Hmm...... People say that their not trying to be rude or taking anyone's sides.. But their just honest... But.. their too honest.. when they say their honest... Their just hurting you.. honesty is good actually... But not everything you say hurts or does hurts by being honest.. But I will be honest rn.... It hurts... It does... Yes... I may need a psychologist or a therapist (idc if their just the same thing) or something because i talk shit.......I may need help... but I dont think it'll help me anyways... I am hurt... You may not see it or notice it or feel it, but it hurts.. I may get pissed off and  angry.. But inside.. Im hurt... I may go to school happy and energized but..... im hurt and lonely... I feel the urge to cry... I want to cry my lungs out.... I wanna cry like there is no tomorrow... I wanna cry like i will be lonely or have no one by my side to be with me.... I wanna cry like no one understands me... I just wanna cry and scream to the whole world how i hate myself.. My friends might even say "You've changed so much" or "what has happened to you? why are you like this? your not the roselle i know that i've known since elementary.. where is the roselle that ive known?" They might say that the roselle they knew wouldnt say anything like this... yea... I guess ive changed.... a lot... you know.. i've watched this filipino movie called Four Sisters and a wedding.. It was the first or second movie that i held my tears... it really touched me... I was really relatable to the four sisters.. I felt the same things that they felt...