It's been a year and a half has passed and each day you're drifting apart from me. Yes, we're not together physically and it breaks me thinking of what you could be doing but what can I do? You chose that because of the circumstances between us. Everyday waking up without you by side, everyday thinking about you. Are you thinking about me too? Could you remember the holidays with me? Or are you just really busy just to ignore me like that?

Yes, you call me a few times, but is that enough? To keep the bond? To keep the fire between us? To keep the spark? Or is it just me?

Am I looking for too much? Am I needy? Do I burden you? Am I dumb? Am I an idiot? Or just really a stupid hopeless romantic whose a fool who still just believe in a happy ending?

Is it bad to hold on to that thought? Yes, the reality is harsh. I experienced it first hand but what can I do? I still believe in hope, that's what my mother told me "to never lose hope to the one you love" Yes it may be cliché but that is what I grow up with.

My mother was older than my father thus he was still searching for something which I still didn't understand as a kid. Was it a dream? An ambition? A thing that could boost his ego?

Was he not happy with us? Am I not enough? Is my mother not what he wanted? Can't I really not be enough for anyone? All I wanted was a happy life. A simple life. A complete family. Can't I have that?

What have I done in my past life or even the present to deserve this? Am I a bad person? All I ever wanted was to be happy. Is that too much to ask?

(Author's note: Sorry if this chapter is depressing. Or sad. This story depicts a POV of a person that all she ever wants is happiness. Also, I'm new in writing stuff and showing it to other people so I hope I was able to meet your expectations. Please don't forget to vote or comment if you like it.)

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