Mew pov

It's been a while since he went out! Whom is he meeting, when he will return, how long will he be out, is he going out under the sun? Did he have any snacks? He must be hungry. These are all the questions in my head but I don't know whom to ask.

I signed again.

"Baby you are signing for a long time now, care to explain" Mild asked.

"Nothing" I didn't want to make him worry too.

"It's not nothing, I can say by just hearing your reply, what happened?" Boat said Mild nodded with him.

'I know I can't escape them ever'

"Just worried about him" I said.

They looked amazed but Turbo was calm. Wait, did he know something?

"Phi it's just 4 hours they went out"

“So I'm always worried about him and it's not new to me right?” I asked them.

“Okay okay cool down phi, they are out to meet their friend who has a big name all over the country we can say continent too” Turbo said.

“Why didn’t I know about it?” I asked doubting.

“He should have thought that this meeting would worry you!” Turbo said hesitantly.

“Why is he meeting his friend right? No matter how big the name is, maybe he is still his friend so I don't worry much” I said, that made Turbo stare at me.

I know why I look for him and everyone knows about my fear about losing my loved ones and to be worse to my ex girlfriend.

“All have insecurities and I think I have a bit more but don't think that I'm weak” I said doubtingly.

“Who said you are weak baby, you are the strongest one I have ever met, its not easy for anyone to face what you faced in your early life” mild said.

“I hope everything will pass soon” . With that I went near boat, I planned to get close with any one of them, you cannot come near me.

“Wait, mew what are you doing?” Boat jumped back.

“Just try to come near me!” I said slowly.

“Don't risk anything mew, Gulf is not here either,” Boat said.

I took a deep breath and went near him and my fear started to react. All were getting anxious thinking how it will be I can say that just seeing their face, even Turbo was curious.

I went close to boat's hand and tried touching him, but I couldn't. So I stepped back, I don't want to risk anything as I know I can get serious just because of a panic attack.

“I'm sorry, I cant stay close to anyone, my fear didn't change at all, I'm so weak even after so many years”

“Mew, please let it go, take your time” boat said.

“He is right phi, you're trying your best one day you will be alright” Turbo said.

Mild was standing there staring at me. Did I hurt him?

“Sorry Mild, I didn't mean to insult your boyfriend, I'm sorry” I said while my tears were running non-stop.

“Did you see something Boat, he didn't show his fear out and didn't jump back when he was close to you, he has improved a lot” Mild shouted making me flinch back.

“Aww sorry baby, I'm so happy” he came and hugged me.

“Yes mild you are right he didn't fear back immediately he was calm while moving back” Boat was happy and Turbo was watching us with a small smile even though he didn't understand many things that happened.

"Okay phis! I'm hungry and our boyfriends will be back soon so shall we work on our next meal?" Turbo asked.

"Sorry, come we can go and start cooking"

We cooked and as soon as we finished, Gulf and Kaownah came.

"How was the work?" I asked when Gulf came up to me for a hug.

"All good phi! Did you cry?" How did he find it?

"Yes, I just got emotional when I couldn't go near anyone" I said.

"It's okay phi, you will improve soon, I will make sure of it"

"Come let's have food, it's late already" I said and dragged him to the dining table where everyone settled.

"Today everything was made by P'Mew so you can know how good will it be!!" Turbo said and everyone cheered including my own boyfriend who eats what I make everyday.

"Okay let's eat, happy meal everyone"

When we finished our late lunch it was almost evening so we all planned to watch some movie and relax ourselves as all our friends will be leaving tonight.

"What genre movie guys" my boyfriend asked and yes my heart is so ready to take him as my boyfriend. He has done so many things to keep me happy and I can feel myself improving a lot because of him.

"Not romance and horror" I was the first one to reply.

"Why tho?" Kao asked

"Romance is so not real and about horror I want to sleep at night so better not watch horror" my boyfriend chuckled first and it continued with a series of laughter.

"Really baby, are you still scared of ghosts?" Mild asked teasing me.

"Baby or boy or man or old man fear is fear always naa and yes you still call me baby" I pouted only to kiss the pout out from my boyfriend.

"You don't need to be scared phi, I'm always here naa" he said making me smile.

"So okay, how about comedy?? All okay right?" Turbo asked.

"Super Okay" Boat replied and everyone nodded.

It is always fun watching movie with friends and if it's comedy that it's double the joy.

As soon as the movie was over both couples left bidding goodbye.

"Baby what about Papa, he is still not home" I asked after cleaning the whole place like it was before everyone came here. I know it's too much but I like it neat always.

"I was thinking the same honey, let me call him" before he fetched his mobile we heard a horn saying the Papa is home.

"Why are you late home? Got anyone interesting?" My boyfriend asked, seeing Papa's happy face.

"How many times do I say I'm too old to have another relationship but I met my few more friends, we all enjoyed our dinner together so it made me happy" he answered. I can say that it was to be a big quarrel but he didn't start because of me.

"You can talk freely Pa, don't mind me" I said laughing.

"It's not for you son, it's for all of us it's late and I'm sleepy and you both should sleep too as your so-called CEO has an important meeting tomorrow" Papa said glaring at Gulf.

"We better go to sleep, come honey" Gulf pulled me to our bedroom to sleep and face a new day tomorrow.

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To be continued...

I'm so sorry loves. For my delay and taking a huge break 😔

Many things happened in my life now.

I completed my master's and joined a company for work. 9 to 6.30 work without internet around so I couldn't do anything... it took full 2 months to get settled that's to get used to my job and start my work as an author.

I can say that this book is boring and I'm so sorry for that ... I will try my best to make it as much interesting like you all love ... but yes it will be a short book as planned... only 8 to 10 chapters to go ... and I have another book coming 😅

So please do support me ... your votes will be a big encouragement but I'm not expecting much as it's my fault for not updating regularly many should have left ... but I thank everyone who are waiting for 'What If'. It means a lot.

And important thing what will you do if you are in my place? 9 to 6.30 job without internet. New to society, don't know to manage time. Just asking hehe if i have suggestions I can follow too right 😅

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-Hana 💖