head empty, only Jeno yoit

anyways, it's getting greener outside here :D I can't wait till summer breaaaaaaak

I'll be free teehee

my parents and older sister are getting the vaccine like next week or smthin for covid, I'm not old enough to get it right now but yea from the sounds of it my parents are hoping we'll all be able to go out and do some things this summer.

we're still gonna be careful where we go and we're still gonna wear masks but hey at least I get to end the full year of not seeing anyone teehee

sounds like I'm going back to school next year too, but my parents said if covid gets worse or mutates real bad over the summer I'm doing online school again

don't mean to get all dark and angsty and shit but if I have to do another year of online school I genuinely don't know if I can mentally make it.

BUT WE'LL CROSS THAT BRIDGE WHEN WE COME TO IT KDFJGKDFJ

did you guys see the chillin' episode tday?

nomin were fucking adorable

little Jeno doing his little dance while he watches jaemin cook and jaemin just "are you excited for the food?" aaaahahahdsjkfgkjdsfgjdhj i love them

lowkey miss like 2018 jaemjen even though I wasn't a fan till 2019, 2018 still holds some of the most iconic nomin/norenmin moments and I am in shambles about it

honestly tho, I even miss 2019 jaemjen, even early 2020- like the dream show, isac, boom era, we were fed so well

THE VALENTINE VIDEO WHERE THEY BAKED CAKES TOGETHER AND WERE LITERALLY ATTACHED TO EACHOTHER BY THE ARM EVEN THOUGH THERE WAS MORE THAN ENOUGH SPACE FOR BOTH OF THEM THEY WERE LIKE "TEEHEE WE'RE GONNA JUST STAND RIGHT NEXT TO EACHOTHER BECAUSE 'SPACE'? WE DONT KNOW HER

anyways yea I miss like openly besties lowkey extremely whipped for each other nomin

I've just realized I've basically just said I miss pre quarantine nomin.

honestly I cant wait till they can start going places for content and such again. i miss random jcc's of them going to wherever tf johnny decided to take them all the time it was so good. don't get me wrong I think nct has done a really good job making content for us despite the pandemic and all but idk I miss it. i miss seeing all the concert and performance moment clips on twitter, I miss when they got to go on a bunch of talk shows and shit. man I just miss a lot of pre covid shit tday ig kldfghlkjdsfhkj

however I don't miss how overworked they were because of all that shit. Like I was talking to my mom about it on Saturday while we were watching chenji vids and shit and she was like "honestly i think this is the mot well rested and taken care of they've all been since we got into them" (meaning since at least 2019) and I realized she was rlly right. I know they say they miss performing and shit and I don't doubt it that's a big part of what their job is, but at the same time its gotta be nice for them to get more time at the dorms or wherever they're staying.(thinking abt how both 127 and wayv switched dorms because of paranormal activity KFJSKD ANYWAYS-) same goes for exo, I really wish we could've gotten more stuff from some of the members before they enlisted and such but like at the same time I just hope they got to rest before leaving ya know? (also thinking abt how chanyeol recorded videos for us that are gonna be released the 27th of every month until he's back help I love him so much god bless him)

but yea I still rlly miss all of the shit we used to get, I don't miss how tired they always looked, I hope they're all doing well, I hope you're all doing well, yea.

on another note a lot of the artists that me, my sister, and my mom follow are keeping us well fed.

twenty one pilots announced an album and a concert, billie eilish announced an album, half alive is back and dropped a single, ajr dropped an album, cosmo sheldrake is dropping something soon, dream has their full album in may, we just got the baekhyun album, there was mention of a xuimin album but idk if its true, exo has an album coming out, I feel like 127 is gonna have an album soon too tbh, I heard bts has a new album(?was it an album or a single?? all I know was I saw butter trending the other day and it had to do with new bts shit so o7 excited for that), we have a Taemin album coming out before he enlists + a taemin concert, I think the boyz is getting ready for or just had a comeback, like damn there's a lot of shit coming out maaan.

anyways I think this is all I have to tell you abt kpop, so now enjoy me talking abt a horror game I found-

so I found this Japanese horror game from 2012 called ib (pronounced like eeb) and its rlly rlly good tbh. its not like super scary rn?? like its mostly just jumpscares and freaky sound design and shit, but its a 2d pixelated puzzle game and its rlly fun so far. I'm only like chapter 3 or 4 rn and yea I really like it. i found it cuz I was randomly listening to bad apple again cuz I just remembered it from my childhood and youtube just started autoplaying some music from ib and i liked it so then I looked into it and yea its fun so far o7

also I've been having a really difficult time getting out of bed the last couple days. I'm starting to lose motivation in everything and its not very poggers. i spent the last three days just laying in bed switching between staring at my phone and my ceiling and skipping all my classes idk man I'm reaching the end of my rope here with this school shit tbh.

my moms birthday was last week on Thursday, but we celebrated on Friday aka Jeno day. she shares a bday with Jeno, I share a bday with Chenle, shits wild. anyways, I gave her my gifts and even though my dad literally bought her the exo elyxion concert DVD and exo the first box and commissioned one of his friends to draw her a super realistic chanyeol photo that looks fucking beautiful, I drew her this and bought some prints of it from a friend for her, and she lost her shit

which like, part of me is glad she rlly liked it lots and even said it was her favorite gift ever, but the other part of me feels bad cuz my dad spent lots of money on that shit for her and she was just like "nO uR gIfT wAs BeTtEr" so I hope she was just lying to make me feel confident abt my art,sbgjdsfghljkdfsgkjsd

but yea we had cake and ice cream and I got a new kind of monster I've never had before called 'khaotic' with a k cuz we're special and it was rlly good, I also got to take a shot of coke mixed with 5 hour energy, mixed with a little bit of monster and the tiniest bit of vanilla ice cream- it was interesting i'll say that.

my mom says she's excited for me to be able to drink with them cuz she wants to be able to have shots with me while my dad is on his phone messaging friend on Friday's lmao. we've been having some wild kpop fridays recently skdjhgkjh they've been fun tho, lots of baekhyun, lots of nct 127, its been nice.

OOO YEA HYPED AS HELL FOR HOTSAUCE TOO ITS GONNA BE SO GOOD I CAN ALREADY TELLLL

I'm so excited sdj;ahdfkj huminuh 

theres a song on the album called 3, 2, 1 and I'm wondering if it'll relate to 1 2 3 at all but we'll just have to see dskjfhdlfgjhldskfgjh

okay, I had a lot to say, but I think imma leave this here, I just felt like talking a lot tday dfgjkdsfhsh ily you're so swag farewell o7