needed some fresh air. No one comes here"

Liam's POV

I can see the pain washing off her face at my words. I knew she needed to stay away from people. From Harry.

She stands up suddenly, walks slowly towards the top of the hill, her hands in her pockets and her hair flying like angry flames behind her.
When she reaches it, she does the most unexpected thing that I thought she would do. She took a deep breath and screamed exhaling all the air in her lungs. And then she did it again. And again. And again...

I watch her as she comes undone. Then she runs back to where I was and when she arrives, I spot tears in the corners of her eyes.

"Sorry..."

"No. Don't be. That's why I brought you here. Do you wanna talk about it?" I ask her , hesitation cleat in my voice.

She nods and then tells me about a dream she had last night after he left and how it felt so real. I swear if I hadn't locked the door house myself I would think he was actually there.

"Come here" I reassure her as I put my arm around her shoulder and pull her closer to me. "You will get over it believe me. Just try harder. I will make sure he doesn't come near you. If that's what you want?" I wait for her answer. She mutters a simple yes , her face covered in my chest. I feel something in my stomach that I can't describe.

We both stare at the horizon, the blue water, the green surroundings for hours. Then she stands up slowly, putting her palms on the grass to hold her weight.

"Where are you going?" I stand up across from her

"Thank you for bringing me here". Without asking for my permission, she gets closer and hugs me intensly.

I feel the same feeling in my stomach, only this time it's stronger. And deeper.

She pulls away leaving my warm body and looks directly in my eyes with a wide smile:"Let's go home. It's almost lunch time"

"I don't think you got this right". I smirk.

When I said that this is going to be a day of your dreams I was serious.

We drove to a calm restaurant and she was surprised when we got in. The place was all lit with sparkly lights and there was a band playing soothing melodies. We ordered our meals and laughed and talked all the time. I tried my best to divert her thoughts from unpleasant thing. And every time she laughed I felt an inner joy.

At around 3 pm, I told her that we have somewhere else to go. To say that she was surprised would be an understatement. I payed for lunch ignoring her attempt to do so and her funny glares.

Tessa's POV

Next destination was a carnaval.
I was amazed by the efforts that Liam was doing today and I wanted to cry. I decided to postpone that for later and enjoy my time instead.

We rode merry go rounds, electric cars, we ate candies and sweets and I basically feel like a child. Again.

I felt happy, free, childish... I felt like someone else. I haven't had this much fun in so long. Not even with Harry.

The whole day was extremely..different. I feel like a new born person with all the fresh air surrounding me.

As we made our way back to the car at around 9pm, I approach him, link my arm in his and plant a cheeky kiss on his cheek.

He seemed astonished by my sudden movement and when he looks at me, I give him the best smile I can form right now.

"Thank you Liam.So much. You don't know how much I appreciate your support. I appreciate you doing so much for me. Skipping classes just to cheer me up. And spending the whole day with me, while I didn't even care about your breakup..."

He stays silent and we walk arm in arm in a comfortable silence and I feel butterflies in my stomach from all the fun I had today and from linking arms?

A/N: what do you think? I need honest opinions. Is the length okay? Is it too long? Did you enjoy it? Shall my next chaptes be this long?
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