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I only drink to get drunk.
I felt I stepped into quick sand &
watched how fast my life sunk.

All you do is destroy, all that was built.
For you, I gave up me &
all those parts of myself, I killed.

Who am I now? What will I become?
I ask myself these questions until the
lonely begins to meet the numb.

My whole life has been a shipwreck.
My mental stability's always tested.
I fight, I scream, my mind never feels rested.

Sitting silently most days,
the only thing to break
through the silence is music.
Trying to figure out how in my life
I've become just basic.

A lie is a lie and a cheat is a cheat.
There's not a moment where those two never meet.
You tried to hide all those within my crazy.
I don't even like who I've been lately

You drilled negative into my head
Until I felt worthless, like I was better off dead.
You thought you broke me that I had been beat.
I felt so cowardly within all my defeat.

I may have left, but you still won.
Too many times I cried looking at that gun.
Yet, I walked away even with all that I know
I live day to day still putting on a show.

But eventually the night turns into day.
And I hope for something to show me the way.

Not one of my finest moments,
but I made it through to a much lesser hell.
So, there is that...