~ Chapter Ten ~

It was Christmas morning. When I awoke, I glanced at my arms.

I'm ashamed to say that I now have seven on my right arm, and twelve on my left arm.

Sighing, I pulled on a pair of red skinny jeans, and my newest Weasley jumper.

It was a black jumped with the letter 'L' in purple stitching. I love these jumpers! They're so warm..............

I slipped on a pair of my black combat boots, and went to the bathroom to do my make up and hair.

I decided to loosely curl my dark red hair today. I put it all to one side, and curl my side bangs, and lay them in the side of my head that hand my hair laying across my shoulder.

I put in a pair of my 'diamond' earrings, and my earlobe diamond earring in my right ear.

My make up for Christmas Day was simple, like some natural eyeshadow and just a little bit of dark black eyeliner on my eyelids. I put on some light lip gloss. It was cherry. I quickly put the little sign I had written on the mirror with a few pieces of spell-O tape.

It read:

'I, Alexandria Lillian Potter, am pretty. Ignore what others say. Don't hurt yourself- again, please.'

I gave a small, fake smile, and opened the bathroom door so Shane and Harry could bush they're teeth.

I walked down the stairs, tears threatening to spill down my cheeks. I held them in somehow.

Sitting at the kitchen table was my parents.

"You look nice, Lexi, is it for George?" Mum had asked me once dad had left the room to to go get changed. Mum already did.

I shrugged. "He has a girlfriend."

"Who?"

"Alicia Spinnet. She's not very nice to me at some points."

"So, maybe George is trying to make you jealous?"

I laughed. "Nobody would, I mean, Erin has Fred- they were cuddling and didn't know it on the train, since they fell asleep. Spinnet and George were snogging, and I was just... There. Taking up the space, and I led the complement."

"Honey, what do you mean by nobody would?" Mum asked me, concerned.

"Nobody would ever love me. I mean love me like you and dad love eachother." I laughed, a small fake smile on my face.

"I think it's because I'm ugly. And hated. And that nobody likes me." I sadly smiled.

"That is not true! You are a beautiful girl, Lexi. Why would you think that?"

"Because it's true." I sadly smiled.

I adjusted the sleeves of my Weasley sweater because I think mum saw my scars as I took a sip of milk.

I got up.

"Well, I'm gonna go and wait for them in the living room. I'll be watching Frosty the Snowman."