The meeting with Tushar and family was winded up pretty soon because Mr. Tushar Busy Arora had a meeting lined up already. It wasn't like they had come to see me like people usually do before a marriage is fixed up. It was just a casual lunch for which I HAD to wear a sari because.. MOM. My sister used to taunt mom by saying that she was born with the powers to emotional blackmail someone. Well to be honest, she was because no one could escape her emotional torture and tears and one always ended up falling in the trap.
Anyways, the lunch went pretty good for everyone but me. "Niti beta kahan ghum ho aaj?" "Niti beta tabyat theek hai na?" "Niti beta dhyaan kahan hai?" "Niti beta.. This.. Niti beta.. That" ugh! Inside my head I was like "God! Can you please just let your 'Niti beta' think what do to with that monster upstairs!" All I had on my mind was him, like always. I swear I wanted to kill him right there! Why did he come back!? Wasn't my life hell already that he had to come and add more 'spark' to it!

Well after the 'bye-bye' session of half an hour finally his parents left. I wasn't a bit interested in this arrangement mom had made but just for my baby and my family, I had agreed. But right now there was something more important than this wedding mess. I immediately wanted to rush back to my room when my mother stopped me in the hall and asked me to sit with her and dad. Great timings right? I couldn't wait anymore, I was getting restless with every passing second.

"Maa.. Usko rest karne do please.. She might be tired now." For the first time since I had returned back my sister did something good.
That very second I dashed towards my room.

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"Just leave. Now." I entered my room, banged the door shut and leaned against the door panting like a wild dog.
I had locked my door up before I went downstairs so that trouble couldn't escape from where I left it. He lounged on bed lazily watching TV. This man, after doing what he did, still had the audacity to play cool?

"Shut it off! Get off my bed and get your ass moving right now!" I locked the door of my room again and went yelled at his annoying face.

"What took you so long? I was missing you." He said getting off the bed and walking in my direction. I stepped backwards as I saw approaching me and my head hit the door I had just locked. He came forward and pinned me against the door leaving just a little teeny bit of space between us, from which even the air found it difficult to pass.

"Can you get anymore shameless here Mr. Parth Samthaan?" I gritted my teeth as his face came closer to mine.
"I love you Niti." Hearing that I clenched my fists to punch his guts but before I could do anything his face had covered the teeny gap in between and his lips were placed on mine. My eyes widened as he answered my question. I immediately pushed him with all the strength inside me and he was moved away.

"How dare you!?" I screamed in the loudest voice that I could not caring about who might hear me. But no one could have really heard even that because the volume of my television was turned up so high.

"Niti I know what I've done and I know that you're angry at me but Niti, I love you and I'm sorry. I'm really sorry for whatever I had done earlier." No matter how true that sounded I was blinded by the hatred for him inside me, which just grew a little more with what he did.

"NO! No Mr. Parth Samthaan you don't know what you've done! You don't know anything! I'm not angry at you Parth, that time passed way before! You've not just hurt me Parth, you've broken me bit by bit! And I'm broken way beyond repair so YOU leave right now! Get away from my sight!" I was firm in what I said. "I don't even feel the right to be angry with you, all I feel for you is hatred Parth. Inside me, there's nothing left for you! Why are you back?" The firmness which I faked couldn't stay for long. I could feel myself shiver with each word I uttered. I didn't know whether or not I meant any of it but I just said what my head was filled up with. There was no way my heart could stop me.

"For you. For our baby." He looked at me with those beautiful eyes, I could have seen every bit of love for me in them if I wasn't blinded by the disgust inside me, for him.

"You lost the right to call MY baby as yours the night you walked out on me." I said as a tear dropped from my eye. I couldn't have fallen weak at that moment but I had no control over my emotions. Sometimes it was my brain in power and sometimes it was my heart. Nothing seemed to be in control anymore.

"Niti please, I know I've hurt you and I know.." He came closer to me and cupped my face as he saw me getting weak. "..I know that right now you hate me, but that's what's in your head. I know what your heart feels, I know what you feel!" I didn't push him away this time but I didn't give in either.

"Parth, me and my baby, we don't need you anymore. Please just go away. Please!" I pleaded him as tears escaped my eyes once again and I fell on the ground crying.

"Niti, don't do this. Don't do this to you, don't do this to me, to us, to OUR baby! Just don't.." He wiped the tears with his thumb. "Just give me once chance, just one and I promise I'll make everything okay.. I will make US okay. Just trust me once again.." He looked into my eyes and it felt so convincing but he couldn't get away with this so easy.

"No. You don't deserve a chance! You don't deserve love Parth. I was a fool to hold on for so long when you had started pushing me away already! I was wrong to hope that I can make it all better, that I can bring back the 'us' we had lost in those few bad days but no, I failed. You failed me." I removed his hands touching my face and got up on my feet wiping off the tears.

"Niti, I am.."

"Your sorry won't do Parth. Your sorry won't do for the pain you've caused me. None of your actions can be justified. None." I didn't have the strength to scream or shout on him, I had been losing all my strength as days passed.

"I am not saying it is, I know what I did was terrible. I know that I left you when I was the only one you needed! I know I hurt you in the most pathetic way! I know that I should not be forgiven for this but I have still come here, to you, to ask for forgiveness because I know that you love me as much as I love you and I know these few days without me were equally painful for you as they were for me." I stood there listening to what he had to say. "But Niti, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for every moment that you suffered because of me. I'm sorry for those days when I wasn't there for you, for those nights when you needed my arms to sleep in and I didn't bother, for those harsh words that I said to you, for that one night when I walked out on you, I'm sorry." A tear wanted to drop out of my eyes but I controlled.

"Its over Parth. Its all over now. The day you walked out on me, you ended everything and today I will end it. ITS OVER." I said stopping my tears back.

He came close and extended his arms and clasped my waist pulling me close to him once again. "Its not over till its over, Nan-di-ni." He grinned from the corner of his mouth. That was one dialogue Manik had said to Nandini when he found her losing all her hopes. The mention of Nandini brought back all the sweet memories of the months I had spent there with him. Some special days of my life.

"Parth, its over. I'm getting married." I told him the reality of our lives. My tears flowing again. In the past 10 minutes I had fallen weak and strong and weak again, it had become a routine now.

"I know, to me. Soon." He brought his mouth near my ears and whispered in them.

"Parth do you think all of this.. Ye sab.. Its a joke? I'M GETTING MARRIED PARTH SAMTHAAN and that guy is NOT YOU." Maybe now my words hit the right point, his brain. He widened his eyes in shock and his grip on waist loosened. "Everything isn't a joke. Things have changed for real here Parth. I don't need you in my life. You left me when I needed you the most. You left me all alone in that empty house. I don't care whether you meant what you said or didn't, all I care is that you said it. How could you say all of that Parth? Just how? Didn't you trust me at all? Bus jo mann mein aaya bol diya! Ye bhi nahi socha ki Niti ko kaisa lagega, just it was all about you right? Your anger, your trust,your love, YOU!" I took out all that I had been keeping inside. I wanted to say this, I needed to say this.

"You're getting married..?" Like seriously. I had just said much more important things to him and that's is all that went inside that coconut head!? He literally knew how to annoy me.

"Parth! I need answers! Now that you're here, I need answers for all your unjustifiable actions."

"You're not getting married to anyone else but me!" He was still in a state of shock, his brain got hanged on those words. I wanted to slap him there and throw him off my balcony!

"Who is that guy? Doesn't he know you love me? How can he marry you? How can you marry him! What is wrong with you? You have my baby! MY baby. You are not marrying anyone else but me!" He pulled me close tightening his grip on my arms, his eyes filled with anger, brain filled with questions.

"Parth, you're hurting me, again." His grip on my shoulders caused me pain. He immediately left me and looked into my eyes with those intense eyes of his. "I've hurt my parents a lot already. Dad doesn't get know about my condition but mom does. She's hurt because I broke her trust." I distanced myself away from him and walked towards my bed and sat down on the edge. "She trusted me even though I eloped from home two years back. Parth, I'm pregnant! I'm pregnant at 21! What worse could happen? I'll tell you. The worst had happened already, the father of my child, You, left me. You walked out on me saying 'I don't have anything to do with this baby'!" I looked up to meet his eyes which were fixed on me as I spoke. "Its because of you that I am in this fix now. Its because you left me with no choice Parth. How could you walk out on me? Haan? Kaise chale gaye tum?" I buried my head in my hands placing my elbows on my laps and starting sobbing. "Socha bhi nahi mere baare mein ek baar? Bus chale gaye.. You said you'll leave the house next morning and you left. Ek baar bhi call nahi kiya, try nahi kiya poochne ka whether I am okay or not, whether your baby is fine or not? Kyun?" I cried harder as I remembered that night and those painful days I had lived without him.

"Oh, baby" he came and sat in front of me on the floor and placed his hand on my cheeks once again. "I know I've done blunders, I know how wrong I was but I have come to make it all right again. Just let me..please." His eyes met mine and I knew if I kept looking into those, he'd get me giving in. But I couldn't forgive him yet, I couldn't let him get away from the sufferings that I went through. Not yet, not so easily.

"I can no more do this. I cannot hurt my mother again. She has fixed me up with someone and it is for my betterment." He didn't know who that 'someone' was yet or else he would have ran for his neck. But I had to let him know. "Maybe this was all we could have, maybe this was what we had to be like, maybe this is how we'll be now... Maybe whatever that happened to us meant to happen that way... Maybe we weren't meant to be." Another tear escaped my eyes and then it was the last.

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Update update! I managed two, one is here.. One would be published shortly!
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