Cry's POV

Fuck. The mess we've made... God it sucks. Our whole living situation back at the school has changed completely. I haven't talked to Pewds, and he hasn't talked to me. Why did I say I didn't want him? Of course I fucking did. I just, situations like those... I can't handle them. The pressure, and the people, and the staring and the stress, I thought I was going to breakdown.

Now, I share a room with Snake and Pewds shares with Jund. I would've shared with Minx, but that would require Red sharing with Ken, since neither me or Pewds wanted to share with, simply because of how awkward it would be. But, Russ didn't feel comfortable with Red sharing with Ken, and she said she didn't feel comfortable either. So, the only person left to room with Ken would be Minx. So they were rooming, and I couldn't share with Russ because that would require Red sharing with a guy. So, it was either Jund or Snake. I picked Snake, knowing he probably wouldn't want to talk with me about all the shit that was going on. The only person I wanted to talk to was Minx, and even then I didn't talk with her much anymore.

Now, sharing with Snake is fine and dandy, until Jund comes into the room, and they are either making out or god knows what. Let me just say, they are very vocal. So, I have to move rooms of course. So, I could go into Pewds room. Haha nope. Or I could go into Minx and Ken's room, where I would be stared at all night, and bothered by Minx to talk about it. Or, I could go into Russ and Red's room, where... They lock the fucking door. Or, when Snake goes into Jund's room, it's all fine. It's like: Ahh. Finally a peaceful night in my own room- *sigh* hello Minx.

Not to mention, that my attacks have gotten more frequent, much worse, and much harder to calm down from. Then, when someone tries to touch me I freak out even more and yeah....

Why did I say for him to go with Marzia! Why am I stubborn! Why am I such an asshole.

I groaned, shoving my face into my pillow. It smelled like salt water from the times I've cried my eyes out into it. I didn't have any tears left to cry though, or anything to cry about for that matter.

I sit up groggily, when I hear the door open, then close right away. I look over to see Snake, who was slightly blurred since my glasses were crooked. I fixed them, then looked over at Snake.

He sighed loudly, and walked over to my bed, sitting down on it. "Cry, I know everyone has told you to leave your room once in awhile, but in case you were deciding to do so today, don't," he said in a deep voice. I still wondered how his voice was so deep, even though he was my age. Then again, I can make my voice deep, but Snake's is naturally like that.

"What? Why not," I asked.

"Just don't. I'll bring you food okay? Are you hungry," he asked. Now I was seriously worried. He was trying to comfort me, Snake never really does that. Of course he has seemed worried, but he never really said everything. He patted my shoulder comfortingly, then got up, walking towards the door. "I'll just get you left over pizza. We should play some video games later. I got this-"

"Snake... What the fuck is going on," I asked suspiciously. His eyes darted from mine, to his hands, to all

Around the room.

"Uh... Nothing. N-nothing. I'll go get the pizza and-" okay. Something was up. He never stutters, or is unsure about what to say.

I got up and walked towards the door. Snake stood in front of it, blocking my way. "Cry, this is for your own good."

"Let me through," I said stubbornly, reaching for the doorknob. He grabbed my wrist, gripping it tightly.

"Cry, if you go out there, and have a panic attack or whatever, I won't be able to snap you out of it. Everybody is gone except for Pewds and- never mind. Let's just stay in here and-" he stopped when I started trying to wriggle out of his grasp.

"Let-me- go-Snake," I growl.

"Cry, you know you can't beat me. If I tell you what is out there, you promise you won't go out," he sighed. I nodded, then took my hand that he was holding and crossed my fingers behind my back.

"Pewds... Has someone over..." He muttered. My eyes widened. He let go of my wrist, and walked over to the Xbox.

"I-I c-crossed my f-fingers," I whispered.

He looked over at me," CRY! DONT YOU DA-"

It was too late. I ripped open the door and ran out into the main room. I almost died at what I saw. It was like I was shot in the stomach with a bullet. It was killing me, slowly, but surely, and fucking painfully.I whimpered, and covered my mouth. I completely screwed up.

There on the couch, was my swede, with another girl. They were kissing, like making out. And the other girl... Was Marzia.

I felt two strong arms wrap around me from behind and pull me backwards. We didn't stop until we were in my room. He closed the door behind us and just stared at me. Snake, being snake, looked confused, unsure of what to do. He wasn't really the comforting type.

He opened his mouth to say something, but closed it quickly. Probably seeing the tears coming from my eyes. "I'll call Ken or Minx or someone," he said, walking out of the room.

I couldn't hold it in, I jumped into my bed and pushed my face into my pillow. The tears, the reason to cry, it came back. I sobbed loudly and never ending into my pillow.

I only stopped when I heard a deep voice," Pewds. Make her leave, or leave with her."

"What? Why," I heard the Swedish voice ask.

"We don't need to see you making out in the middle of your dorm," his deep voice rang.

"Oh what? Like you and Jund? C'mon nobody is here," he replied to snake, you could hear the smart ass in his tone.

"Wait. Snake your gay," I heard a high pitched voice say suddenly, obviously Marzia. Oh no...

There was silence, before I heard Pewds say quietly," Oh shit. Man in sorry I didn't mean-"

"Get the fuck out."

"Wait what," Pewds asked.

"GET THE FUCK OUT," he yelled.

"Hey! I live here, you can't tell me to leave," Pewds shouted.

"Fine. Then make her leave. I need to talk to you," Snake replied, a bit calmer, but still very angry.

There was silence for a bit, before I heard the door open and close, then Snake's voice." You know perfectly well why you shouldn't be doing that here." His voice was almost a whisper. It was getting hard to hear.

I got up from my bed, and opened the bedroom door quietly, and snuck out into the hallway.

"I know... I know," Pewds sounded sad now. I must've missed a part of the conversation.

"Listen, trust me when I say that both of you fucked up, badly. You are a complete idiot for thinking he meant it. He regrets it, and I know you regret it," he sighed.

"Yeah... But I doubt he will admit it," Pewds whispered.

"Yeah... That parts going to be difficult. You just gotta be persistent, and don't believe some of the shit he says. Take my word for it that he can't get over you, and won't any time soon," Snake said. I realized how much snake was talking. He was generally concerned, or maybe he just wanted to share a room with Jund again. No, snake isn't like that. He's just not really the touchy comforting type... Except with Jund.

"Maybe I should go talk with him," he said quietly.

"He might be asleep, crying your eyes out can do that too you, but you can go check," Snake sighed. I quickly hopped up and ran back into my room.

I jumped on my bed and pushed my face onto the pillow, pretending to be asleep. I wasn't ready to talk to Pewds, not yet, not now.

I heard the door creak open, and the lovely Swedish voice fill the air," Cry?" I made my breathing slow down, to look like I was sleeping.

"Cry, I'm sorry. I... I just can't forget about you no matter how hard I try," he whispered soothingly.

I groaned, and sat up groggily, pretending to just be waking up. "P-Pewds," I asked.

"Hey, how are you doing," he asked.

I was about to reply: ok, but then I remembered I was supposed to pretend I didn't hear that conversation.

"N-not t-to well, frie-... Pewds," I finished. His face got sad, he looked upset.

"Oh, listen I'm sorry about this," he said slowly.

"Oh. I'm sure you are," I said sarcastically, moving away from his grasp, despite wanting to be in it so badly.

"Cry, we need to talk... And I think maybe we should go out sometime and just-"

"Marzia might be a little upset, considering you were shoving your tongue down her throat a bit ago," I said bitterly. I was actually still a little upset about that, she shouldn't be touching him like that, I should be.

"I know, I am sorry. Can't we just go and talk, at a restaurant or something," he asked, almost pleading.

I then heard voices from outside my room. One of them I picked out easily, Ken. I smiled to myself internally. "How about, You and Marzia, with me and Ken! That way we can "talk," I suggested.

"I can't really talk about this in front f Marzia, and Ken, Really cry? Are you trying to make me jealous," he asked.

"What no? Are you jealous? I mean, Ken is pretty cute. Plus, shouldn't Marzia know that you kissed your used to be best friend," I said innocently, whilst on the inside I was smirking.

His face fell," Used to be?"

"Well, I mean, you haven't attempted to talk to me in what? A month? Plus, after all this, being friends would be awkard," I said simply.

I heard a knock at the door, then a British voice following it," Cry? It's Ken and I, can we come in?"

"Date. Next week? Friday. Yeah come on in guys," I shouted.

Pewds got up, and walked out the door, past Ken and Minx. "Oh Cry, what did you do," she asked.

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Okay! Chapter 6... WOW! Surprise, surprise. I think you guys will like the date scene, and chapter 8 May or may not be a shock, and you may or may not hate me. But... Yeah. Okay, love you lovelias🌺!!! Also, wanted to let you know... I AM GONNA START A YOUTUBE CHANNEL. You guys can hear my voice and shit like that! It will come probably next January? Yeah... Yeah.... Okay byyyyeeee 👊