Jealous and alone

Jared is jelly.
I was gonna make this short, until my brain kept spewing ideas and I just kept on writing so yeah!

Suggestion from dearestevanhansen
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JARED POV

I got on the bus, I was the last stop, and went to where Evan and I usually sit. When I got there I saw Connor sitting next to him. I was triggered. But I hid it like I have been for years now. God Connor just loves to make things difficult for me.

It started with Connor bursting in on our conversations, then he would take my seat next to Evan at lunch, then he would be parters with Evan in every class he had with him, then Evan would hang out with him instead of me, and now he's taking my bus seat.

It feels like I'm losing my only friend.

I sat behind them next to some emo girl with a MCR shirt, and I looked at my lap. But that's what I did a lot these days.

I sat in the back of science. Watching Connor and Evan laugh about some shit. I wish it was me sitting with him, laughing about some shit.

I was just watching until I saw Connor wink and shoot a finger gun at Evan, who was blushing. I'M TRIGGGGGGEEEEERREDDDDD!!!! That was MY THING!

But the truly sad thing is that I can't do anything about it.

Pretty much every day after that he flirted with Evan 24/7!

A Friday

I was at my locker getting some books out to study because I knew I wouldn't have anything else to do. After all, I have no friends.

Evan and Connor came walking towards me. Connor had his arm around Evan. All the sudden I just couldn't hold my feelings in anymore so I just acted on impulse.

"GOD FUCKING DAMNIT!!! YOU CAN'T STAY AWAY FROM EACH OTHER FOR ONE MOTHER FUCKING MINUTE!!!"
I shouted, my hands up near my head.

"What the fuck Jared?"
Connor said, surprised.

On the other hand, Evan actually looked... pissed.
"WHY DO YOU CARE ANYWAY? YOU JUST TALKED TO ME FOR CAR INSURANCE!"

"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU DIPSHIT"
I felt hot tears fall down my face.
"and you don't even acknowledge my existence anymore! You don't hang out with me you don't say 'hi' to me in the hallways. I don't have any friends and my crush is always around someone else. It just... hurts a lot."

I was looking down at my feet with tears soaking my shoes.

I noticed how quiet it was and I looked around and saw everyone looking at me.

"I-I should just go."
I said defeated.

I walked out away from all the eyes watching me. I didn't care if Evan followed me. I didn't care if he never talked to me again. I didn't care if he looked at me with disgust. I didn't care. I just didn't care. I don't care! I don't... I was practically sobbing as I walked home. I could've rode the bus but I couldn't face all the people, let alone Evan.

I eventually arrived at my house and walked to my bed before collapsing and screaming into my pillow. I was so tired of this.

I don't even know how long I was lying there before I fell asleep.

EVAN POV

WELL THEN

I felt really bad. But what made me feel even worse was that, I didn't even notice that I hadn't talked to Jared in weeks. I completely forgot about him. And all he wanted was a friend. And he loves me? It was a lot to take in.

He looked around and his eyes widened at all the people watching. 

"I-I should just go."
Jared said looking like a puppy who just gotten his treat stolen from him.

He walked away and I tried to go after him. He was crying! I needed to help him. He's still my friend. But a hand on my shoulder held me back.

"Wha-"
"He probably just needs to be alone right now"
Connor said to me.

I mumbled an okay and we walked to the bus together

Half way to my house Connor asked,
"Hey wanna come to my house?"

I thought of something
"Sorry I can't! I h-have to um... do s-something for my um... mom! M-maybe another time!"
I lied. I didn't want Connor to know what I was really going to do.

When I got off the bus I waved goodbye to Connor and walked to my house. Once I got inside I set my bag down and left. I walked to Jared's house so I could talk with him.

Luckily I still knew the route.

I got there and knocked.

No one replied. I wiggled the handle, realizing that it was already unlocked. I walked in and looked for Jared. I went up to his room and saw him laying on his side, sleeping. I had the sudden impulse to take pictures.

I did. But when I looked closer I saw from underneath his crooked glasses were tear stains and his nose was a little runny. I felt guilt hit me like the printer Connor threw hit his second grade teacher.

I sat down next to him and pulled the smaller boy into my lap at I grabbed the tissue box. I used the tissues to wipe off his nose and eyes. I took his glasses off and kissed his nose before laying down, setting him beside me. I ran a hand through his hair and let sleep take over me.

JARED POV

I woke up with arms wrapped around me. Holy motherfucking shit. Evan. Is. In. My. Bed. But why? I thought he didn't care about me anymore? I started to cry again, but this time because I was happy. He actually cared about me. He didn't just abandon me.

I heard a ding and saw Evan's phone on the nightstand. It was a text from Connor. I put my glasses on to read it.

Conbon (7:26)
Hey Ev

Conbon (7:49)
Are you okay?

Conbon (8:03)
Hello?

Conbon (8:27)
I'm coming over

Conbon (8:32)
Why aren't you at your house?

Conbon (now, 8:45 pm)
I'm going to Jared's

I started to panic a little. I heard the door open.

"Ev? Are you here?"

I gasped slightly and covered my mouth.

"Evan? Was that you? Are you okay?"
His voice was full of concern but all I could focus on was about how screwed I was.

"Are you in here?"

He opened the door to see a terrified Jared standing by the bed with tears running down his face and a sleeping Evan.

I wasn't surprised that he was surprised, but what did surprise me was how he walked over to me and picked me up by the collar and looked at me threateningly.

"What did you do to him"
Connor said, his voice threatening.

All I could do was shake my head.

"BULL SHIT! What. Did. You. Do."

"I didn't do anything..." I whimpered out

He didn't seem to care. He punched me in the face, dropping me. He kicked me in the gut and pushed me aside with his foot to reach Evan. He shook Evan awake and asked him,
"Evan! Are you okay? What did he do to you? Did he drug you?"

"What? Jared?"
Evan was clearly confused.

I tried to get up but it hurt to bad, so I fell back down with a grunt.

"Yes what did he d-"
"JARED?"

Evan cut Connor off and shoved him out of the way. He kneeled beside me. I turned away embarrassed.

"Jared I need to see!"
He sounded...worried about me?

I turned to him and he sat me up against the bedpost.

His expression turned from sad and concerned to angry.

"Connor what the hell?!?!"

"I thought he did something to you!"
Connor said defensively

"Did you even bother to listen to him?"

Connor just looked away in shame.

"Leave. Now."

"Bu-"
"NOW."
Evan asserted
His gaze softened,
"Listen, Connor, we can still be friends, but I honestly didn't really like you any more than just a friend. But you will have to sincerely (me) apologize to Jared later agreed?"

"Okay"
Connor mumbled łike a whiny kid.

Evan helped me with my wounds and eventually we all became good friends until Evan asked me out one day and then we had babies the end.

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