A/N: @KaitlynMarcus helped me write this chapter a lot so go and drop her a follow!!!

John POV

"There were supposed to be three but" He trailed off and hung his head. I didn't quite understand but then Martha let out a small ~oh~ and embraced Alex's small figure. Tears were shed and more hugs were dished out.

Suddenly it hit me like a ton of bricks. I heard a scream and wailing. a strong hand pushed me back and I felt myself hitting the floor. Everything went black.

I opened my eyes

I was in a dimly lit hallway. i feel like I've been here before. Suddenly, I saw the room that I was to enter. Dad ushered me in and there sat my mother. Laying on her back, she smiled.

"MOMMY" i screamed and ran toward her. It had been a full 3 days since I last saw her. "Is the baby still in you Mommy?" I asked.

She laughed, "Of course little one!! Why do you think I'm still so round?" I giggled.

I saw her grimace in pain. "Mommy?" she held her stomach and looked at Dad. The woman looked back at me and put a hand on my face. "Your such a handsome little boy. I love you, Jackie"

Wait why was she saying this. Whats going on. "Mommy?" I turned to father, "Sir whats happening is the baby coming?"

She looked back at Dad, "get him out of here"

He nodded and shoved me out. "Wait no, sir what about Mommy?" tears started coming out of my eyes. "sir-" I was fighting to get back to the room. Father's head dipped and i could see tears in his eyes. I kept punching his legs. "Mommy no don't let him take me I wanna see the baby." I screamed at an attempt to see my mother.

"Jack lets go" I heard my dad's voice crack.

"No sir" my punches got weaker.

I fell to the floor.

"Mommy" I whispered.

The next day my father got a letter from the hospital saying that my baby sister didn't make it. Dad later told me that the deal was that the baby would make it but Mom wouldn't because they didn't have the ability to save both but it ended up being a stillborn. Ever since then he has been super hard on me because it's 'what mom would've wanted'

I opened my eyes. Laf was shaking me.

"mon ami. John are you alright?"

we were in the bathroom. How'd i get in here? I sat up. "Yeah I think so." I groaned rubbing my head.

"You walked to the bathroom and you've been here for 30 minutes so i came to check on you and here you are flailing your limbs."

"Sorry" was all I could manage. I should be embarrassed but I can't seem to feel anything right now.

Laf decided not to say anything so I walked out of the bathroom and into the living room where everyone else was. They were all looking at me but I brushed it off. Alex looked up at the staircase and we all mimicked to see the Schuyler sisters and Rachel walking down.

I was sitting alone on the couch and Eliza accompanied me. "The girls brought me up for something, I don't really understand. Angie's really upset." She trailed off. Did she not know about the sti-

the incident. Of course she knew she was her sister. Suddenly, she turned to me and gasped. "Oh my, Jackie your as white as a sheet!" she reached up and caressed my cheek with her thumb. "Are you alright?"

I smiled and reached up to take her hand. "Yeah I just have some bad experiences with stillborn's." She frowned.

"Wha-" she gasped and put a hand over her mouth. Tears started streaming down her face. Eliza's mouth made a strait line and she looked down causing hair to fall in front of her face.

Oh my lin I guess she didn't know. I reached over and gave her one of those giant hugs. Her arms stayed wrapped around herself but her head nuzzled into my neck.

"I-I f-feel s-s-so bad-d for-r no-ot know-knowing." She managed. I lifted a hand and stroked her hair.

After about 15 minutes Eliza sat up and wiped her eyes. "I'm sorry you had to see me like that Jackie" Eliza sighed.

"Don't apologize for feeling. You know you can always talk to me or cry in front of me. It's better that way so that I can help you." She nodded and stood up.

"I'm gonna go make some soup for Angie" I nodded and made my way over to the boys.

"Hey John, Laf told me you were upset so you wanna go out to the bar?" I raised an eyebrow.

"Alexander Hamilton, you wife is devastated, you just lost a member of your family, AND you have 2 new babies to care for. And you- stop me if I'm wrong-want to go out for a drink and leave your sobbing, broken, wife alone with your 2 children?"

Alex blinked and walked away mumbling something like "It was a joke...Jeez man just kidding"

I turned to Laf and Herc and asked, "You two should go out to the bar. I'll stay here."

"NO!!" they both said a little to quickly ate the same time.The two looked at eachother then looked away and- is that blush?!

"C'mon guys, you need a break! Go and get drunk, you deserve it."

Silence

"Okay you guys are creepy so imma go walk away now" I said making my way slowly away from them.

Herc POV

"Maybe we should go...." I said. It's not like Laf remembered ANYTHING I mean how could he? He was a shit-faced mess. So I mean what's the harm? I'll just make sure no one get's drunk this time.

Laf POV

I absolutely remember everything. The thing is that I wanted to do it again so that's why I said, "Yes, yes we should"

This should be fun...
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OoOoooOooO what shall happen next...

Also, I'm almost at 1k reads on this book and I want to do when I do hit 1k imma do a face reveal. Not that anyone cares cuz you've all seen mah face but it's exciting so I will... anyways
Love y'all

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