A friend of mine wanted this to be posted somewhere, so here you go

Perfection is a killer

I thought I was happy
When I look at myself in the mirror i see the truth they hide from me
A stupid, ugly, monster
the truth I was trying to forget

I know what they say
What they think behind my back
I know they will hate me even more when they hear me talk
I wish I was happier
I’m so lonely
And No one will understand my pain and mistakes
So I watch them walk past me not bothering  to help.
What a cruel world we live in

I was left alone my entire life and I’m still not used to it, but maybe it’s for the best
I can’t see any light so what’s the point
No one likes my disgusting personality or my appearance
Maybe that’s the reason I’m so hard to hold on too
I’ve been waiting to finally feel special, happier, loved
But I know i don’t deserve it
I’m too scared to try
I’m a coward, another reason people hate me

Sometimes i wish people would disappear, but I’ll be lonelier
Will people be happier without me, because I’m tired of trying to satisfy them.
“Who cares?” They say to support me
I do
Being a perfectionist kills you
Everything I do is for you
I tried to be more charming, intelligent, special, your ideal desire

I wish I could be stronger
But I’m stuck in the eyes of others
What do u want from me
I have nothing and I am nothing
The pain is numb at this point

Bby I'm always here if you wanna talk. In my eyes you are so smart and talented, you make amazing art and are one of like four friends I have anymore. You mean the world to me. As your mother/wife/daughter (its confusing) and just flat out as your friend I want you to know you mean the world. If you just left one day I dont know what I would do with myself. We need you. We need your humor, we need your laughter, we need your memes and everything else. I hope that somehow, someone, somewhere soon can help you realize your true worth even if I can't. Please never forget how important you are. Ever.
❤💛💚💙💜