warning: this book has harsh topics such as rape, violence, sexual assault, child neglect, self harm, suicidal ideations, and more, they will be listed as the chapters go by.

in this chapter there is rape, insinuations of rape, insinuations of self harm, and sexual assault

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Survive. That's the first thing I learned how to do in this life. The world is cruel and unjust, and the people in it are soulless creatures who don't deserve happiness. They hide behind their smiles with others but show their true colors with me. It's something I figured out early on— you can't trust anyone but yourself, no one cares about you other than you.

"You're a bastard! Get the hell out of here!!" In my fucking leg. A broken glass bottle, straight to my leg. I fucking hate this. I picked up my pace as I noticed the crowd growing larger than before, the items they grabbed off the street also got larger and more dangerous. They yelled at me, things I've heard before, calling me a monster and that I shouldn't have survived after all the pain I've caused. It truly wasn't my fault though, I learned a couple months back after... the incident, that within me was something that the world was afraid of, something that shouldn't exist, something that would change my life more than it already has.

You might be a little confused, let me explain the situation. My name is Naruto, no last name, and I'm the jinchuriki of the nine-tailed beast, Kurama. It basically means I'm super strong but also super dangerous so nobody wants me alive even though Kurama being inside of me is what's keeping them all alive.

Currently though, he was away doing something with his newfound freedom I granted him in exchange for saving my life. So, as per usual, I was left unattended, my father being the hokage and my mother not being able to spare me a second glance. Well, I wasn't completely unattended, I was under the watch of the previous villagers of the Hidden Leaf, but let's say their hospitality wasn't the best.

From the corner of my eye, I saw someone watching with a smirk. It was only for a split second, but her hair was instantly recognizable: Kushina, my creator, the one who gave me life... the one who puts me through hell, my mother.

Before I knew it I was backed into the corner of an alleyway, surrounded by people of different status, race, origin, religion, and gender. These people would never give each other the time of day in normal circumstances, but I guess the one thing they can always agree on is that I am nothing more than a nuisance to the village and need to be dealt with.

"You monster of a child! How dare you be born!? You took my family from me!" That's always what it is. It's always something that I did, so they go and beat, bruise, assault, and rape a child. It isn't fair. I hate this village. I wish they would all perish.

A few of them approached me, kunai in hand, and as I tried to make a run for it, one of them grabbed me by the hair and kept me still. The tears fell from my eyes unwillingly, but that didn't stop me from begging. "Please, I'm sorry, don't hurt me, I'll leave the village, I'm sorry!!" The tears didn't stop and I was hyperventilating as two older men approached me, one of them holding a bottle, clearly drunk off his ass. I recognized this. It was going to happen. Again. They were going to do this to me, again.

I screamed, I begged, I cried and I pleaded, but they feel upon deaf ears. I hate this village. I hate feeling like this. They just... how could they just do this to a child? How could they ever take pleasure in seeing a child be assaulted like this?! How could they participate in it? How could they...

It's become more often, that they've started doing that. I hate it. I hate it so much. It sets my skin on fire and makes my head reel. It's like they're a part of me and I can't cut them out no matter how hard I try to, their hands are engraved onto my skin, they'll never disappear, they'll stay with me. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it!! I hate it all!

"There's not much you can do at this point, kid, you're about as useless as a rotting rope." Kurama. I fucking blacked out. They.. fucking fuck. Fuck. Fuck!! "Kurama, I need to wake up." The fox turned his head and scoffed, "Why would I help you?" I gave him freedom.. did I not? Why is he here? "I get weaker the longer I'm away from you and seeing as how you were on the brink of death, I was forced to come back." I pulled at my hair, trying to make myself feel better. I hate blacking out. It's a defense mechanism to protect myself but it makes things worse because that just means I can't fight back. I hate them!

"You're too bothersome for a kid, if you hate them, why not just kill them all?" I hate them. I hate them. I hate them. Someone grabbed my face and made me look at them. Kurama, he turned into a human again.

He rubbed my face, "You're so pitiful— to think someone like you is keeping me at bay." I hate them. "Then don't you think you should do something about that?" He got closer and I tried to back away but he kept me there. "Stop wallowing at your pity party and make yourself useful. Become the strongest, put yourself in the highest position possible so that no one can touch you. And when you're at the top, looking down on everyone who ever laid hands on you, take everything they love from them and crush them under your foot." The top? How would I get to the top? I'm just... I'm just Naruto. When you've been at rock bottom for so long, hopes of crawling out all seem to fade when you can't even see the light.

Kurama laughed, "How? Are you stupid? Your father is the hokage." Yeah but... he doesn't care. It's been happening this whole time and nothing's changed. "We need to get him on our side, he's the only person who can help you right now. Naruto, you're sitting on a gold mine. You easily have the tools necessary to become the greatest thing that's happened to this world." The greatest? "The fucking greatest. Your father is weak for his children, you included. But he stands behind your mother right now, and seeing as how you're on timeout from your house, she doesn't have any plans on letting you see him."

I want... I want to see the light.

"Naruto, when you're at the top you'll be begging the sun to go away." Well...  can that really happen..? Even if it could why...? "Why are you helping me?" "I want something from you in the future. You need to be the strongest in order to achieve that." "How... how do I become the strongest?" "You start by finally meeting with your father again. But to do that, you need to wake up."

My eyes opened. I fucking hate this village. It's too bright to even see the stars. There's no one around though, they must've all left. I can't get up, my body is exhausted.

They did it again. I know them, I know they didn't stop after I passed out. I know they passed me around like a whore. But I'm not. I am not my mother. And I know it's going to happen again. I need to become strong enough to protect myself. And then... maybe I can finally—

No. I need to focus on myself. I need to figure out a way back into that house. Could I just walk in? Kushina couldn't send me away in front of the Hokage, could she? "Kurama, I swear that I'll become the strongest, and I'll get rid of her too. I'll protect myself and the people I care about." The people I care about? Who? The hokage? My siblings? What were their names again? Mai? Miela? Mera? No... Who am I kidding? The people dearest to me don't give a rats ass about me; they've been fine all this time on their high horses, they'll be fine in the future.

This is my fucking life, I'm going to be selfish, use everyone to my advantage, and live only for myself.

How fucking wrong I was.

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Okay I'm super scared to post this bc idk how you guys are gonna feel bc it's a rewrite but there's a bunch of changes!! So you're kinda reading a new book atp... the ending will stay the same since I have those chapters on my phone !
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