Recently I've been getting dreams about apologizing to my ex-best friend... well, it hasn't really been many, it's just been 2 so far. I'm considering apologizing, but I'm afraid I'll just screw up and wreck things even more. I know she hates me, and I honestly understand why. Honestly, I hate me too. I truly want to apologize, but I know she probably won't even want to listen to me because of what I've done in the past. I've changed quite a bit, but I doubt that she knows that. I used to be extremely emotional, impulsive, naïve, clueless, unstable, and selfish. I think I've managed to change myself positively at least a little. Also, I'm thankfully now on medication that actually works. I've been able to let go of my senseless anger and let go. So... what do you guys think? Do you think I should do what I did in my dreams? Or should I juat let go and forget?

If you read this entire thing, thank you.

(3:08 PM 7/26/19)