I wonder how different my life would've been if I had been medicated when I was younger.
Would I have had more fun to hang out with as I dissociated less.
Would my memory have been better and I would have remembered more of my childhood.
Would I have smiled walking down the football field on homecoming court instead of forcing an uncomfortable face, clenching my jaw under the weight of anxiety.
How would my life be different?
Because I know it would be.