Amanda Pov

Sammy was a year old and I felt so fucking ancient as I remember the day she was born like it was yesterday, (and yet it was not, because the time went by so fucking fast that I felt like I was getting fucking old, ok, fucking sue me Karen).

So we had a picnic, as that seemed to Danny and I like it was the most Sammy friendly thing for us to do as a family, (plus we got some time outside in the nice weather, so sue me), Sammy seemed to be content with that, (though Sammy most of the time was a happy baby, so that might have something to do with this), and honestly she was just so adorable that I could've cried, (I don't know wether that was because I was feeling old, or wether it was because I had baby fever).

"Mandy, if you're thinking what I think that you're thinking, you had a hard recovery"
"I'm pretty sure that you were also pretty paranoid about everything Mr Anderson"
"It's not being paranoid if you're clumsy and accident prone Mandy"
"Says the man who nearly cut his hand off last week"
"I never said that I wasn't accident prone"
"Whatever helps you sleep at night Daniel"

I could feel rather than see the eye roll that ensued, but regardless of that, I did kind of get what Danny was getting at, (though that didn't mean that any of the hormonal shit went away, because it didn't at all, because baby fever and shit babes), it was quite nice to just chill with nature though.

So Sammy fell asleep on the picnic blanket, (to be fair to her, being outside is more tiring than being inside because of all the fresh air), she just looked so adorable that it actually made my baby fever so much worse, (like so much worse), (like it was insanely unfair how my baby fever reacted).

"We probably should have an actual serious conversation about having more kids or not Mandy"
"Yeah we should, I know something went wrong with Sammy because I was in hospital for a while afterwards, because they don't keep people in hospital for the shits and giggles, but I don't know the damage because I was fucking out of it"

Danny's body language changed a little bit, and not necessarily in a good way, (like it just felt... sad?, blue?), which worried me a little bit to be honest, (as he doesn't usually show his emotions outwardly), so I felt kinda bad about the whole baby fever thing even though I knew that I couldn't really bloody control it, ya know, (or maybe you don't know that, I'm not gonna assume what you do and don't know here).

"You nearly died Mandy"
"Well shit, no wonder you were bloody paranoid afterwards, why didn't you say it to me?"
"I wasn't going to say that to you that you nearly died while you were giving birth, as that just felt like I was using it against you"
"I wouldn't have thought that you were bloody paranoid if ya did tell me"
"I mean yeah but-"
"Emotions are not something that you're good at dealing with, I know that, but you're too hard on yourself about things sometimes and it's not healthy for you Babe"

Danny just looked so sad, even though I was here and fine, (though I also felt bad that it even happened in the first place, regardless of how little control I had over it), so I did what felt natural at the time and I hugged him, (though I'm not great at emotions either, I was just better at hiding it than Danny was).

"You know that bottling everything up will just make everything feel like 10x worse"
"I know that in theory, it's just hard to put into practice, how do you do it?"
"I just cry an awful lot, I probably cry a lot more than is recommend for an adult to cry"
"Is there a recommended amount to cry?"

I don't know why I found that so fucking hilarious, but I just did, so I giggled, (was it a bit weird for me to laugh?, yes it was, but sue me for what I found funny), but I didn't make Danny feel bad by doing as such, so there was that going for me.

"(Snorts), I'm sorry, your question shouldn't be funny, but it's just really funny to me"
"(Snorts), No no, I get it, it's kind of funny"
"I'm glad that you see it"
"Well they do say that great minds think alike-"
"You do know that the rest of that is 'though fools seldom differ' Danny"
"I actually didn't know that"
"Well now you do"