I told my parents about how I'm quitting volleyball and they like try and keep forcing it on me but to be honest I just don't find fun in it anymore. But my mom paid for like this volleyball camp and shit like that I mean I guess I'll do that I don't want her to lose the money she paid for that for nothing so I'll do that. But I just played volleyball for fun but my mom and dad want me to go into this big career for volleyball and I feel like they haven't even listened to me when I had told them what I wanted to do as a career I want to do music like seriously I don't know how they haven't gotten the hint or the fact that I fucking told them what I want to be. And what really pisses me off is when I was telling my mom how I didn't find fun in it anymore and she's like "so this years volleyball season you didn't have fun?" And I said "no, just towards the end of the season I got really bored and I just didn't find fun in it" then she goes and blames it on the fucking medication I was on "well you were on the medication around that time so it might've been just that" LIKE ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?!? You don't understand she blames everything on the medication: me in the hospital, why I was in the hospital, not finding fun in volleyball. Like HAVE YOU EVER WONDERED I JUST FELT LIKE THAT?!?!? Is she even aware I feel pain and sadness without a fucking medication. Is she even aware I feel things? I had been playing volleyball for 6 years I just got bored that's normal for something you do all the time. I mean I played it all year round no breaks. I just want to stop and she doesn't even care she thinks that this is what I wanted to do. No I just did it for fun and I happened to be kind of good at it.