(Lmao this will have straight up spoilers for the Chimera Ant arc ngl

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Laughing was all I could do as I watched Dinner pout at what I told him about his future. Thats right I said future, my Nen ability can tell you something that will happen in the future. Although it was kinda useless at times other than for shits and giggles. When I kiss someone I can see parts of their future, although I don't know when it will happen. When I see there future, the emotions that they are feeling I will also feel, no matter what it may be. I also can't straight out tell them what will happen, but I can't tease and joke about it making them on edge. How long and intense the kiss is also gives me more time to see things happen. I calmed my self as held my bottle of beer a little closer, sure I was tipsy but I knew kite was definitely way worse off when I looked at him. I reached out gently holding his hand making him look at me his eyes almost piercing, if I didn't know him any better I would have thought he wasn't even tipsy, the light pink starting to glow on his ears gave him away, at least to me.

"Kite, won't you let me see? Just a little bit?" I asked my face turning into a pout, the alcohol giving me the courage to ask. "I don't know." Was Kite's slow answer as I moved closer to him giving him puppy eyes, I'd never force him but I still wouldn't mind getting him a little tipsy so he isn't so uptight. Kite normally would have shot me down and left the conversation, but kite was so relaxed and inviting I couldn't help but keep pushing. "Please? Just one little peck." I hummed as I sat onto Kite's lap as he slowly moved his long arms around my waist. "Why do you care so much?" Kite hummed as I just smiled moving both my hands to cup his face, "just say no and I'll stop." I replied not answering his question as I slowly moved forward, Kite himself not moving. I was never going to tell him I just wanted an excuse to finally kiss him.

Once I was only an inch away I activated my Nen before gently kissing him. I felt my spirit be shot into a darkness as I felt my body pull kite closer. The sticky blackness if the void licked at my skin as I waited for clips of the future to start playing. The first clip I got was of two boys, both who couldn't be older than 13 smiling at Kite with a child-like wonder. I felt happiness, pride, and embarrassment mix in my chest at the two, I then felt love flood into the mix when I saw myself staring up at Kite. So kite did love me! I felt my Body kiss kite more romanticly. Then I felt the next part to start, this time Kite was feeling shock and impressed when watching the two mysterious boys fight these, creatures? Before I could try and focus on what they were the next part played. "The Chimera Ant's-" was someone's voice clipped through the air as Kite glared into the eyes of what I was a Chimera ant, and I was scared to even face it in the protection of my own Nen.

Kite was feeling indifferent and a small hint of anxiety as he fought this, ant. The next clip was kite and the two kids standing at an opening, then I felt it, the pure and horrendous taste of death. I felt the panic and anxiety bust inside of kite as he screamed for the two boys to run. Then our of nowhere I felt pain, more pain then I could describe, I saw Kites arm go flying as the two boys Gon and Killua, watched in horror. I felt my physical body start to shake as I kissed Kite as if he'd dissappear. Then next clip was blurry, mixing together into something that hurt in ways I didn't know was possible, the boy in green was Hugging Kite, but from the disturbing numbness Kite was I knew he was dead in the boys arms. I could feel my body's lips start to Trimble as my body went limp in kites gentle hold, Kite was going to die, and I knew how. Feeling the sticky dark hold of my Nen slowly let my soul go as I went back into my body I slowly pulled away from Kite.

I knew that Kite knew something was wrong, I would always be fast to make fun of someone for there choices. I couldn't find the words to even pretend to be okay, I felt the tears building in my eyes as I gently took off Kites hat. And he let me, watching my every move, my seriousness was making him sober up pretty fast. Gently putting on his hat I started to play with his long beautiful long hair, kite almost never let me play with his hair. Kite would always say it make him want to fall asleep, I bit my lip hard enough to draw blood as the tears boiled over and started to madly run down my face. "I," kite paused himself looking up at me, he was clearly fighting himself when he spoke up.

I just shook my head as I dipped my head towards his again this time just enjoying the taste of cheep beer on his lips. My warm tears smudging against his warm perfect skin, the bill of his own hat gently poking his forehead.  Kite just let me his hands wrapped around my waist gently rubbing shapes into it. "I love you, kite I fucking love you so much." I confessed my eyes dancing with a mixture of love and sadness, "As I do you." Kite whispered as I buried my face in the crook of his neck, rubbing my back as I started to full heartily sobbing.

Kite never asked about my breakdown after using my Nen on him. I think deep down he knew exactly what I saw. I'd say I was the most happiest I have been for the past three years but I still couldn't shake off the fear of his death happening too soon. I forced myself to relax as I felt Kite's chest move up and down ontop of me. It was the only way we both felt safe sleeping, Kite could always be ready to protect me and I could always feel that he was alive and okay ontop of me. Kite was a normally light sleeper, but he just got home from a long hunt for the butterfly beetles, so he probably wouldn't wake up unless I tried to wake him. I spent most nights like this, kite would always disapprove at the fact I'd never sleep normal hours. But I couldn't help it, between my worried thoughts and stress of know what was to come, I couldn't bring my self to stop. Kite when sleeping was one of the most beautiful sights I've seen in my life, and I knew one day I'd never see it again.

Our anniversary, it was our 7 year anniversary. I thought watching the team look at the arm of an over sized Chimera Ant, with the size of it, it could kill a human and eat it. I couldn't help but feel physically sick as I looked at the arm, the end was nearing and I Don't think I had the strength. "Why?" Was Kite's simple question when I asked if I could join him on his adventure for the Chimera Ant's. I mean he was obviously confused, I never liked to go on super long hunts I just never was the type. "Are you telling me no?" I frowned, sure it was a bratty move but it made Kite back off and agree. It was the night before we left, our bags packed and sitting at the front door waiting for us in the morning. I was washing our dishes as Kite dryed them, I mean I guess I might as well make my last move. Dropping a plastic cup I made kite jump as I bent down on one knee saying a couple sorry's. I looked up at kite who looked at me in confusion as I looked lovingly up at him, "you know, before we started taking I kept pinning after you to the point Dinner would make fun of me." I confessed my smile warm as kite turned a light pink. Growing up the way kite did even the most smallest yet complete earnestly things made him turn beautiful colors.

"I guess I wasn't the best at picking up on much back then." Kite shyly chuckled looking away. Taking the opportunity I took the small box out of my pocket and opened it presenting it to him. "Kite." I gently cooed making him turn back to me, his whole face going blood red. "Kite, cou-" before I could even try to start asking him, Kite pulled out a similar box. I started laughing as Kite joined me on the ground, his lanky legs making it a little awkward for him as he also presented me a wedding band. "I was going to ask you during the trip." Kite confessed as he slipped the ring on my left ring finger. The ring it's self was absolutely stunning, the main piece was a beautiful sapphire the same color as his hat, then the band was covered with small diamonds. Simple yet one of the most breath taking things I've seen. "Well, I guess you could say I was the one who always ready for the next step." I joked knowing I was actually the first for everything, not that kite hasn't been with someone before. Kite most of the time let his anxiety get to him more often than not, making him very stand offish, and not make a move. Kite breathlessly chuckled at my comment as I slipped his wedding band on, it was a completely gold band with a (f/c) jewel in the middle before a few small diamonds shrouding it.

"I love you Kite, and when meet these boys, I want you to know that they love you too. I want you to know that you will never be alone, not untill I take my last breath." Kite's eyes fluttered with supirsed, he wasn't sure what I was talking about. I could see the question before he could even ask, smiling I wrapped my arms around  Kite's neck as I pulled him into a kiss. Although that seemed to give him the wrong idea, "we have two boys!?" Kite eyes go wide as he broke the kiss making me burst with laughter. "No, but they are like our own." I giggled kissing across his jaw making him pout, "are you sure?" I grinned as I kissed the shell of his ear, "if you're a good boy and take me to bed right now we can try to have some of our own." I whispered biting into his neck right under his ear. I burst out with laughter when Kite picked me up as if I was a princess kissing all over my face. "I love you, and I hope you know I'll carry you tomorrow." I burst into another round of laughter butterflies dancing in my stomach as Kite took us into our shared room.

(I WAS GONNA END THIS HERE BUT FUCK IT IM IN A SAD MOOD SO CRY LITTLE CHILD.)

I couldn't stop staring at my wedding ring as Kite was trying to fish, the blue made my heart swell in love. seeing a flash of yellow right in front of me I froze, locking eyes with two very familiar boys. I sat a gentle hand on Kite's shoulder as he finished yelling at the boys, "Gon, Killua, I'm glad you're here." I offered making all three stare at me in suprise, before Killua was on edge. "How do you know us?" Killua demanded as Gon was staring at me with confusion, probably thinking He had met me before Like Kite. "My Nen lets me see the future." I chuckled making Gon gasp in awe, Killua on the other hand still didn't seemed convinced.

Soon enough it was late and we was all sitting around the fire, Gon making Kite more chatty than usual witch in turn made me smile. "Are you two married?" Killua suddenly asked making Kite turn a bright red and look away, making some of his long Hair fall in his face. "We actually got engaged before this adventure." I answered for kite making him look down at me, the same way I saw seven years ago. I felt a tear roll down my face making kite slightly panic, "what's wrong?" Kite cupped my face making me laugh turning to the fire. "You know I get all emotional when moments I see come true, especially when I can remember how much love you felt when you looked at me just then." I confessed making Gon let out a loud Awe in turn making Killua hit him for 'ruining the moment.' "But I've never seen you so cry out of nowhere like that." Kite rebutted making me just laugh waving him off, "hush, I'm getting old." I joked we both were in our late 20s but that didn't matter, it still made Kite lightly chuckle.

It was early morning, only Killua was awake, I didn't sleep but I wasn't going to tell anyone that. "Killua, you want to come with me to grab some fruit?" I asked making him freeze probably thinking he was the only one up. "Sure, nothing better to do." Killua muttered standing up following me to a fruit tree I found a few days before. "Can you really see the future?" Killua asked seeming deep in thought as he handing me a couple fruits. "Yes, but it isn't that good, I can only see random thing that will happen your future. Take kite as an example, I saw his future 7 years ago and just now its happening." I explained making Killua slowly nod, a frown dancing on his lips. "Killua can you do me a favor?" I asked looking at the sunrise over the lake. "Is it about something you saw in Kite's future?" I almost would have laughed if I was wanting to cry so bad. "Yes, can you keep a secret?" I felt Killua tense next to me feeling just how serious I was. "Yes."

I sat my hand on Killua's head gently petting it like I did to kite some days. "When you guys go on the trip to NLG, and you, Gon, and Kite go to that Clift opening." I stopped my self taking in a deep breath, "I want you to grab his hat, I want you to grab his hat and then knock out Gon and run." I got on my knees and grabbed both of Killua's hands and looked up at him. "You are a smart and strong boy, I need you run no matter how much you want to fight, all that matters is grabbing Gon and keeping you both alive." Killua was clearly shocked as he tried his best to read me. "What is going to happen." Killua asked firmly his eyes blown out, I could tell he didn't understand the gravity of my words, so I lied. "I don't know, I didn't get that far." I whispered as Killua nodded, he may be an amazing liar, but I always had the experience. "I promise to get the hat, and I'll make sure no matter what Gon will be okay." Killua confirmed making me pull him into a hug. "No matter what you tell yourself killua. You are one of thee most strongest people I will ever know." I whispered as I slowly let him go, Killua was shocked at my words.

Thankfully I was right in trusting Killua, he was great at acting like nothing happened. I mused as both Killua and Gon met the rest of the team, who Thankfully was right on time. Before we went on this and Kite was right, I hated going on trips like this for so long, but I was happy with the extra time with Kite. I wish I was a hunter, maybe then I coukd have gone with them to NLG, maybe if I would have tried a little harder I wouldn't have had to expect this. "I love you, i'm going to miss you." I whispered as I held Kite as close as I possibly could. "I'll be back, this isn't different then any other trip." Kite mused kissing my forehead as I desperately wanted to melt into his touch. "I know." But how much I wished I didn't, "I love you." Kite kissed me gently, kite always saved the 'I love yous.' For trips that were longer than three months. I think deep down he also knew that this would be his last, "i'm sorry." I held back the sob that was building in the back of my throat as they walked away.

I felt my heart squeeze uncomfortablely tight with Pain and fear as I laid away on the bed I got when staying in the county over from NLG. "He's gone." I whispered biting down on my hand to keep from sobs slipping through my mouth. Whenever on of my visions came true, I would feel their last emotion before the unknown sat in my stomach.

"I'm sorry." Killua offered me Kite's hat while Gon was on his back completely passed out. "I knew it was going to happen." I confessed as I gently took Gon from him, Killua looked up at me with an emotion he couldn't place. "You got engaged knowing this would happen?" I smiled as a couple tears down my face, "I wanted him to have no regrets." I guided Killua up to my room where we all would be staying. Killua sat next to me in the living room, both of us at a lost of words. "Why didn't you try to save him?" Killua asked, his voice was slightly accusing but I just sighed. "Because it would have caused more death, if I focused hard enough on a plan to save kite and then re-check his future I would see how his future would have changed." I softly spoke, Killua seemed to regret his tone of voice as he looked away.

"You know how many times I watch you, Gon and Kite be killed? I even watched as the own light in my eyes left. I don't think I could have ever saved anyone." Killua recoiled at my words probably imagining what I just told him. "Don't tell Gon, just let him think Kite is hiding, just an arm missing wouldn't kill him." I let a few tears roll down my face as I clutched the hat closer to my body. "Okay." Killua answered, I gently petted his hair before standing up. "Go check on Gon, he'll be lonely without his partner in crime when he wakes up." I joked as I made my way to the door, "where are you going?" Killua asked as I gave him a small smile, "I have to call an old friend."

"Hello." I heard a gruff voice greet me annoyed. "Hi Ging, I'm glad you picked up after calling you 32 times." I stated glaring at the water fountain, if Kite didn't look up to him so much I wouldn't have called him. "Y/n? You never call me." Ging actually sounded surprised to the point I heard him sit up straight. "Yeah well, I want you to know something's happened." Ging went completely silent, I think he could already tell. "Things?" Ging asked pointing out the fact I had more than one thing to tell him. "Want good or bad news first?" I hummed, gently sitting a hand on my stomach. "Good." Ging mused, I could hear him shuffling around on the other end of the line. "Well, I'm engaged and I'm pregnant." I almost laughed when I heard a glass cup drop and him start to choke. "Sense when!?" Ging asked his voice going a couple pitchs higher in shock.

"Enaged a month ago then I've been pregnant for three months, I just Got it confirmed from a doctor two days ago." Ging went quiet again, and this time I let him think it over. "Kite wanted you to be the God father, even though you're a jack ass and kinda a dead-beat." That actually made Ging laugh loudly making a real smile pull on my face, the first one sense the night before Kite and I left for this trip. "So will I be?" Ging of course asked making me sigh, "yeah, but that means you actually got to meet them more than when they are a baby, you're going to be in their life even if I have to hunt you down or not." I threatened making Ging laugh again, then I felt the conversation turn grim once more. "What was the bad news." I felt myself starting to clam up as I looked down at the hat in my left hand. "Kite was killed yesterday night." This time Ging was silent for a long time to the point a couple times I thought he hung up.

"What are you going to do?" Ging asked as I looked up into the window of my room to see Gon sitting up talking to Killua probably. "Make sure your son doesn't go on a murder spree." This made Ging sigh, "How is he?" I sat down at the fountain looking at the birds that danced in the sky. "Like you, honestly. Although I think you shouldn't have pushed him away so much." I hummed as Ging didn't reply. "Was Gon with him when it happened." Ging asked making me frown rubbing my eyes remembering the fear and anger on Gon's face all those years ago. "Yeah, but I made sure he would live." Actually I banked on the hope that Killua would be able to pull it off. "Thanks." Ging mumbled as I sat up straight waving at Gon who was smiling at me. "You're welcome shit show, I'll see you soon, or else I'm going to make sure you won't be able to have another kid." I threatened hanging up the phone as I walked to join the boys upstairs, putting on Kite's blue hat.

(I'm sad and I miss Kite Y'all, fuck this shit we needed more normal kite. Also I was planning on spacing out kite one-shots more but I haven't finished anything else lmao- I've been busy with an old friend)

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