Nothing about this was normal not even the mourning stage. No one came to visit mom before she left and No one came after. My mom was loved by everyone she knew. Enough to come visit and share grief with me mourn the loss of the nicest, funniest, sweetest woman. And the best mom at that. I was held at the hospital, they said I wasn't handling the grieving well. I was convinced...I was getting tired of reading magazines and it only made the time seem to go slower. I kept telling myself beating myself up.."How could you be reading A People magazine and drinking a coke at a moment like this." I couldn't even answer my conscious. I tried to distract my mind from my lack empathy. So I turned on the tv in the waiting room. Distracting was not even close to what it did...When I turned on the TV the news was on with a live breaking news. What I first saw was just a dumb riot, my guess was about political  reasons with this stupid democracy that I really didn't understand. But then I looked closer i looked closer and the people were throwing themselves  at the danger and beatings. The news channel didn't even try to cover the sensitive content or a viewer discretion . People being beat by batons and shot with guns And water.  It was uncontrollable. I couldn't control myself as I felt my whole body go cold as I shuttered I  turned off the TV and asked to myself what was happening. I looked around me seeing everyone oblivious to the chaos happening in the word. My eyes paused on a lady at the front desk no-one of importance just the glare she gave me. A glare that made me feel guilty even though I know I've done nothing wrong. Our gaze broke as she took a phone call. I shouldve looked away but her reaction to the phone call was panicked as she talked to the nurses near her as they shared the information to others like gossip. Then they freaked out and began running. The hospital intercom went off. " All visitors please make your way calmly to the main lobby. I repeat please make your way calmly to the main lobby, this is not a option. This building is now on lockdown. Patients will not be allowed passed the 4th floor. Nurses will be in your presence. Visitors will be held In quarantine until further notice. Please do not panic your safety is our main priority." I stood in the waiting room watching everyone far from collected, panicked as they ran to the designated room as I following them in shock as I was being pushed from person to person almost loosing my balance. Every one was being put in one room as people with hazmat suits pushed us in making us fit. Iron seals one by one covered the windows, doors, all entrances, and exits. No one was to get in or out. The door shut as all of us shoulder to shoulder freaked out. The guys in the hazmat slammed door and just said "For your safety stay inside."People yelled demanding to know what was going on. But we were left unanswered and alone...