Hi hi, this is the first time I'm writing something like this... honestly I'm surprised I actually am, but you know, you only live once.

So as you may already know my name is weeby, and I like to write with what little free time I have.

Older followers of me may know that I have a tendency to write a bunch of books, only publish a quater of them and then disappear, only then to come back, delete all the books and start again with little to no explanation, only than to say I lost motivation.

That happened again recently (but I didn't delete my work this time) but I think that largely had something to do with what was going on in my personal life, which I'm going to talk about now - feel free to stop reading if you have no interest :)

Let's start in December 2022, I was in my home country spending the Xmas holidays with my family, I hadn't been feeling right for a few months and that largely had something to do with my romantic relationship with my partner, which much to my denial was deteriorating rapidly. It was a hard thing to admit at the time. But looking back on it now it amazes me to see how long it took me to realise that it wasn't healthy for either of us and it wasn't fair on me to drag it on because I was too afraid of the changes it would bring to my life.

During the year 2022 I was not myself at all, I was miserable and withdrawn which was very different from my outgoing self and looking back now, it was largely because of that relationship so in the beginning of 2023 I ended it. It was sad at first but once it was properly over I couldn't help but be happy.

When debating on ending it, I discussed it alot with my friends and one of them said something at still sticks with me.

"Whenever you speak about him, you never look happy" and that's probably the first time I knew it was over. I think towards the end I knew the treatment I was receiving from them wasn't right, and I'm not saying I was perfect either, I definitely was not the best girlfriend in the world but two people not working together is a very normal thing in this world.

It took me more time than it should of to be like my old self again. Family have told me how much happier I am without them and they are right. So I'm glad I ended it, I don't look back on the whole thing with regrets though.

Since then I've spent time focusing on being with the people who love me and reminding myself what it's like to be loved by people who want nothing but the best for you and its amazing. I'm very grateful to have the support system I have :)

Recently, I've also moved out of my family home and now living with my best friends. That's been really healthy I think, I'm having alot of fun, even now as I write this my friend and I are hanging out in my bedroom. If you told young me I'd be out of my somewhat toxic living situation, living with my friends I would have asked why you knew my business and to stop being stupid.

I'm glad i did my best and I was able to begin living the life pre teen me so desperately desired and dreamt about for so long.

I want all of you who are in a difficult situation reading this that one day, you will be living the life you want, if it can happen to me it can happen to you, you just need to stick with it. I promise it does get better, it always does :)

And hopefully you'll always be finding some joy in my books

Thank you for reading

(Felt cute might delete this later because I dislike talking about my personal life online I just felt like this was important)