Amanda Pov

So Danny and I were in bed, (as Danny needed to sleep in a proper bed and he won't do that without me laying there beside him), but Danny hadn't been sleeping properly, (he was worried about his Dad, which I get), but I was kind of worried about him.

"Do you want to talk about what's bothering you Danny?"
"No, as there's nothing that they can do for Dad"
"You know that you'll bubble up from keeping all your emotions inside like that"
"I'm used to it"
"That's not healthy for anyone Daniel"

Danny sighed and held me closer if that was even possible, (which was probably to make sure that I was still ok), so I carded my fingers through his hair, as I knew that it usually helped with stress and shit, (which I learned from experience rather than here-say, ya know).

"Yeah but I'm not supposed to let anyone know that I'm not ok, as guys are supposed to be the emotional rock, you know"
"Babe, you don't have to keep it all inside-"
"Yeah but-"
"Danny I married you because I love you, I didn't marry you for you to be an emotional rock that doesn't feel things, as I don't think that is very emotionally healthy, but even if I was going to marry for that reason, I would've married Terry and that just feels a bit incesty to me"
"Ew"
"Exactly"
"(Snorts)"

I was glad that I got Danny to laugh a little at that, (even if it was a little bit self-deprecating on my part), but that didn't really solve the problem at hand, ya know, (but I'm not fucking God though, so sue me), (though actually please don't sue me, as I'm really fucking broke), but then again I don't think that anything I could have done would've actually solved the problem at hand here.

He was quiet for a couple of minutes, so I thought that he might've fallen asleep or something, but he didn't, (though I definitely should've known him better than that considering that we're married), but I let him say the next thing as I knew that he needed the time to process, (you would need it too if you were in his shoes).

"I know that it's normal for me to feel like this, especially because Dad's the parent that I really have, but it just feels so stupid"
"It's not stupid Babe, I know that I'm not an expert on feelings here, because ya know, foster care kid here, but this would make most people worried about their parent"

I knew that me saying this would not solve the problem here, (even though I know that words are powerful, they're not all healing), but it seemed to help him for then, (though I'm not an expert on feelings here, so please don't sue me here), but I also knew that Danny was far from being ok, (and it would be like that for a while yet), (plus his Dad was in the hospital, it makes sense that he's worried about him).

"Are you sure that I haven't fucked up your sleep schedule Mandy?"
"You can't fuck up an already fucked up sleep schedule Daniel, I'm an insomniac on normal terms"
"Well yeah but-"

I know that I probably shouldn't have cut him off, but I knew that he was going to try and stay up with me if he finished what he was going to say to me, and the whole idea of us going home and going into bed was for him to try and actually get some sleep, though I also knew that he was worried about me.

"Shh!, you're overthinking things, the hospital will call if something happens and I'll hear the phone ring since I don't sleep anyway, so try and get some sleep Babe"
"You too Babe"
"I'll try to sleep but as an insomniac I make no promises"
"Ok"

I didn't really sleep but Danny did sleep, (though what was new with my lack of sleep here?), so I was glad that he did sleep a little bit, (even if it wasn't a lot and not his usual amount of sleep), though honestly if this was how worried Danny was about my sleep all the time then I feel fucking awful about it, (not that I can do much about it as I don't control my insomnia but still, I felt bad about it).

I felt a bit on edge, but that was because Danny's Dad was in the hospital dying, ('cause while insomnia is a bitch, it rarely made me feel on edge), and I was going to be the one to hear the phone ring if something went wrong, (so no pressure here... ).