Walking on eggshells.

Michael never really understood the phrase. Sure, he knew it meant a fragile situation. But whenever he imagined it, he couldn't really wrap his head around it.

See, if you were walking on eggshells, it would hurt to step on one. But would anything break if you stepped on the eggshells?

Instead, he liked to pretend the phrase was more of walking on eggs. You have to be careful not to step on the eggs. One wrong step and you'll break some. It would hurt, and you'd have a broken egg.

That's how Michael felt. He felt like he was walking on eggs.

Jeremy was finally out of the hospital and everything was continuing like before. As if nothing had changed- as if nothing had happened.

At first he was so ecstatic. He had his best friend back, why wouldn't he be? But, every now and then, he would get to thinking. And something still felt so weird.

Michael didn't know if Jeremy ever thought of that Halloween party anymore. But he wasn't going to ask. He might break an egg and then this balance would be gone. Things would be messy like yolk again.

But, oh how badly he wanted to talk about that night. He wanted to pour out his heart. He wanted to tell him how much he meant to him. He wanted to tell him he didn't blame him. He wanted to tell him everything was fine, just for closure. He wanted to beg him not to ever leave again.

He never wanted to go through that again.

Part of him hoped Jeremy never thought about that night. He didn't want him to feel guilty in any way. And maybe if Jeremy had forgotten, he could forget too.

But part of him hoped Jeremy hasn't forgotten. Maybe if he felt guilty, he wouldn't do it again. Maybe he'd make even more of an effort to be around Michael then he normally would.

No, he thought, that's selfish.

He pushed the thought away and sighed, turning up his music.

Everything is fine, he told himself, it was just a one time thing.

But deep down he knew it wasn't completely. And it wouldn't be. Not until they talked about it. He knew it would be fine once they talked about.

But they couldn't.

He couldn't.

He was too afraid of breaking an egg.

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hey sorry, this was just me venting all my weird thoughts and feelings. but idk maybe my weird metaphors are enjoyable? probably not.

anyway, you guys probably didn't see our message board, but may is taking a weekend trip and left me in charge. so y'all are stuck with just me for the weekend lmao

ALSO THANK YOU FOR 5O FOLLOWERS??!!? LIKE JESUS CHRIST DO WE EVEN DESERVE THIS?!??!

idk man, thanks guys i'm gonna get ice cream lol

-becca