I regret the choice that I have made. I should have just closed down my computer when I had a chance... but didn't... a-and I STILL don't know why.

But... uh... here is how it went.

So, after having concern for the situation between Green Ryan and Blue Ryan, I wanted to figure out the source of the situation which was clearly coming from Blue Ryan.

What has been seriously going on?

I went on his channel... and... the very first video was black with thin, colored streaks were on it. As though it was a defective computer screen itself and the titles to them were just non-sensical.

This wasn't the only video that I found that was like this. In fact, as time went along, it seemed to have gotten worse or seemed to have been building up to this point. Which has ended two weeks ago.

I didn't want to click on anyone of them just because... to be honest, I was scared.  I didn't have a clue of what was going on, just only hoping this was a joke or a big project.

Anyways, I wanted to go back to the channel "8-bitgaming" just because I wanted to know the particular conversation that they were talking about. If I could even find it.

I clicked on their channel. I had to give myself a moment to breathe.

'Focus.' I told myself silently in my head. Then after, I started to go backwards on their videos, seeing if I could find a clue to what has been going on.

Thankfully I'm not working tomorrow so it'll give me time to work on this a little more.

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It's 7:54 pm, I've been working on this for 2 to 3 hours, trying to dissect their words, their tone toward each other, and how they react to different things... What if Blue Ryan was just sick and it was a misunderstanding... it wouldn't explain why they haven't been uploading for so long or haven't necessarily said anything by the looks of it... especially what I saw on Blue Ryan's channel... yeah that's definitely off the list.

I also thought of this as 'being a project of some sort' coming back to me, which still could be a thing. Maybe they're just waiting for an opportune time to show their project and I'm just overthinking this and wasting my time.

I went back to Blue Ryan's channel...

Just looking at the home screen still made me feel uneasy.

It kind of confused me though, since I should be used to this sort of shpeel because of Dark and Anti. If that is where it's heading.

I decided to...

Click back off again, because can't even try to muster up the courage to click one of the videos, so instead I went to Green Ryan's channel.

My heart dropped and my breathing got heavy. All his videos are gone except for a few that were labeled "help." This seriously can not be real.

I realize after a while I was breaching a panic attack and I had to control my breathing back to normal. This has got to be the project they're making, but why would they leave their fans hanging high and dry, without a word about what is going on? Has to be either they're being jerks and not wanting to say anything or something else is going on that we don't know about. I'm just hoping it's not the other option.

I take a deep breath and click the earliest one on the channel. All of them tend to be atleast 2 to 3 minutes long so it can't be that bad.

Of course, you guessed it, I was wrong. Where the hell was he? I can't tell because it's too dark but he seems to be in a park or some kind of forest.

I wait for a little bit, for he was running deeper into, what I think I can tell, is a forest. Then stops.

He looked behind him. He was looking for something. Something that was chasing him beforehand? What was chasing him?

He turned back around and went back to running. I had to pause the video there because, so far, I didn't see or hear anything at the moment were he was looking behind him.

I searched long and hard in the shadows, whilst listening to any subtleties that may have occured. I even turned up the brightness and the audio of my computer just so I could get a better insight of everything.

Nothing.

Just the sound of the wind on trees and him breathing heavily while he's looking around frantically. So I let the rest of the video continue.

He kept getting deeper into the forest and...

The video cuts off.

So I check the other videos.

The next one was him hiding in a bush or a fallen tree, still hard to see in the darkness.

We were back to 'The Waiting Game' again as he frantically looked around and tried to steady his breathing.

It's been about a good minute or so and not much has happened other then a sigh of relief. Then it ends.

'Just a couple more.'

I clicked on the next one gave a little more insight of what's has been going on.

"So, uh- ugh this is going to sound ridiculously crazy, but I don't know what's been going on with my friend, Ryan. He's been acting way more stranger then he has been, a-and I've tried to snap him out of it, but...

I-I-I knew something was off but he wouldn't say anything about it, he would just drift off and come back to reality just to say 'everything is fine' and make an excuse at the end of it. Then leave, without any other context!-"

He covered his mouth. Yeah, that was a bit too loud. He's still looking around to see if he has been caught yet, but nothing in sight.

He took another sigh.

I would have felt the same way if my friend did this to me, poor Green Ryan.

"I'll talk a little bit more when I have a chance. I think he's here but I rather not risk it."

And that is where that video ends. This is no longer an uneasy feeling, this was turning into fear and despair.

My hands were shaking a bit, but I wanted to get through these last couple of videos so I took another deep breath.

The next one was him getting out of the forest.

"I'm pretty sure I saw him in the forest looking for me, so I waited for the opportune to leave, I'll get back when I can."

It cuts to him being in his apartment (don't @ me if I get it wrong, I don't watch him that much)

He places the camera down were we could see him.

I don't care if he is acting or not, I have never seen him in such a state. He's trying so hard to process what is going on.

He continues were left off on the last video.

"So to continue to what I talked about, he hasn't been himself at all and...

He wouldn't let me know about anything..."

He was getting emotional and there was nothing that could help him.

He just sat there for a moment, trying to collect himself.

He then stood up and turned off the camera and that is where that ended.

This is the final video. I didn't even think about this time, I just went for it.

It looks like the camera turned on by itself. I was hoping Green Ryan turned it on just to get some of this off of his chest a little bit more, but that wasn't the case. Immediately the lights went out, a scream and I'm hoping that wasn't Green Ryan, and then dead silence.

It stayed that way for what felt like an eternity. Then a voice whispered in a horrifying way said.

"Perfect"

I left the video straight after. A fight or flight response kicked in, subconsciously making me click back to Blue Ryan's channel.

'I don't want to continue this anymore.'

I shrieked and jumped out of my skin. Only to recognize that it was phone alarm going off. I rubbed my face, closed my computer and went to turn off my phone. What a day, but I know I won't be tired tonight after what has been scorched into my mind.

'I wish I had never gone down this rabbit hole.'