I pull my new baseball cap over my freshly dyed bleach blonde hair. I turn to the mirror and straighten out my button up T-shirt with little flower designs on it. My beautiful husband sneaks up from behind and wraps his arms around my fat waist, "you look stunning 'Trick" he lies tells me. I fumble with my wedding band and slip my glasses on. "I don't but thanks" I mumble and see him frown. "You look do fucking stunning, if we weren't going to dinner I would let you fuck me into next week." I giggle at his remark and kiss him softly "Maybe if you're a good boy during dinner, I will later."

Oh, but don't you remember Tricky? You're going to die so there won't be a later.

I pull out of Pete's grip, causing him to whine while I smirk "we don't want to be late Sugar, so brush your teeth and I will get the kids in the car." He sticks his tongue out at me and I flip him off while exiting the bedroom.

You are going to kill yourself tonight, so better make this a good last night, I mean nobody wants to die and have a horrible last impression. Maybe you can be not annoying to be around for one night or will that be too much for you? Probably will, I mean a fuck up like yourself is always annoying- I slapped myself on the side of the head as I entered the kitchen where Bronx was slouched over on a bar stool, staring at his phone. "You're really going to wear that to dinner?" I ask him while eyeing at his pastel purple T-shirt and white jeans accompanied by vans with flowers covering them. "You gotta problem with it Stump?" he glared at me.  I cough "first of all it's Wentz and no I don't have a problem with it, just looks a bit faggy for a 'straight as fuck' guy." He frowns and his eyebrows knit together "says the actual faggot." I stifle a laugh "don't knock it t'ill you try it."
Declan and Saint come running into the kitchen, Declan with his bass case on his back and Saint with his guitar case in his hand. "Dad! Andrew said we could practice in his studio with Bandit and Miles" Saint informs me when he notices me eyeing their cases. "Thats cool little dude, just make sure Bandit keeps her hands off of Declan's bass because I'm sick of replacing it." Both boys nod and Pete comes down with a big grin on his face. "Let's go" he smiles and everyone makes their way to the garage.

"To Fall Out Boy for their fourth album since Joe and I's wedding" Joe's husband Martin-call-me-'Marty' says as he raises his glass. Everyone else including myself does the same. "To Patrick who has recovered so well since his last attempt" Pete says softly and kisses my forehead. "To Joe who has been thirsty for a while and wants to drink" Joe mumbles to himself and takes a quick sip from his beer, everyone chuckles and drinks as well.
People start to chatter and Pete walks over to Brendon who is already drunk. I sip from my whiskey and walk over to Travie who is making out with Gabe. The sluts were really at it, it seemed as Gabe wanted to suck Travie's face off.
"Let him breathe Gabriel" I chuckle at the two men who quickly pull apart. "We-we're not an item!" Gabe swears and holds up his hands. My chuckle turns into a laugh as Travie awkwardly slips his hands into Gabe's back pockets. "I guess that's what you're telling the media" I smirk as the both of them flip me off and I walk away. Not a couple my ass. I excuse myself from the party, telling anyone who asks that I'm going to the bathroom, and head up to Andy's room. I know that he keeps his guns in his closet and the password to his safe was 1980. Fuck, am I really going to kill myself in my best friends closet?

You have to do it Patrick, come on don't chicken out like always.

I opened the doors to Andy's walk in closet and made my way to the back, where I knew that the safe was. I cold feel my heart in my chest, beating as i entered the code to the safe. The safe clicked open and two handguns and a box of bullets were to be seen. I knew that the rest of his guns were in the basement but I didn't want to get those because a handgun was really all I needed. I took one of the guns and made sure it was loaded. I took the handle of the gun and placed the muzzle of the gun at my temple.

a/n
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merry xmas yall