*A/N: wow poor oli, I just realized this is my second story that has Oliver getting hurt.. Sorry oli .-. I bet you all are upset at me, right? well don't say I didn't warn you! I did on the last line of chapter 6 *

---WARNING: in the first part of this story kellin was a little low because of words said to him at home, and in this chapter all those feelings and more are pushed at him due to mixed emotions and he is slowly getting depressed and so this might be triggering--- 

*KELLIN POV*

Out of no where Someone puts their hands over my mouth and eyes,it isn't Oliver this time.i scream into the hand but the sound is muffled so I give up. I'm being dragged away from the room because I hear the nose less and less. hayley's voice is fading away from me.

"dude it's me" tony...why is he. he takes his hands off of me. we are outside at the back of Jaime's house, I shiver at the coldness.

"want my jacket?" tony asks

"no" I state and I look around, that black jacket,its oliver's! I pick it up and smile when i see 'oliver' written on the size tag,oh I love his parents, I've only said hi to them but they seem so nice. I slip his jacket on and feel a sudden warmth.

"why did you take me out?" I ask and tony rocks back and forth on his heels and toes of his foot.

"so we can talk,its too loud in there to talk"

"what do you want to talk about?"

"anything! we never talk anymore,i miss you man" there's something he isn't saying to me. I see red flashing lights coming from the front of the building and siren noses

"cops? there isn't music"I question and I see tony look at me wide eyed.

"that isn't the cops" he says running to the front, I slowly follow him and I see a small crowd of people come out to watch this.

"who got hurt?" I ask and tony says

"no one,this wasn't supposed to happen!" through gridded teeth.

"Well whatever happened, happened, who got hurt? what happened? what was post to happen?" I ask frantically is Vic hurt? is Oliver hurt? I wrap oliver's jacket tighter against me as I wait to see who is coming out and going into the ambulance.

"Is Vic okay?" I ask as calm as I can

"yes,he is fine" tony says and I relax a little

"oliver?" I ask quietly and before tony can answer we hear everyone rushing to get a better view and that's when I see Oliver on a gurney, his cheek with a light Cut and some blood.

"I didn't think vampires could-" I start before getting cut off

"we aren't fully dead kellin, we have some blood in us" tony says and I feel tears start coming down. he looks so lifeless, i drop to the ground in tears and i start screaming, i get back up and am about to run to him until i feel tony pull me back.

"hes my friend let me go!" i scream

"and im also your friend and i will not let you go" he says and i give up trying.

"hes alive right?" no answer.

"tell me hes alive!" i yell again, no answer. tony lets go of me. and in that moment i run up to one of the parametics.

"hes going to be okay right?" i ask and he looks at me and gives me a look full of sadness.

"he has a slight pulse,we will do whatever we can" hes a vampire maybe slight pulse will be enough. i look back at the man and notice his teeth.

"small pluse isnt normal for vampires?" i whisper and a tear goes down his face.

"im sorry kid,it isnt normal,our pulse is less,correct,but mr.sykes here has a slim chance,you could stay the night at the hospital but it could be too late" and with that i jump in the ambulence with oliver. and i sit there at his side praying for movemnt,praying for his eyes to just open. he has to be there. hes still in his body. he has to open his eyes at some point,right? he cant be gone. he just cant. my phone rings and i turn it on

"kellin where are you? tony said you ran away"

"vic,i'll see you tomorrow"

"where are you?"

"im fine"

"where..kellin where are you?"

"im going to my aunts house i need to see her"

"now? kellin are you lying to me?"

"im not lying,she told me to visit her tomorrow but i just i had to go see her now"

"so you didnt hear what happened to oliver?" my eyes flicker to the body in front of me

"no" i lie and theres a silence. "did you hurt him?" i ask braking the silence

"no"

"vic?"

"no"

"victor?"

"yes" silence vic just admited to hurting oliver. "now tell me,are you really going to your aunts house?" he adds

"no"

"then where are you?"

"at the hospital"

"with oliver?"

"yes,vic he is one of my friends and he has no one here for him right now, we will talk about this all tonight or tomorrow when i get home"

"fine,i love you" it takes me forever to answer but i finally end the call wtih those four words

"i love you to" but in reality i dont know who i love anymore. my emotions are such a mess, i hate vic, i love vic, i like oliver, im annoyed with vic, im scared for oliver, and between all of that the sadness i had is still there. sadness is somthing that will never leave me.

--- ive been sitting in this waiting room for two hour, waiting for someone to tell me if he is okay,his parents are here next to me, treating me like im a family friend, comforting me like they were ready for this day and i wasnt. they are sure hes going to die, but i still have hope. i bet right now vic is still at that party having a great time,no oliver to hate,no boy friend there to protect. this isnt how life goes, as soon as happiness finds me,somthing fucks it up, my happiness was victor fuentes but i dont know anymore, what he has done to oliver hit me in the heart, but yet this is my fault,isnt it? i let oliver fall in love with me and im letting myself get closer to him,which is pulling me slowly away from vic. in the end,i should be alone, noone should ever have to love me. im not the one for anyone.i dont know how im still here, alive for any matter, i was gong to die so long ago,but i didnt,but i should've.

"excuse me" i say to mr and mrs sykes and i zip oliver's hoodie thats around me and i make my way down the hallway and i walk slowly down the stairs, its raining now, i can hear the rain drops hitting the ground as i walk closer and closer to the door. i open it and i step outside and tons of rain drops hit me making my hair almost fully wet, i put the hod up and i start walking down the sidewalk, mr and mrs.fuentes wont be home until sunday night,so as far as i know im alone here on the fuentes's door step. i sit down and i light a ciggaret. im alone in silence for at least an hour, just enjotying being alone with no sounds but the rain.

        "you are home" vic says as he sits next to me.

"ive been here" i mumble

"how long?"

"an hour"

"i guess you want me to talk, about,oliver" i dont answer "i didnt do much, out of anger i slapped him, a few times, and he let me,i should've stopped once i realized he wasnt going to fight back,kellin you have to understand where im coming from"

"hes my friend vic,nothing more, you didnt have to beat him up for being my friend"

"he kissed you,and you let him!" 

"im sorry im fucked up" i say softly as i start crying and i feel vic hold me close.

"im sorry to kells"

 "im going to walk,i just i need to be alone" i say and i get out of his lose grip and with that i go for a walk,he doesnt even bother following me.

        its 4AM, while vic is asleep,im here awake in the corner of his room,balling my eyes out.  i grab my stuff and i rush to my house, i open the door, to a passed out peter on the couch and a note on the counter. 'dear kellin, im sorry i didnt get to say a final goodbye, i've decided to leave this state,im with your aunt...in italy...by the time you read this, i will already be gone,but you have your aunts number, hope to see you around' i rip up the note and i throw it away. so much for some parent, she left me with this high as hell idiot. i wouldnt be surprised if he just never woke up. i go into my room and i lock the door and i throw all my stuff to the ground. maybe i'll just end all of my emotions today. i'll be gone forever,i'll join oliver, if he is in fact, dead.